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blog closure

2009-03-22T00:23:00.000-07:00

yoz yoz...i wanna thank the ppl who had been kind enough to pop by my blog at times, hoping to see a new entry...but had to leave with disappointment since NOTHING is updated =P...very sorry because been really lazy to blog...but then but then...i'll be back once i find a nice blogskin...hehez...so do look out for news!!! i'll announce the whole world when my blog is activated again! once again...thanx for supporting this blog since donkey years!!!!!! arigatogozaimasu!!!!

dog shit luck

2008-09-07T04:00:00.000-07:00

probably u're wondering why my entry title sounds crude...hahahz...cos someone who noes palmistry says tat i got 'dog shit luck'! indeed, i think i do...well...sometimes =P

anyway back to my blog update time! finally i got some time to yak abt myself again (self-obsession time!)...though it's still slow blogging on my part...but super happy tat my frens out there still support my humble blog...yes tat's what i wan to see! floods of tags! hahahz! yup yup...gonna talk abt the recent sch bash & dnd i attended and busy sch life? really nothing much though...just tat i realised i've been a bit 'crazy' these days...experiencing 'silent fed-ups', cracking stupid jokes...becoming super gossipy & 'scheming'...talk nonsense...ahhh it's like my dark side is emerging...maybe i'm just trying to relieve hmwrk stress by being crazy...so dun be frightened by me if i act 'funny'...hehe...

yes...i do have stress though u always see me bo-chap...of cos my stress as compared to hardworking ppl is minimal...but this current sch life is busy as usual...and sometimes i wonder where my time had gone to? did i use my time wisely to study or slack? it's always so many things to do yet so little time...i wan more time to study and more time to slack...i wan to sacrifice none! haiz...life's never easy i guess...continue to hang on! yesh!

last 2 weeks i'd been busy with my sch's bash & dnd cos i was one of the programme coordinators...i shld say it was a new experience for me to be a timekeeper on stage to cue the emcees & liaise wif the backstage ppl...ensuring the whole programme runs smoothly...so i didn't really enjoy tat much...but i liked the performance by the pageant contestants, the 8-course food in dnd, the music and the ambience...spotting the handsomes & pretties...i was really happy everything was over cos all my cca commitments had come to an end (so i can focus more time on studies & driving & tuition)...maybe i'll continue to join other cca to noe more friends...but not for now...

oh ya...celebrated one of my fren, Frankie's belated bdae last few weeks with dearest gurgle ppl! we went to eat minstry of food (MOF)...the dessert is damn nice la even though it's quite ex! i muz go there and eat again!!!! later on, we did our trademark photography session at the esplanade...another day of fun & enjoyment =) really looking forward to the upcoming mooncake festival & bdae celebrations!

juz now talking abt cca...actually i took up a fitness course with the sch's aerobics club...it's called ABT...Abs.Butt.Thigh! 1hr session every week to exercise which is a must for busy students like me...who's lazy to exercise at home=P hehez...i chose it because i wan to slim down my butt & thigh and have nice abs...had been for 2 sessions already and it's super aching when doing the exercise. hope tat after 1 semester of ABT...i really have the motivation to exercise regularly to have nice ABT!

back to sch...all my labs had started...i got 3 different labs this semesters thus i got tons to lab reports to do for every week! not to mention loads of assignments, quizzies and projects! it's really sianz...hehez...but i shld say it's gd in a way tat i'll be preoccupied with sch wrk! yet again, i am a last minute person so it really takes a toll on me to keep late nights!!! now i really truly treasure my weekends!

wanna share abt the forensic science module tat i'm taking...the contents are getting interesting and gruesome! lects from the deputy public prosecutor herself, Q&A session with a real judge and in-depth talk from the head of forensic managment branch...it's really super cool! the pics shown of various crimes were juz a bit too gruesome la!

wanna say sorry to ah ping for not being able to eat buffet with her...hahahz...cos my timing always clash with ah ong! but dun fret...we'll hang out again real soon!

haiz...feeling sleepy le...wanna go zzz...will blog again soon sometime! (i'm supposed to be online doing lab report...why am i here? yikes!)

sequel curse

2008-08-15T00:18:00.000-07:00

oh dear...i'm lagging on my blog posts again...but i think it doesn't matter anymore...dun think anybody's reading my blog anyway...have to wait so long...hahahaz...so juz blogging for myself to read...pls tag me some stuff so i noe my blog is not on verge of disappearing...=P

haiz...seems so much to blog abt but i dunno where to start...facing the cruel reality of school reopen...yes another round of lectures, tutorials, tests, lab reports and projects...as usual i need time to adjust from holiday to study mode which is always the difficult phase...and time REALLY flies cos i'm yr 2 le...double amt of knowledge to absorb & double level of difficulty...guess wat..i'm taking 5 sci mods this sem...so it's like stuck to sci fac...but one of the mod shld be interesting...FORENSIC SCIENCE...but again the lessons are like 7pm-10pm!!! I hate my timetable tis sem...no free days...long hrs (like 10pm?)...early days..unnecessary breaks...YUCKS...but i'll survive...i hope i will...

i've been busy with driving lessons these few days and for the last few weeks of holidays...i shld say i manage to overcome my driving fear and my skills are relatively ok...now tat sch reopens...my lessons are very less frequent and this is scaring me cos i realise i forget lots of stuff if i dun practise regularly...i juz nvr drive for 5 days then i began to make many silly mistakes during my recent lessons...omg...tat's y i say mahz...i've no consistency in wat i do...haiz...tat's my weakness! now i'm midway thru my driving course...hope i can pass by tis year...seriously hope! =)

oh yeah back to the title of my post...wat's sequel curse? it is actually wat i realise after watching so many sequels and almost none can be compared to their previous ones...dramas are like tat...movies are also like tat...recently i went on a movie frenzy (cos got student discount...hehe), watching money no enough 2 (wif my mom), mummy tomb of dragon emperor (wif ong) & 12 lotus (myself onli)...i can say tat none is as gd or better than their previous...

money no enough 2 was damn funny & sad at the same time. i had more tears of sorrow than joy (i cried until my eyes were still red when the movie ended!)...more of a melodrama...i prefer the 1st one but i cnt condemn the 2nd one cos it's really not bad...though i found the visuals lousy (but cnt blame since it's spore production), not much concentration on money issues but more on family issues...nevertheless i'll still support jack neo movies...they never fail to make me laugh & get into the story!

the mummy 3 was actually quite nice though the story plot was fairly simple & predictable...i like the addition of jet li & michelle yeoh...and the visuals are fantastic...but mummy 3 may lose out to mummy 1 & 2 cos it lacks the wow factor and excitement i shld say...and i think the movie duration is quite short so the movie seems a bit rushed? however, i'm easily contented...

12 lotus is the most recent movie i watch since it's like the 'not related' sequel to 881...and guess wat...i watched alone!!!!! actually it's quite shiok to watch alone...hahahz...better than to eat alone lohz...hahahz...back to the movie...i still prefer 881 but i like 12 lotus cos got romance element. But come to think abt it...the love element wasn't very strong..and it comes as a sad plot. i really sympathise with lian hua's fate in the movie...it's a sad sad story though i didn't cry i got tears in my eyes. a lot a lot of hokkien songs to expect which are catchy & gd acting frm leads. i just dun like the ending...seriously...nor here nor there! haiyo!

i really felt gd after yakking all my inner thoughts on my current life and movie reviews...hope ya guys do drop by once in a while to read my blog...will blog soon abt my upcoming faculty bash & dnd (my 1st time!!!) and grumbles on sch life =)

missing in action

2008-07-19T00:25:00.000-07:00

time for a new post le...hehehz..been mia~ing for a period of time liaoz...due to certain circumstances...it was a few busy weeks and a recent slack week that i'd been through...so let u guys noe wat ur nice cool vanessa was doing these days... =)

travelling back to last week of june...it was the freshman camp for my fac...now the tables have turned...i am a senior alr! it wasnt an easy job taking care of the freshies but i did had lots of fun interacting with the 'fresh meat, be involved in the games and got even closer with my senior pals...and it was indeed cool to meet my jc senior who became my junior now...wahahahaz..juz funny for me...however...i got a realisation tat i dun really noe how to take care ppl...often i'm the one who needs to be taken care of...so i muz be stronger somehow...i'm always 'the baby' in my grp mahz(there're exceptions though)=P

after the rather fun camp, i began to go into job search frenzy...to my horror...it's difficult to find 1 mth temp jobs...went for a couple of fruitless job interviews...all customer-related jobs...think i dun have enough flair in doing these jobs bahz...the most interesting interview i went was the music sch where i had to do a mini role play with the staff abt introducing the music courses...had to speak in gd eng which is like my weakness lahz...cos i like to mix...i think i did ok but guess i'm not the one they wan...thank god i got myself some short term temp jobs in the end...it's interesting in the sense tat it's diff from my previous jobs...i tried out as a receptionist (speaking skills are on the test!)and admin assistant...nice but why no one wld hire me as sales person lehz? or customer service? wat's my prob? hahahz

i had a recent slack week where i stayed at home almost everyday...watching online videos! i finished 2 seasons of america's next top model, 2 sets of 25 episodes anime, 2 jap movies! now on a jap drama and taiwanese drama...i really like jap anime & dramas! my hot favs now! let me brief intro u wat i watch...watch them if ya free!!

- the 2 animes are Nodame Cantabile & La Corda d'Oro ~primo passo~. Both animes touch on the same theme~ the passion for classical music...go google them for more info...u'll like it if u like music! made me wanna go learn violin lohz! not my faves cos romance element wasnt strong..hehez...

- 2 jap movies are koizora and tada, kimi wo aishiteru. Typical romance stories tat's predictable but u wont get sick of it...cos it's nice! and the cast was good! Haruma Miura for Koizora, Tamaki Hiroshi for tada, kimi wo aishiteru

-now watching gokusen 3(teacher-student plots, smthing like GTO) & fated to love you (super nice!!!)...

oh yes, recently met up with ong & ping after a long time...glad tat they're doing fine in all aspects of their lives...especially love lives...wahahahaz...at least there's some things happening for my best buds...as for myself...thanx for concern but it's really nothing though i was hoping for something to happen! =P hahahaz...juz have to wait for the destined one (oooh...ming zhong zhu ding!) lohz...hahahahz...there's a nice saying tat i learned from a movie- "everyone holds the happiness of another person" which i think it's kinda true...who the hell is holding mine? =P anyway i'm always interested in other's love lives than myself...weird me =)

juz wanna apologise for being mia at certain occasions but i do really try my best to be present...got upcoming commitments like driving (finally) & tuitions..so hope ya guys understand and forgive my poor time management...see ya guys around! to get to me real fast...sms or email or msn =)

21 days in cambodia

2008-06-18T23:18:00.000-07:00

BACK! Yesh! I'm back from good old cambodia! 21 days of fun & excitement, culture shocks and labour, interaction and gossips, brand new experience and nature beauty...wow wow WOW...glad to be part of PA X- the 31 men team...now let me share my thoughts for this special trip with pics! dun worry...i'll try to be short & sweet...wahaha!

DAY 1 & 2 (R&R)

Touchdown on Siem Reap Airport...quite a well furnished airport...hehez...we then headed to the guesthouse to put our backpacks. For the 1st day, we visited mini pottery & fabric factories...2nd day was the Angkor Wat tour...magnificant! of cos, we took many many photos at angkor wat...juz like normal s'porean tourists...wahaha!

Siem Reap Airport!

Angkor Wat gurgle pic!

The very huge root of a tree!

a grp pic!

DAY 3-10
one of the biggest culture shock was to stay at Kampong Phluk..a city gal like me...never experienced living in a fishing village before...to slp at houses made of wood, bamboos and dried leaves (under mosquito nets), to walk on sand (not cement), to bath in sarongs with buckets of water (taken from a well-ground water!), to cook using firewood & wash dishes with muddy water! to teach cambodian kids (physically strong!!!) english, a job as a construction worker, to climb up wobbly steps, to walk with chickens, ducks, dogs everywhere, to experience complete darkness at night, fantastic star-gazing, sampan ride! great homestay and great ppl!

a glimpse of Kampong Phluk...yes...we stayed in these houses!

the super cute class that i taught!

a farewell photo with the children!

Day 11-17 (Tapang)

we headed to the 2nd village- Tapang! beautiful scenery and our main mission there was to build a classroom for the students there! we did cementing, pounding, painting! a very fulfilling experience! pics represent a thousand words!

our classroom with the ocean theme! we painted ourselves!

interior of the classroom!

Cultural exchange day! we got a shawl each!

DAY 18-22 (Phnom Phenh)

After 2 weeks of hard wrk, it's relax & shopping time! we headed from siem reap to phnom phenh! we went to sorya shopping centre, silk factory, landmines museum, genocide museum and killing field. we're back to tourists! oh ya...i tried the cambodia full body massage as well...but i was massaged by a guy! oh gosh! hehez...embarrassing moment lohz...(also include unglam photos of me slping-not to be disclosed...wahahahz)

Blue Pumpkin! A very cool & comfortable cafe at Siem Reap!

The palace at phnom phenh!

fried spiders! (i ate one of the 8 legs! hahahaz)

oh man! i've still loads of pics to show...but i think i'll stop for now...for more photos...u can refer to my facebook acct! or u can ask me personally! hehehz...overall..it had been a fun trip...i learnt to appreciate my current life, to know my strengths and weaknesses, to work as a team & overcome obstacles, to communicate with the cambodian ppl, to understand more abt cambodian culture in terms of their lifestyles, and many many more! i really urge u guys who never been to YEP to be part of one! definitely wonderful memories tat's hard to forget!

PA X - SUCCESS!

the week b4 flying off to cambodia

2008-05-19T00:58:00.000-07:00

busy busy week...lot's of stuff to prepare, to do and many activites to attend...i got loads of photos to prove my busy schedule (kindly refer to facebook!) hehez...anyway...it's now less than 6 hrs to my flight to cambodia (youth expedition project!)...PROJECT ANGEL 10! Yesh...i'll be gone for a whooping 3 weeks...be back on 10 june! so do rmb to sms me a 'welcome back'! =)

tracing back to the pulau ubin trip cum chalet for PAX tat i mentioned b4...it's really rewarding and enriching in the sense that almost every part of the trip was new to me (9 interesting challenges to overcome...i like trekking at night...cool!)...so i did enjoyed myself...knowing more abt my team mates (impt cos we're going to spend 3 weeks tgt at a foreign land!), learning abt new perspectives on certain issues, teamwork, trust...blah blah (in the sense tat it's a bit too philosophical for me...my brain cannot absorb so many values at one go!)but i did learn something...hope i won't forget (cos i got the habit to do so...yikes!)!

a big PAX family photo at pulau ubin!

then i arranged a dinner appt with ong on wed at compass pt (haiz...no photos to prove)...it's quite some time since i saw her last time...pretty as ever...hahaz...we had a nice meal at burger king...chatted and gossip as usual abt herself and other ppl's love lives...wahahaz...though the time was short but it was definitely a nice catch up! ahhh! really miss my wife & mistress but cos all of us are busy so no time to meet up...however...i'll be free when i'm back...so muz meet up! all the best to ong (for special sem), ping (for training & practice) & dor (relationship! hehe)

later the week...had scamp senior gathering at chevron...a very nice chalet i shld say cos i've never been there b4...it was actually quite fun as we played games and had bbq (nice games & food...not as bad as i thought)...it was also a good opportunity to know the ppl in my grp though i noe most of them while the rest i dunno didnt come except for 1...it made me look forward to the actual scamp! hehez...

Presenting to u...the red house ppl!

red house rox!

gurgle ppl rox too...hehez...

back to PAX...we had a pre-expedition trip to a boys home...it's part of a learning process for us...to be able to communicate with these children...open up to them so tat they'll do the same as well...similar situation that we may face over at cambodia when we teach the kids. In addition, i realised that we shldnt stereotype the boys in such home...cos they're not actually naughty in nature...in fact, they're rather well-behaved and enthu when we conduct the games! it's probably the upbringing or environment constraints tat make them who they are initially...but as long as they're guided at the right path...it's not too late to change for the better! ahhh...yes...i'm inspired by the words of my team mates...i do learn a lot huh!

yeah! a farewell dinner for the gurgle ppl who're flying off to cambodia (including me of cos!)...thanx to the committee & ppl who turned up...thanx to urong for the good recommendation on korean food! nice nice...thanx to xy for the photos! (didn't expect tat coming!)...thanx to yl, qingfang, dee, gim sen as well...for their presence for me, cindy, urong & chee keong! really touched and i had fun eating & taking loads of photos!

we're at the korean restaurant! haiz...too bad the food wasn't served yet =P

lastly...i declare i'll miss many ppl when i'm at cambodia during this period of time! my family, friends, tv, computer, bed, bolster, pillow...hahaz...hope ya all miss me as well! it's a MUST anyway! so i won't be blogging for 3 weeks (duh!) dun blame me for tat...will be back with loads of pics at cambodia & souvenirs!

*special thanx to ppl who donate in one way or another for PAX! also to shawn for lending me ur backpack! =) SEE YA GUYS!

~~~~~~away from 20 May to 10 June~~~~~~

eat & play

2008-05-11T00:45:00.000-07:00

YEAH! holidays have officially started! (dun ask me abt the exams...errrgh...dun wan to think abt it for now...hahahaz!) it's gonna be a long packed 3mths holidays with loads of activities tat's probably gonna create impact or memories in my puny life!

1st & foremost, many thanks to gurgle ppl for waiting for we the fst ppl to patiently drag the post-exam celebration to our last day of exams...really had a great time partyworld-ing cos i can sing out my frustrations and weird feelings (dun ask me wat's tat...i also dunno...hahaz!) then we had a nice nice dinner at waraku (again! last time was with my sistas ong,ping & dor!)...lastly we had one of our gurgle signature activities which is...(drumroll) chatting along the Singapore river at Clarke Quay...hahaz...tis time with the companion-super delicious Hokkaido ice-cream! hahaz...these pictures are the pure evidence:

the singing grp at partyworld...probably we can form a superband...hahahaz

photo-taking at waraku

eating ice-cream at such a beautiful scenery...hehe

there are more upcoming gurgle activities to anticipate...hehez...

anyway...i'll be stranded at pulau ubin in less than 24 hrs starting from now till tues for a pre-expedition experience camp before the real expedition to cambodia...it's actually my 1st time going to pulau ubin, my lst time living in the forest, my lst time cooking food at the wild...probably many 1st times to experience such outdoor activities...all these realisations make me feel that i'm really vulnerable & ignorant somehow (wat have i been doing for my past 19yrs??)...hope i dun make a fool of myself and be useful and make lots of good friends tat can last! hehez...it's really a good learning experience nevertheless! will blog more after i'm back!

on a last note...i'm crazy over a new song from Wu Jia Hui-虽然我愿意 !!! It's a soothing and emotional song in my opinion...hehehz...for dramas...watch zettai kareshi (absolute boyfriend!) manga-turned-jap drama! for anime...watch vampire knight & neo angelique abyss! lots of bishounens! hahahaz!

alright...will stop for now...there are more more activities to come...really miss my lao po, mistress, maid & good frens! muz plan outings! & great thanks to my dearest frens who helped me in the YEP i'm involved...in one way or another...THANK YOU & SEE YA PPL! =)

*EXTRAS
Lyrics for Wu Jia Hui-虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

midst of exams

2008-05-03T21:20:00.000-07:00

shld be still mugging (ermz...mugging is a 'strong' word...hehez...juz revising) right now but i suddenly have to urge to blog after a long break (my last entry was at feb...i noe) hope my frenz out there still come & visit my blog once in a while...hehez...

I still have 2 core papers left and I juz completed 2 papers (one ok, the other sucks) some time ago. Haiz...i really detest exams (since dunno when) though they're impt...somehow, the 'passion' (maybe i dun have it at all...hahah!) for studying is slowing slipping away from me...but i'm trying my best i think...uni is hard man...hahaz...but the tough and optimistic me shld do fine =P

have been studying, resting, eating (alot-fat liaoz), sleeping, watching tv and studying again for the past 2 weeks...it's the same old routine...ahhh very sianz...but i guess i cnt rest that much after exams cos i need to deal with my cca stuff & i'll be off to cambodia for solid 3 weeks! omg...first time leaving on a sch trip for almost a month...very cool indeed...i think i'll get to blog much abt it when i come back at june...=)

ahhh...i got loads of recommendations to share (new songs, new dramas, new anime!) but i dun think it's the best time for me to tell (or else i'll go nonstop)...will update more on the next entry (prob after exams) for sure...i'll try to update my blog more frequently...hehez...meanwhile, rock on ppl!

celebrate celebrations!

2008-02-15T22:45:00.000-08:00

feb is always a special month in my pt of view...there's my fav CNY! and there's valentine's day...tis yr is even more unique...there's 29 days instead of 28...it's actually tempting me to watch the movie 'The Leap Years' (who wanna watch with me lehz?) hehez...i had a fun feb this yr...except tat i was down with fever, flu, sore throat and cough all at one go juz a few days ago...yup...ur resident nice gal is still sick! *sobs* (but i'm recovering slowly...hehez)

CNY tis yr was usual for me...same as last yr...same as last last yr...hahaz...but it's always fun to visit relatives' houses...chit-chat & gossip...TAKE ANG PAOS (ok tat's the main thing...dun blame me cos i'm jobless mahz!)...eat goodies & good food & yusheng...relax and play! i'm already looking forward to the next new year already...hahaz...hope ya guys also had a great CNY!

Vday was surprising fun for me tis yr! cos i didn't spend it alone! wahahahaz...thanx to dearest gurgle...i had a memorable Vday08....in the past, i dun really bother vday cos i wld thought this day onli meant for couples...until my jc days...i start to practise giving chocolates to my classmates to celebrate friendship as well...tis yr...i spent it with my favourite OG-gurgle! i muz emphasize again tat i'm very lucky to be allocated to this OG during my uni orientation camp...if not...i'll be so lonely during my uni days! it's also remarkable tat our OG's relationship still going strong...it's my favourite OG of all times since i attended sch! we celebrated Vday in sch canteen in conjuction wif weiren's bdae...delicious pizza & choco cake...hilarious charade games...exciting vday gift exchange...touching mass gifts presentation...fun fun fun photo-taking! Thanx gurgle...for everything!

Gurgle grp pic at sci canteen!

Act Cute poses!

Wanna say many thanks to my lovely friends that helped PROJECT ANGEL X...be it adopting bricks, buying the tees or buying the eggrolls! Your help is deeply appreciated! Hope you can continue to create awareness around your friends to lend a helping hand! Thanx for your support!

I need to recuperate now...hahahz...blogging off...

life of an 19 yr old

2008-01-31T21:45:00.000-08:00

my sincere apologies for delaying my entry since dun noe when...hehez...but NOW I'M BACK! hahahaz...i'll try to update my blog weekly dutifully...=P so do continue to support humble blog! alright...i wanted to change my blogskin but i failed to find one tat i really like...so the renovation plan has to be postphoned! heehee...

hmmm...it'd been almost 1 month plus since my last birthday...so i only left less than a yr before i turn officially TWENTY! oh my...i cnt be a girly gal anymore...but a womanly woman...it's no more xiao mei but xiao jie...so for this special 2008...i hope it'll be a fruitful and meaning year tat marks the end of my "tens"...u muz be thinking i'm crazy to say i'm old...but actually gals age faster than the guys! i'm already experiencing the symptons! (memory & earing loss lah...easily dazed & tired...slow reaction and slow-working brain etc...or izzit juz me? hah!) i noe it's a bit late to say out my new yr resolutions...hahaz...but juz hope everything will go fine for me in 2008 =)

it's already week 3 of sch...schwrk and cca are piling up like crazy...i really need to mug this sem (my mods are hard man!) cos my last sem results kinda suck...so need to brush up! but it seems tat i'm always busy with other stuff ...hahaz...it's something tat i've to learn...time management! my biggest weakness...have to cut cut my entertainment slots liaoz...i noe it's my fault for joining too many ccas...but i cnt help it somehow...didnt think of the consequences...and it's too late to back out either...tat'll be rather irresponsible on my side...so i'll try my best and commit! Looking at the bright side, joining these ccas have been rewarding cos it widens my mini social circle...so i've to be positive! yes yes! hmmm...blogging reminds me of why i wanna revive my pathetic blog...cos i realise i need to improve my english (been stuttering a lot when i speak english...die lahz...i becoming too cheena!)...hahaz...blogging helps! so here i am...

yeah! really looking forward to CNY cos it's holiday...and my 'annual salary' day...hahahz...now tat i'm jobless and always in need of cash to buy loads of stuff...juz cant wait for CNY to arrive...heehee...also looking forward to Vday cos i'm hoping to get some gifts & chocos (not tat i'm attached or have secret admirers hor...i'm still single & available=P) from friends! a great day to spread ur love to ur dearest friends...after all these significant days...it'll be back to the books...boo hoo!

PROJECT ANGEL X (PA X)
ok folks...it's now advertising time...hehez...actually i'm going on a YEP (Youth Expedition Project) to Cambodia this coming May to do voluntary work...we're actually planning to build classrooms there for the children to receive better education under a more conducive environment...so now we're at the midst of fundraising so i really hope all my friends out there can lend a helping hand...=)

Basically, we're called project angel x...so we're selling very nice PA X dry fit tees for $12 each only!

Front

Back

If you really have too many tees in ur wardrobe...it's ok if u wanna 'adopt a brick' instead! heehee=)

Adopt-a-brick is another fundraising project by Project Angel X. Wellwishers can adopt a brick @ $2 each, and all proceeds will be used to build classrooms for the children of Cambodia. In return, they will receive a bookmark certificate which is as shown:

In appreciation of your kindness, we will be putting up the names of those who adopt 5 bricks or more on the "Wall of Appreciation" in the new classrooms that are built.

Please do support us as we strive to bring hope and joy to the children of Cambodia! We thank you of your generosity on behalf of the Cambodian Children.

Do visit http://projectangel10.blogspot.com/ and take a look! If ya wan to support me, sms or send me an email? If possible...spread these news to ur frens too and gather their support! it's for charity! hehez...thanx pplz!

will be back for my next entry next week...meanwhile rock on!

RENOVATION

2008-01-16T21:33:00.000-08:00

wahahahaz...pplz...sorry for the very long wait...i'll be back blogging real soon...gonna give my bloggie a new skin...so do watch out for my latest entry at late jan...see ya! =)

lots of luv,
van

the busy and lazy gal

2007-10-21T15:53:00.000-07:00

wahahaz...i'm guilty for abandoning my blog for almost a month! been busy these days...rushing out lab reports, essays, and of cos...hanging out with pals...definitely i'm also busy with other non-academic stuff such as CCAs...first and foremost...i think i'm really super crazy to join 4 CCAs in one go...and i realised it's not a wise decision cos i'll be neglecting my studies due to insufficient time. Furthermore, i'm poor in managing my time...so once i got free time out my schedule...i rather slack and enjoy...argh! i'm a bad example of not thinking before acting...but i shldnt regret my actions...i enjoy my ccas i supposed...hehez...

oh ya but sorry to say...this entry is gonna be short and sweet. Dun kill me but i'm switching my blog to a 'LIVE' blog again for the time being! For those who are wondering wat's a 'LIVE' blog...it's created by ME! it simply means that if u wanna know how's my life going on...ask me in person (or by sms or mail or msn)! i'll be ever glad to tell you my life story (as if it's interesting...hahaz)! so dun you dare forget me! okok...i admit i'm lazy alright...(no wonder my mother kept nagging tat i DO NOT behave like a girl...oh well...)but do come and visit my blog sometimes...cos who knows...i may have the urge to type a long entry (which i dun have for now)...so do forgive me ppl...=)

tat's all i wanna yak abt...thanx to ping's and ong's everlasting support...i'm super touched...but gonna say bye to blogging for a while...i'll be back...probably with a new look and a new style...wahahaz...see how things go...

ROCK ON PPL...=)

be alive and bowl

2007-09-16T14:08:00.000-07:00

OMG! i've neglecting my humble blog for quite some time liaoz...haiz...i really been busy with activities and assignments...when there's spare time, i found myself slouching at my sofa, watching tv & taking a rest instead =P alright...to compensate, i'll blog more...hope u wont get bored! =)

let's rewind back to ytd! it's nus FST annual gathering for undergraduates, postgraduates, graduates, alumni and staff at safra yishun country club!(yesh! it's at the north area!) year ones (my batch) are kindly invited to this special event! it's actually a bowling competition cum buffet gathering...so i went with some of my fst mates...actually i do dread going becos i suck at bowling though i neva play b4...or shld i say i'm afraid my ball will land up on the 'long kang' & embarrass myself...haiz...BUT...i do have beginner's luck! Wahahaz...though there were still 'long kang' moments, but i rmb i got a spare and a strikes in 2 games! The more i play bowling, the more interesting it becomes! hahahaz...now i like bowling liaoz...so if there's any bowling outings...count me in!!!

when it's buffet time, all of us were already famished! it was really a nice experience for us as we could dine together..get to know each other better! btw...i found the food delicious that i went to take 2nd serving...hahaz...there's also a short speech by Prof Zhou, director of FST programme and prize presentation. we the yr ones were welcome to the fst family and tat's really cool. Many prizes were given out for the competition. our batch managed to swept away some awards...hehez...after all the fun, we still wanted more! so we headed to northpoint timezone and play arcade-bonding time! hahaz...juz realised we are all arcade fans! =)

let's take an all gals pic b4 the bowl starts!

let's have a group photo! my fst mates!

ALIVE! it's an 'amazing race-styled' competition tat i participated with my og mates last week. it's organised by the sci club to create awareness on volunteering work and to care for the disabled ppl...it's a great bonding time for us cos i really thank god for knowing them...if not for my og mates, i think my uni life will be diastrous! hahaz...the day started with a heavy rain tat caused 6 teams to be down to onli 3 teams participating...so we were confirmed to be in top 3 positions...hahahz...1st-$200 cash, 2nd-$150 cash, 3rd-$100 cash! hehez...money is also part of the reason for joining...so we could have subsidy for our dinner at the end of the day...but it was a tough competition as we were the onli freshman grp and the seniors looked 'ruthless'...hahahz...we ran around the west area of s'pore ( haiz...totally clueless abt the west!)...completing tasks like writing, wearing socks and sms without the use of thumb, arcade basketball, drawing with with mouth or blindfolded, finding 5 ppl from the public to treat us drinks for free, guessing game, putting up a skit and many more...we were tired but had hell of fun! Even though we came in last cos we came back last (so we got less pts)...we were the onli grp to complete all tasks! anyway...we still got $100 cash! in conjunction to tat...we had to take photos for remembrance!

in the midst of the competition! we are from WEIREN'S grp!

aftermath...it's our usual multiple shots again! this is act punk? act cool?

while waiting for dinner (starving state), all of us slacked at the benches...talking & listening to songs...before we headed to our dinner destination...buffet at Sakura! it's really quite expensive for one pax so luckily we got $100 to subsidise...it's really damn enjoyable to eat together with plates of delicious international cooked food, ranging from yummy seafood to super nice cakes! we ate very very full to make our money worthwhile! =)

been busy with sch stuff these days...i can dare to say tat ppl in sci fac have the most hmwrk! cos we gotta to do lab reports & tutorials wrksheets! i'd experienced my 3 labs already...one for chem, one for life sci and last one for fst...it'd been quite uneasy for me since i dun enjoy lab work and all my skills were rusty already...luckily it's pair work or i'll die...it's completely different from jcs! (now i understand wat ping is going thru in poly!) we have to google to find answers...find references and construct tables and plot graphs...omg...i'm still not getting used to it...practically no time to revise properly either...my arts modules are terrifying too...i really need to read up alot for political sci (which i've no time! havent even finish reading my lit texts!)...i noe too little! stress stress!

back on a happy note...let's yak abt cca...recently...i juz completed the basic beginners' course for wushu...knowing some basic kicks, punches and jumps. currently, i'm also learning to use weapons...my fren & i chose sword as our weapon...hahaz...we are practising a new swordplay called 'San Duan Jian' (3 broken sword?) my fren and i became quite devoted to wushu cos we attended every single sessions...and we actually joined the small wushu committe as welfare heads! (yeah! finally can do some welfare stuff since sec 2)...even the president felt tat we suited the positions as we were very chatty...hahaz...i also went to join some sub comms of the sci club...ahhh...am i having too many ccas? =P

hmmm...wat a long entry! so are ya satisfied and forgive me for lagging my posts? hehez...there's one more week to go before recess week which is actually a one week holiday break...but probably gonna spend some time at home and study (& relax a bit like going for outings)...cos loads of tests coming up after tat! soooo scary! on ya...after being in uni for abt 1 month...i met up with some ex chung cheng ppl tat i dun really know...but they somehow recognise me! omg! i thought i was quite low profile during sec sch days...or izzit i didnt change much lahz?

*thanx to jia han for fst pics and urong for alive pics!

thanx for reading, ppl! =)

back to school 2

2007-08-30T17:37:00.000-07:00

neva been blogging recently cos i'm kinda busy or maybe it's juz plain lazy...hehez...so to prevent my blog from rotting...it's time to type some stuff here...abt me of cos...wahahaz...

probably the onli thing i can yak abt is sch...tis is already the 3rd week of sch...and i'm still trying hard to adapt to a new uni system of teaching...the lecturers are not bad...but i juz find the content profound for my current standard (i simply lost my knowledge or something...) worse still...the notes given are very brief...so have to read on our own...and mind u...the textbks are exp! it's hard to be an independent learner! hahaz...not only i fret over my core modules...my art modules are giving me a headache too...literature is harder than i thought...political science makes me realise i lack examples and need more reading...yikes...can i juz hope for a smooth-sailing semester?

jumping to some minor problems...though i dun treat uni as a fashion parade...but it's still irritating to crack my brain on wat clothes to wear everyday. Tat's y i miss UNIFORMS! hehez...but there's something amazing abt uni life...there are always shopping bazzars...something like pasa malam...probably it's for students who have very long breaks to pass some time...it's a good change in this case...heh...

on the friends' corner...been sticking around with my og mates all the time...whom i really enjoy their company and truly blissful to know them...or else i'll be sooo lonely in sch...most imptly tat i got company for the mods tat i take...thank god...but i'm alone for one of the tutorial slot! yikes...

hmmm...my sch life doesnt end here...still got cca! hehez...first up is wushu...been for 3 lessons already & i personally think it's quite fun though it's tiring...a few stretches, some kicking and punching can really make one sweat like mad...i can proudly say tat i know some basic kicking & punching though there's still room for improvement...hehez...luckily got a good fren with me in wushu...makes learning interesting...of cos...the wushu ppl i befriended are very very nice...secondly...there's the anime club...the club tat i muz join cos i really like anime & manga (for now...cos dunno when my craze will die down...)..there's gonna be an anime bazzar next week in sch & i plan to help out...it will be an interesting experience...cos there's cosplay to see! hahaz...neva see before...full of anticipation! hehez...

finally i watched the movie 'Secret' with ong 2 weeks ago...the story plot is quite nice and intriguing...i shld give thumbs up for jay chou on the account tat it's his first time directing a movie...romance, a bit of mystery and a bit of comedy...shld be a movie not to be missed if ya're a jay chou fan...

my movie marathon had ended...i'm totally satisfied for watching all the movies tat i wanted...so i'm back to my drama marathon...hahaz...currently watching taiwan drama 'The X-Family' aka 'Zhong Ji Yi Jia'..featuring fei lun hai, tang yu zhe & many others...it's a sequel to 'Zhong Ji Yi Ban'...it has a very 'unrealistic yet fascinating' plot...quite hard to explain...if ya interested...can check out drama wiki....

haiz...really want to visit my pri sch & jc due to teachers' day...but my schedule is really packed! ahhhh! but juz take tis opportunity to say to all my teachers who taught me before...HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

i shld have more stuff to blog in my next week...=)

van's songs list
yoz ppl...i have, in my opinion, some nice songs to introduce...hehez...u can listen to the songs in youtube...if ya want the songs...juz inform me then i'll send u thru msn or other means =)

1) 夠愛 by 東城衛 & a chord (rock element)
2) 爱我 by 唐禹哲 (pop element)
3) 我不想忘记你 by 郭静 (ballad element)
4) 一人一半 by 伍家辉 (ballad element)
5) Umbrella by Rihanna (R&B element)
6) Same girl by R Kelly feat. Usher (R&B element)

back to school

2007-08-14T15:12:00.000-07:00

i'm not poning sch hor...i've no lectures today...so tat's y i'm now happily blogging tis entry...so many things happened last week...probably because it was my last holiday week...can u believe it? 8 mths of working & slacking juz passed like lightning...and ta-da! it's time for me to hit the books again...but my brain's really rusty...oh god...

nus rag & flag day 07 ended on a nice note last sat...dazzling costumes, groovy dancers and majestic floats were the limelight of the whole event...of cos...it's the students tat bring the atmosphere high up! of cos i went & support science rag! sci ROX! i was initially a small time ragger...then actually became a 'backstage crew member'...helping to roll out the dancefloor mat(super heavy & tiring!) it was a fun experience cos we gotta be fast...to put everything in place in 1 min! all of us were super tired...becos we spent the previous night not sleeping...playing, chit chatting & even discuss abt palmistry (so interesting lahz!) back to the float performance...one wrd to describe...AWESOME! but it's disappointing tat sci didnt win the overall champion...nevertheless we still walked away with 5 subsidiary awards tat's enough to make sci fac ppl proud of themselves...furthermore...it was the fac with most ppl cheering their hearts out! 'Stand up! Be proud! We are from Sci Fac!' wahahaz...we'll be back!

hmmm...let me tell u my experience of first day in sch ytd...u may tink it's no biggie...but hey...my lst sch day in uni! my lst sch day wearing home clothes (seriously i missed uniforms!)...my lst sch day knowing some of my course mates...my lst sch day roaming around arts fac...aiyahz...so many 1st time...hahaz...anyway...i attended 3 lecs ytd...2 core (principles of modern chem & sci & tech on food) & 1 gem (intro to lit studies)...i realised tat i'd returned my knowledge to my teachers...cos i was like blur...esp the sci modules...i hope i juz can keep going & my knowledge can flood back...hahaz...oh ya...i spent like so much money in one day...joined the anime club & wushu so i paid the membership fees...bought lab coats...& have to buy exp textbks soon...ahhh...money not enough leh!
talking abt wushu...i was convinced (or rather pyscho-ed) by my fren to join wushu or else she'll be alone...actually i wasnt very keen cos i wanted to join aikido but currently no news on it yet...hehez..so i decided to join wushu for the time being...hope i can fight well lahz...hahaz...

rmb my movie list? hehez...i managed to watch all except one! I watched rush hour 3 with ong! it's SUPER DAMN funny! it's like more of a comedy than action flick...hahaz...it's a muz watch if u really want to laugh like crazy...however...i juz find the story plot is not fantastic...simpsons movie is like DUH...funny & crude...typical simpsons style...'out of the world' story plot but hilarious characters...really not bad...lastly i watched 881 with my bro...it's quite a nice musical with all the hokkien songs (very upbeat!)...a very touching plot & GREAT ost! esp 'Yi Ren Yi Ban' by Wu Jia Hui! plus...qi yuwu is HOT! hehez...shld support local productions ppl! now i left with 'Secret'...gonna watch with ong also...heard tat it's a very romantic story with a plot twist...shld be a good one...

hehe...tml i'm going to sch during the afternoon for lecs...hope everything turns out fine...sch's really packed during peak hours! esp when we need to take shuttle buses around sch...buses are really crowded...gonna get used to this kind of life...=) hope i can make some friends during my art modules...hehez.......

matriculation

2007-08-02T01:29:00.000-07:00

YEAH! I am now officially an NUS student liaoz! Hehez...cos got matriculated (finally can buy subway at discounted price! hahaz) recently...taken my student card & ezlink card...wahahz...suddenly got so many cards in my wallet...so finally i become a uni student...going to embark on a brand new uni life...quite unexpected for myself...hahaz...

of cos...i went for the sch's matriculation fair where i was introduced to many cca grps...there were so many tat caught my attention & interest...hahaz...ended up signing up for at least 8 cca grps...luckily it's not official...but most probably i'll join anime club (confirmed!) & aikido or wushu (still considering)...hehez...i always like cca bazzars...cos got lots of freebies/brochures! (i'm a goodie bag lover!) haiz...but before fussing over which cca to join...i've to think of wat modules to take for my 1st sem...arh! headache!

ok...both are drawn by me...can i pass wif tis standard arh? really luv drawing manga but i sux at it! =P

oh ya...i bought a fujitsu lifebook for $2K plus...from sch...dunno considered exp or wat...cos i'm really a computer idiot...hahahaz...but it seems to have gd functions...so shld be not bad...furthermore...many ppl bought the same model as me...actually thought of buying acer (cos it's cheaper!)...but heard lots of bad comments abt it...so i decided to choose a better one...hahaz maybe money=quality? now have to think of wat 'look' i'm gonna give to my nice laptop...=P

last week was filled with activities...hehez...actually only 3 days lahz...last tues went to watch the harry potter movie with ong & ping at suntec...of cos i was reluctant to watch as i dun really follow the harry potter series...& i only watched the 1st 2 installments & i dun read the bks at all...so i was really quite blur while watching...however...i enjoyed the movie nevertheless...hehez...oh yesh...b4 the movie started...we went to the arcade & play! soooo fun...reminded me of my childhood days! after the movie...we shopped around & had dinner+chat at Xin Wang HK cafe...yummy mian xian & good macau coffee!

last fri was sci fac dean's welcome talk...freshmen were encouraged to attend for more info on bidding on modules & majors...i'm really glad to have joined scamp...or else i wld hv to go alone...so i met with my og mates to attend the seriously approx 8 hrs long talk (of cos got breaks here & there...hehez)...i learnt quite essential stuff...more abt the bidding system & my own major (btw...i'm a food sci & tech major! in case u're wondering...) we also went to help rag...it was a tiring day cos i woke up super early! (why is my sch so far from my house? sobs!) but i had fun!

then last sat was one of my og mates' bdae! for now...happy belated bdae to yanling! a bdae celebration was organised for her so it was like another og outing...hahaz...we went singing at chinatown again & took loads of pics! after tat...we headed to vivo for scrumptious dinner at fig & olive...took pics again...next stop was the e-zone arcade where we...of cos...played our hearts out...last stop was to ben & jerry's ice cream where we all bought diff flavours & devoured them while yakking abt stuff within vicinity...(omg...the strawberry cheescake ice cream is so damn GD! also exp lahz...) glad tat all of us had enjoyed ourselves!

some of the funny pics tat were taken...

*the number shot

*the pointing shot

phew...tat's wat had been happening to me these days...haiz...sch's gonna start real soon & for sure...i need time to adjust to studying mode...i've done anything & watever except studying for the past 8 mths...hope things go smoothly for sem 1...bless me!

Van's BuLLetin
i'm definitely not a cinema-goer...but there are 4 movies tat i wanna watch...
1)Local movie- 881
2)Jay Chou's movie- Secret
3)Jackie Chan's movie- Rush Hour 3
4)Simpsons Movie

Who wan to pei me go watch lehz? hehez....=)

artsy being

2007-07-23T14:59:00.000-07:00

appreciating the arts in all aspects...tat's wat i'd been doing for the past week...sounds refreshing huh? since i'm dedicating my upcoming yrs to the wonders of science(again! hehez)...it's impt tat i still hold onto my interest in arts...so i wanna be a 'balanced' person...wahahaz...

basically...went on an 'educational' trip to the asian civilisation museum with hui & simin last tues...kinda looking forward to it as it'd been million light yrs since i stepped into a museum...thank god to the excursions tat schs had been organising...or else i wld be still an ignorant person...hahaz...i shld say it was a nice experience...cos i didnt went there as role of a student...but a visitor...so we walked around on our own pace...admiring & appreciating the sculptures/cultures/history...& it's no joke tat u can practically spend ur whole day in a museum...so much to see & learn...we also encountered pri sch kids in the museum...probably it was their excursion...wah...memories...hehez...our fruitful trip then ended with a nice dinner at new york new york & shopping at suntec... :)

went to unleash my singing ability last thurs also...hahaz...first time singing outing with a big grp which is my og-gurgle....it's really lucky to find frens who luv singing like i do...hahaz...though it wasnt full attendance but we all still had fun...thanx to them...i found a new & cheap place to sing!!!! definitely cheaper than kbox...songs are rather updated...free flow of drinks...a free bowl of shark's fin soup!?!...juz mere $10 NETT for 2pm-7pm slot...it's a ktv located in chinatown...walkable distance from the mrt...so who noes...i may patronise the place often...hahaz...so all of us sang chinese pop songs...selected songs up to 13-14 pages full...& took loads of pics...it was a cool experience indeed...after tat...we had our dinner at nearby maxwell hawker...yummy yummy porridge & tofu specialty...hehez...
one of the many photos taken...credits to cindy-my senior cum the photographer...hehez...

helped out sci rag last fri as promised...hehez...i realised i need to take 2 hrs to reach sch in cases when i missed my buses & trains...ahhh...why i live so far from sch? ok...i shld live in a hall right? but my mum dun really support tis idea...& i can find no one to share a double room with me...no wonderful jc cca record to be given a room...too lazy to be fully independent...ok lots of reasons to give...hahaz...so i juz have to find a shorter route or to pass the time...or ultimately to learn driving?!? back to rag...didnt do marche tis time...but i learnt how to make a craft using juz aluminium cans...yesh! a peacock! so proud of myself when i did my first recycled material-based peacock...though it looked a bit weird...my another successful art piece since folding cranes & stars...hehez...it's always gd to learn new stuff...so gonna go help rag tis week again!

been busy watching anime these few days...so if u catch me msn online...at the busy status...i'm either blogging or engrossing in my shows...hahaz...i juz finished watching a nice anime 'Harukanaru Toki no Nakade Hachiyosho'...if u're a fushigi yuugi fan...u can watch tis! it's somehow similar to fushigi yuugi where there's a girl went back to ancient times...holding power of a dragon priestess & got 8 protectors (or called 'hachiyos')...but it was a shorter anime (26 epi) with not much luv element (surprisingly...) and not much comedy either...but overall...it had a good plot, nice opening/ending songs & in-depth stories of the 8 protectors...actually...i wanted to start watching other jdorama or taiwan idol dramas...but in the end...got addicted to anime first...hehez...now currently watching 'Saiunkoku Monogatari'...it's also a historical setting based anime (dunno but i like tis kind of anime...hehez...)...very interesting anime abt imperial household & system...read more on wikipedia if ya interested...hehez...

hmmm...holidays shld be the time where we can organise & attend gatherings...but sadly...didnt get to do either one...hehez... i understand cos organising is really difficult...choosing a venue & time where all ppl can make it or most imptly...the no. of ppl coming is the question...so i really give up on tat...i rather attend gatherings to show my appreciation & support to the organiser...hehez...but probably all of us are busy with our own stuff tat we gradually fail to keep in touch or to find time planning...nevertheless...i'm glad to meet up with hui & simin last tues...had a nice phone chat with huimin...and upcoming activities with ong & ping...so maybe i shld take initiative to meet up other frens in small grps...tat's much easier i guess...hey hey pplz...dun forget me kies...inform me if there's any gatherings hor...pri/sec/jc/cca...miss me? can call me! bored to tears? date me out! need someone to talk? sms me! wanna noe how i am? hehez...can read my blog & tag! juz wanna be part of ur life juz like u've been part of mine! :P

enjoy enjoy

2007-07-15T01:39:00.000-07:00

had hell of fun during last & tis week...attended gurgle outing...joined & helped out in sci rag...met up with my jie meiz...hohohoz...tat's really life of a jc graduate...almost 8 mths of enjoyment (not including wrk...though can be fun sometimes...hehez)...but sch's gonna start real soon...a new life & environment & a bunch of new frens...

recalling back to last last thurs & fri...i went for nus sci rag camp & hang out with my og mates...2 days camp of rag introduction...including some mild games tat involved 4 sections-finance/costume making/float making/dance...i totally sux at sewing...omg...hahaz...then there were other fun games...(i realised camps really luv water bombs war...hahaz...but it was really fun!!! getting all wet & stuff...) we also had a nice western dinner with many many trays of fruits as 'punishment' during the games...as usual...our og (proudly known as gurgle..) were practically in our own world...hahaz...but our attendance was really gd...later tat night...we helped doing the rag float...doing paper marche...it's really my forte during sec sch time...i like to cut magazines & do 2D versions...but tis time is 3D...so kinda hard...tiring & needs concentration...hahaz..lastly...i didnt sleep the whole night cos i went to play interesting card games with the guys instead...hehez...

then it was the following sat where we had our first og outing at chomp chomp...planning to had a feast there but alas...the place was damn crowded (expected lahz...it's weekend & cos it's also famous for hawker delicious food...) so we bought packed food & had 'picnic' within the hdb estates area located far away...hahaz...it was a scene of yummy food ranging from sambal stingray to egg beancurd...of cos...all of us (seniors & freshies...) chatted and laughed our way thru the night...wahahaz...

last wed was a blast too...cos it's stayover for ong & ping at my house after a long time liaoz...hahaz...i woke up early in the morning...met up with ong then ping...heading our way to east coast to spend a healthy morning doing some form of exercise...tat's really NOT my kind of thing...cos we were supposed to go cycling...i dread 2 wheels bicycle cos i dun like it...it dun like me either...hahaz...ok lahz...i dun noe how to cycle...laugh all u wan...i find it quite embarrassing since i'm already 18 yrs old reaching 19...dun even noe how to ride a bicycle...(a kid can ride better than me lahz!)...really wanna thank ong & ping sacrificing their 1hr in teaching me...though i managed to ride after 1 & half hr later...it's an accomplishment for me...(sobs...touching moment...hahaz...) haiz...gotten some bruises on my legs & probably scared some of the ppl there (my riding skills are damn terrifying...) but i shld yell a yeah for myself...

following up...we had katong laksa after tat (so much for a workout...hahaz...)really missed those sec sch days...since our sch was rather near...memories juz flood back...esp when we reached my house...listened to part of ong's friendship declaration cd...specially made for me (thanx my dear maid aka ong)...saw the lake odyssey vcd where we performed in co...had dinner & nice chat with my mum?!?!...hahaz...watched tv & yak again till late night...hahaz...u noe...gal talk juz rox...too bad dor wasnt wif us...missed her lots...it wld be better if she's around...i'm also curious abt ping's sms prince...wahahahz...

next afternoon...we headed to amk hub for mos burger...yummy yummy...then we saw ping's mum at ntuc...after we jalan jalan around...ong & i decided to go northpt to source for cheap manga while ping went home to rest...hahaz...kinda introduced northpt to ong since she seldom shops there...while i knew tat place quite well since there's the area where i grew up...our last stop was popular as ong wanna get prepared for her first tuition...omg...pri sch stuff are not tat simple anymore...yup yup...going to meet the gals again for swimming & kboxing...

last fri...i got some free time to help rag...so i did paper marche again from late morning till night...hehez...tired but fun cos some of my og mates & seniors were there...there'll always be laughter when they are around...while i juz listen & laugh...thought i was funny...but they were even better...esp when xinyi & ck squabble...weiren getting self-obsessed? gim sen & his jokes? oh ya...i realised the sci canteen food was quite nice & cheap...hahaz...

hehez...seems to be typing out all my outings...but tat's not it...more to come cos i got many activities for the upcoming week...hahaz...my pocket gonna get burnt...but the ppl are worth it... :)

haiz...made a self-realisation abt myself...i need to learn something to upgrade myself...there's loads of things i wanna learn but juz tat i cnt find the drive to do it somehow...i spent my relaxing 2 mths since wrk ended doing wat i like (watching drama/anime & reading manga)...but i failed to master a new skill which was quite pitiful...but it's ok...it's not too late...hehez...wanna learn cross-stitch (to be more like a gal...) & jap lang...gonna take driving theory test...take up a sport in uni...hahaz...many many things...i muz jia you liaoz...support me arh!!!

freshman alert

2007-07-04T18:39:00.000-07:00

SCAMPSATION...theme for nus sci fac freshman orientation camp 07...it'd been a few days since i'm back from this rather fun-filled 5 days camp...now i'm feeling like a freshman...wahahaz...been a senior in pri/sec/jc...so back to square 1 in becoming a newbie in a whole new environment...probably the last time also...cos now we're known as tertiary students (aka old students lahz...hahaz!) thought i wld be going thru the jc orientation kind of stuff...but it's better than i expected...so bravo! yesh...i made friends...=) (cos i really dread the process of making frens...esp as we grow older...things get tough...)

basically...gonna yak abt wat happened throughout these 5 days...dun worry...it wont bore u...i'll keep it short & sweet... :)

Day 1...
dragged my heavy bags to nus sci fac (i took public transport alone ok!)...got registered and managed to make some friends on the spot...then it's the usual ice breakers & got to know more abt my OG mates & OGLs (nice seniors...very impt...) oh ya...am i lucky or wat...priscilla (cchms 2gr reunites!) was in the same OG as me! hahaz...got companion! also met nyjc seniors! then we also had station games...where we got dirty, tired & super soaked...tat's actually when the OG spirit was formed...teamwork mahz...so we spent our night in hall...i also like the videos tat the seniors made for the freshman...very hilarious indeed...not forgetting...there's also Secret Pal interaction...actually something like angel mortal but in this case we were blindfolded...

Day 2...
hmm...woke up early in the morning...we learnt nus sci fac mass dance (very cool! like it!)...sci fac cheers (very enthu indeed...)...we also went for a treasure hunt game around nus...oh man...nus is really huge...get really tired jus walking from one fac to another...but it was fun lahz...hehez...wat i enjoyed the most shld be the appreciation night...we got to view horror films in the LT...in preparation for fright nite...hahaz...further details shall not be disclosed...wahahahz...(ask me for details bahz...) boo...

Day 3...
it's amazing race singapore style...OGs will complete tasks & find our way around s'pore...final stop was at sentosa...it's expected cos we're supposed to spend a night there at the chalet...when there's free time...my OG wld sit together and play grp games...later...the senior guys became victims of the pool...one by one being thrown into the pool...so pitiful yet so funny...however...in the end...all of us (the gals) jumped into the pool willingly cos we wldnt wanna be thrown...so i got wet again...oh ya...second SP interaction...

Day 4...
the many highlights for the day...still in sentosa...we began with beach games...we got sand & wet again as usual...expect waterbombs, seawater, paint & many other stuff...it's something like the station games but more tiring cos the weather was damn hot...and my OG broke record for losing in every single game...oh ya...we also had to cheer, learn cheers...luckily i still got my voice till now...hahaz...after the games...we had to prepare for the SP dinner at Underwater World where we finally get to meet who's the person we'd been talking to for the past 2 times...everyone got dressed up...pretty gals & shuai ge (yes...sci fac lehz...) everywhere...i met my SP (and i guessed it correctly...hahaz...)..he's a senior and a nice guy...so all the paired up couples (guy-gal or gal-gal...not enough guys...hahaz...) were supposed to enjoy the buffet dinner & scenery in underwater world...it's a wonderful experience though it's a bit crowded...hahaz...next highlight is going clubbing...my first time so i wld say it's not bad...probably becos we were all students...so 'nothing much' happened...i drank some alcohol & danced under disco light...very cool indeed...had supper with my OG at lao pa sat later before heading back to sch...

Day 5...
end of scamp...(did i mention the scamp tees are quite nice...hehez...) i hardly cld sleep in the LT...so basically wat i miss most from this camp is sleep...everyday practically sleeping at average 3am...hahaz...before break camp...there was prize presentation (my OG went home empty-handed but i shld say we're the most quiet OG...hahaz...) & photo-taking...i also had lunch with my OG at holland village (my 1st time there!!!) after break camp...it was a nice 5 day camp...knowing new frens & developing a sense of belonging to the fac...i had to admit i wasn't very enthu cos i'm shy lahz...hehez...but deep down...i did have fun...neva regret joining...:P so better go join foc!!

went for medical checkup ytd with my mum in nus...so long neva had a checkup...i think since sec sch? hehez...the normal height & weight...yikes...i'm not at my most slim state...but i grew taller...wahahaz...my eyesight was failing...haiz...too much tv & com...urine test/blood pressure normal...consultation & x-ray shld be okay...phew...i'm done with it...

my ex company contacted me a few days ago...wondering if i wanna temp for 2 weeks tis month...to earn extra cash...i accepted the offer but in the end...they changed their mind cos it's not worth for them to go thru agent to hire me for such a short period of time...so i got declined...i was super relieved (actually got second thoughts to reject liaoz...)...cos i thought my holiday wld be gone again...hahaz...so i'm super free again...yeah yeah...i think i better use this time to enjoy & prepare for sch bah....

going for another short 2 day camp tml...hope to sustain new formed friendships & make new ones! to do a part for my fac...cos it's my choice...hehez...see ya guys around...thanx for reading my long entry...:P

my OG (proudly known as GurGle in day 1...a wet station game...haiz...sorry i onli got 1 photo...

slacker's diary

2007-06-24T02:37:00.000-07:00

hi...i'm vanessa...u can call me van, vanny or ah quek...i'm a fat gal with a short height (appearance is not smthing i'm proud of...hehe)... but also a lazy gal who likes to eat sleep & watch tv...probably the onli exercise tat makes me happy is shopping...yes...typical mind of a gal...but not the habits...so dun learn from me...

ppl say i got a nice character...how sweet...hehez...ok...i'm not a nasty gal...at least i think i have a bubbly, positive & happy-go-lucky character...i can be funny & yet reliable at times...despite me being a gossiper...hahaz...(so u see...i got inner beauty...it saves my womanhood!) although i may seem sociable...it's deceiving...i dun have a approachable face...so i guess my first impression will sux...hahaz...those who are good sighted (hehehehzzz)...will actually get to noe me better...cos i onli get real friendly when someone starts the conversation...ok...to sum in 4 words...i dun take initiative...& i dunno why...so i'm a nobody tat needs to be discovered to be a somebody...

been a slacker for almost a month...ask me wat i did...hahz...sleep/eat/exercise/watch tv/surf the net...5 basic things to do for a free day...there will be some nice bonus like shopping/gathering with friends...i do shop alone but it's really pathetic but effective (to buy wat i wan...)...my major activity to kill time is to watch loads of series or movies...throw me taiwan, korean, jap, anime or even ancient movies...i juz sit by the com/tv & enjoy (luckily i dun snack...) this is probably the only best time to indulge in dramas guilt-free...

a slacker still needs to exercise...i've been doing my routine regularly...skipping, push ups, sit ups & running...however...the diet plan was disasterous...i really tried my best to keep a strict diet for 2 weeks...but after realising i didnt really lose much weight but gained muscles...(as u grow older...it's even harder...) so i cldnt help but resume my eating portion but taking the healthiest choices available...so let's see how it goes...haiz...who can just save me?

there'd been 2 interesting activities tat i attended...1st was my ex company family day at sentosa last sat (my lst company family day! so cool...hehez)...i met up with my ex colleagues (miss them lots!) and had a great time with them at the beach though i'm not really a beach person...& tat the weather wasnt fine either...(practically a rainy day...)...there were fun games & programmes but since my company was a huge corporation...many ppl participated in the carnival...long queues everywhere...it took me around half an hour to get a free hotdog...hahaz...but i did benefit from this day...got a nice caricature, a relaxing massage, free food, funfair games & took a lot of pics...after tat...vivocity shopping became our last stop...hahaz...gonna hang out with them real soon again...

2nd was accepting an invitation from nus to do some physics & maths test (A levels standard-ironically my 2 worst subs) last mon...erm...i was quite doubtful & reluctant to participate at first cos i really gave back wat i've learnt to my teachers already (so sorry but dun kill me!)...for phy...it's even worse...neva touched it for almost 2&half yrs...but after much consideration...i decided to go cos ong, ong's nice fren felicia & shawn are going...and we wld be paid for (high scores will be paid extra!)....ok i'm money faced...i really did my best in both tests (both are difficult or maybe it's juz me?)...i noe i will flung it cos i really cnt rmb wat i learnt...so dun ask me how the hell i got those nice A levels grades...beats me...makes me embarrassed to say tat's mine...hahaz...after the whole thing...we went to jurong pt for lunch and had a great time chatting...as wat shawn depicted...army life is actually interesting in my pt of view...learning survival skills...how cool...& to deal with relationship politics...hahaz...but poor shawn...his stomach pains were making him uncomfortable...as for me & ong...we bid goodbye while got separated by the NEL train ( so drama...hehez)

the slacker (me) is going on a foc...freshman orientation camp tml...(dunno y but i like being called a freshman...sounds young...hahaz...) it's organised by the sci fac...5 days 4 nights...(shld be the longest overnight camp i ever went...worse still...i dunno anyone...) i feel excited yet insecure...dunno if i can fit into the environment...will i meet good frens there? can i really have fun cos i'm quite a shy person...will it be the best camp i ever had? haiz...wish me luck (i juz dun wan to get injured...hehez)...gonna blog abt the camp in my next entry...

oh gosh...it's late...2.36am liaoz...sleep sleep sleep...

the body curse

2007-06-12T14:16:00.000-07:00

it wasnt a fall from heaven...but a fall from HELL...haiz...clumsy is the right word to describe me...now i'm left with ugly bruises...luckily i'm still alive :P

last sat...i woke up very early (tat's a miracle cos i cldnt get up till noon!) to go nus to pay for the camp fee (yeah! going orientation camp tis end of june!)...i'd to go myself (& i wemt alone...) cos i need to learn to find the way around...so i took mrt all the way to buona vista mrt...alright...this was when the tragedy happened (ok lahz...not tat serious)...i was walking down a flight of stairs of a temporary built overhead bridge...dunno if i was daydreaming or my sandals were slippery...i fell down!!!! but it wasnt the usual bump on the butt position when i fell in the past (hahahz...yup...i always fall from the stairs...esp overhead bridges...ong shld noe tis well...hehez) i actually ROLLED DOWN THE STAIRS! it scared the wits out of me...i rolled frm the middle of the stairs to the ground floor lahz! it's like so dramatic...obviously i was injured but dun worry...no blood...juz bruises on both legs and hand...it was sooooo embarrassing...but luckily...only 2 strangers saw the whole process...i quickly stood on my feet and exclaimed tat i'm absolutely fine...i walked off and pretended nothing happened...luckily...i dun looked like a person juz fallen off a flight of stairs...but oh shit...all the ugly blue black bruises did appear and now...have to wear jeans for the time being...haiz...i did scream like mad when my mum applied medication....hell it's painful! :)

talking abt the camp i'm going...as it's clear tat i've chosen nus sci...after much investigation...i cldnt find anyone i knew tat chose nus sci...so i guess i'm all alone again...(it's the same situation when i was sec 1...i was the only one from my pri sch to enter cchms!)...so in order to make new friends (and survive)...the camp tat the sci fac is organising is a must go for me...i went for the briefing and the camp did sound fun & interesting (need to more enthu liaoz)...as i glanced around the lect hall...i cld some familiar faces from my jc...but of cos...we barely knew each other...i cldnt even spot anyone from my sec or pri sch...sigh...i guess most of them flood to ntu or smu...rather disappointed to be alone...but probably it's stage tat i've to go through...and really hope my *nice* character can make many good friends! Jia you! (i managed to make a new friend during the briefing...but drats! forgot to ask for her name! haiz...)

back to my body curse...i dunno why but i'm having an acne outbreak....ahhhh....y? teenagers normally have acne problems on the face, chest & back...(i'm unfortunately one of them!)hahaz...maybe bacteria juz like me alot...i always joke with my family tat i'm girl with all the worst features...it's not low self esteem but it's the truth...i have wat all gals fear...fats (checked), acne (checked)...so i've to take care of my whole body carefully this period of time...so all the bruises & acne & fats...pls pls go away...:)

i'm currently on a diet & exercise schedule...it had been a week ++ since i started...i shld say i did became a bit slimmer (onli a bit)...though it wasnt obvious...it wasnt very effective either...probably something wrong with my diet plan (food control is always difficult)...hehez...but i'm trying my best liaoz...tough man....

the only happy thing was tat i got to spend my days watching dramas...now tat i'm unemployed...except tat i got low income from part time tutoring...i got plenty of time to read manga or watch dramas! let me share with ya wat i've watched...

van's drama reviews...

1) Japanese drama- Gokusen 1 & 2 (literally means Gangster Teacher)....it's actually the same drama with 2 seasons...it's abt sch life where it depicts a very devoted female teacher named Yamaguchi Kumiko (nicknamed Yankumi) educating her students in a special way...how special? coincidentally...her students were always the delinquents tat hate teachers...the 'trash' tat society regards...but becos of her special identity being the 4th generation inheritant of the 0edo family (it's a influential gang)...she uses her own method to lead her students to the right path, gaining their trust and to help her precious students to graduate with pride & dignity.

If you like GTO...u shld like gokusen 1 & 2...cos u can really learn the meaning of friendship, love & family throughout the drama...touching plots yet there are comical moments...great cast i supposed...the teacher is very cute and the students are shuai...hahahaz...yup all the students are male...look out for matsumoto jun & oguri shun in gokusen 1 , kamenashi kazuya & akanishi jin in gokusen 2...hot hot guys...hehez...the ost is also good...

2)Korean Drama-My Girl...i noe i took a long time to watch this drama...cos i kept dragging...i shld say it wasnt my fav korean drama cos i got confused with the plot at times...hehez...maybe i blur mahz...but it's not bad in my point of view cos the plot is quite refreshing...everything revolved around distinguishing between the lie & the truth...particularly...i like the 2 main leads...Lee Da Hae (the female lead acted as Yoo-rin) & Lee Dong Wook (the male lead acted as Gong-chan) one is cute & witty while the other is suave & charming...hahaz...it's a heartwrenching love story towards the end...cos obstacles had to be overcome before it's a happy ending...wat's the best is the OST...very good...hehehz....

btw...this is my name Vanessa in jap (katakana)...so cool...

shld be read as v a ne tsu sa

japanese language is juz so cool....kawaii... :)

bye bye

2007-06-03T00:57:00.000-07:00

dun be mistaken...tis isnt my last entry...neither am i ending my life (duh!)...it's juz tat some things have finally come to an end...so it's natural to wave our hands and say sayonara! there may be despair...sense of loss, can't bear to be apart, simply underestimating the speed of time...cnt drag any longer...cos it's my choice...

hahaz...dun get confused on wat i'd juz said...cos i'm jumbling up all the things tat had been happening to me....firstly...i'm officially unemployed! i recalled the few days back before the last day of my job...i was dreadful to come to work...cos i cld feel my energy draining for the wrong reasons...but when the day finally came...i realised i wld miss my work, my table and my colleagues...though they did express their desire to extend my contract for another 1 or 2 mths (so tat i still got income...better than slacking at home...hehe)...but i declined...cos i think i really need a long break to do wat i wan...

my last day wasnt a tearful goodbye...but i left the company with beautiful memories, valuable working experience & sincere blessings....it's something i cherish becos i'm lucky to have a great first job where all the ppl treated me well (esp feeding me with food...hohohoz...)...i made a lot of good jie meiz! (including my dept, logistic dept, the pantry-in-charge auntie, cleaning auntie & receptionist!) my colleagues gave me farewell dinners, bought me gifts and helped me one way or another...so i'm glad they also liked the presents i bought too! (some massage sticks, cards & chocos!) i'll definitely miss all of them...the environment...the food! (hawker centre, coffeeshop, uncle's packed rice & even the fruits stall!)

nevertheless...it wasnt a forever goodbye (it's bye for now)...cos i may be back...i may return to the company someday...cos if there's any available temp job in future...they'll contact me...hehez...i'm relieved tat they find me more of a help than a chore...phew...i wldnt noe when will tis day come...maybe when the time is right...hehez...

This is my table! My own com! A bit messy lahz...but it is very spacious!

we are the AP accts assistants girl gang! hahahaz....

went to the world book fair & it fair at suntec with ong & ping on fri...of cos we had other motives...and tat wld be shopping! hahaz...we walked around marina sq & suntec...but yet...it seemed onli ong had a fruitful day...cos she managed to buy a sexy blouse (hehez!) & a pair of hip shoes...i onli bought some pathetic archie comics at the book fair (sorta regret buying!) while ping went home empty-handed and she lost her fav toy (so sorry abt it!)...ahhh...so we decided to meet again! to go k-ing & hoping to buy some things tat wld catch our eyes (esp for me & ping!) hahaz...it's always like tat...if u wanna go shopping...make sure u buy something...it doesnt feel good to go home with no bags of stuff...then wat's the pt? right? but the lunch was good though...:P

june! scary mth....cos i'm starting my diet cum exercise plan! yesh...i noe i've been dragging since dunno when...but it started on lst june to be exact...gonna whip myself in 'better' shape in 2 mths time...so far so good i supposed...i've been trying to control my diet by choosing healthier food and cutting down on food intake...(it's so freaking hard! so dun tempt me!)...for the exercise part...i juz went jogging around my house area (my first run since 5 mths ago!!!!) i was soooo super tired...but of cos i wld have to continue the runs/sit ups/push ups & skipping....i'm not aiming for wat baka supermodel image...juz wanna be a bit slimmer...& train up my fitness level...gotta say bye bye to my old self...hope a new me will be a hipper one! (yoz yoz yoz!)

van's movie review

recently....i finished watching 200 pounds beauty (recommended by ong...) and it was a very touching movie...it's about a girl named Kang Hanna who has low self-esteem becos of her weight...in order to be pretty so as to pursue her love of her life...she undergoes plastic surgery...in the process...she discards her past identity, her friends & even her only father...she became beautiful but yet...she lost her true self...so luckily she managed to come to her senses tat being pretty isnt everything...it's to love who she really is...i got kinda teary at some parts cos it's really emotional...(i can certainly relate to a fat gal's story! hahaz!) the OST was really good...got slow & fast numbers! so wanna catch a nice korean movie? u shld noe wat to see...:)

K Queen

2007-05-21T21:49:00.000-07:00

been singing a lot lately (so it's not 'hao lian' to say i'm K QUEEN hor! :P)...sing my hearts out in karaoke rooms...sing while walking home...sing while bathing...not becos i'm in a good mood...but i juz discovered many nice nice songs recently...hehehe...tat's y lazy to blog...hohoho...

talking abt singing...i had 'cross-border' singing sessions in consecutive 2 weeks...once in johor (smthing new!) & once in s'pore (kbox lahZ!) let me yak on the johor singing session 1st...it was few weeks back where my colleagues decided to hold a 'early' farewell party for me...they knew i like singing (they also noe i like Fei Lun Hai a lot! hAH)...so they introduced me to 'Red Box' in johor...it's similar to KBox...shld say both are on par (but i think RedBox is cheaper & they can let u sing longer if there were few customers!)....first of all...it's actually a buffet package...so can eat & sing all u can! hahahz...the room & tv screen are huge but of cos...we got 10 ppl mahz...hahaz...probably becos my singing mode was switched on...i kept hogging on the mike...but luckily they liked my singing (or surprised to find my singing & speaking voices differ so much!?!)...phew! I also realised tat my manager has a very roustic (izzit the right word to use?) voice...tat suits oldies...very very nice...her vibrato is good! hahaz...all the eating & singing for approx 4hrs...less than S$25...it's worth it...maybe i'll go there again next time!

2nd singing session was last sat with ping & ong...this time we ventured to a new area...clementi kbox outlet...wow...the rooms are better than expected...tv is also bigger...hahaz...we took KStudent package and sang for a whooping 5 hrs! (2pm to 7pm) damn fun cos we challenged ourselves with crazy rap songs to crying ballads...plus munching the ever exp titbits...(ping & ong are picky on the titbits...hahahz...i juz ate the remainder...:P) we had a super fun time together as usual! gonna go kboxing soon again arh!

while ppl are going korean drama crazy...i'm weird enough to go back into 'japan drama frenzy' (there was a period when jap dramas were popular!) ...thanx to ong for snapping my patience by telling me the youtube webbie for the hana yori dango jap drama...so i cnt control myself to wait for the stock (i wan to buy part 1 but it's out of stock!) to come so i went to catch in on net...u muz think i'm crazy to watch hana yori dango (btw it's actually meteor garden...) cos the plot & story will be the same as the taiwan version or even anime...yes the plot is the same but the filming style & sequence ( & of cos the cast..hehe) are different...i thought it'll be a bit sian but i was completely addicted lehz...so i fell in love with the plot once more...it's like a classic...the OST is great...cast is great ( luv hanazawa rui!!!!! doumyoji is funny!) now tat i finished both season 1 & 2 in less than 5 days...(i finished season 2 in 2 days!) this goes to show this drama is really worth watching if u are a meteor garden fan....i even cried at some scenes becos there seemed to be many obstacles to overcome in the jap adaptation...so try to catch tis drama!

alright...here comes the burning question...wat's my final choice for uni? hahaz...i thought of 2 analogies in the situation tat i'm in right now...choosing either uni is like a tug of war in my brain...both unis are pulling in opp directions while the winner will be the one who gets the red cloth tied in the middle to their side...or a funnier analogy is tat i'm in a meteor garden situation...being shan cai...to choose dao ming si or hua ze lei???? hahaz...i think i wasnt in a right state of mind when it comes to this matter...but most probably...i will choose nus sci (90%)...cos i dun think my character suits the corporate world afterall...i gave much thought abt it...it's like ntu business is very appealing but deep down...my heart seems to prefer nus somehow...dunno y lehz...so i'm going with my feelings (forsaking my frens again!)...hahaz...so i seriously wan to noe who's choosing nus sci? I need company & some courage lahz! (cos most of my frens are flooding to ntu! ahhhh! y am i the odd one out???)

still got 7 working days to endure before i become officially jobless (unemployed shld be a better word!) can slack liaoz...but izzit really very lazy of me to slack for 2 mths before sch starts? i dun think so lehz! :)

Yoz ppl...i got some hot hits to recommend!

-Never Let You Go (By Vanness Wu/V.DUBB)
-Zhong Guo Hua (By S.H.E/Play)
-Makes Me Wonder (By Maroon 5)

indulgence *muack

2007-05-06T01:08:00.000-07:00

i've planned something special for myself...hehe...something like 'monthly indulgence'...whereby i will splurge on exp stuff tat i like...hohohoz...cos tat's my initial purpose for getting a job...to pass time & to enjoy life...with cash... :)

i'd been stingy for the past few mths...cos i juz hate to see my bank acct depleting...now i understand the true meaning of 'hard-earned' cash...& i noe it's impt to save some money of uni expenses...but wat's the pt of working so hard when u cnt even use the money...it's not as if u are throwing money into the drain...it's for urself anyway...so now i decide to spend when necessary...so i can enjoy & save at the same time...gotta train ourselves on 'finance management'...wahahaz...but still...occasionally indulgence will not become a sin! we have to be pampered mahz! (esp if u got stressful jobs!)

yeah yeah! went to watch spiderman 3 with ong at GV Plaza on sat (my second movie in the cinema for tis yr...hahahz...i'm not a cinema-goer)..it was quite good...i'll give 4/5 for rating...hehe...u can say i'm biased cos i always luv spiderman movies since 1st installment...for this 3rd one...the special effects are great...cast is great...the plot (more on relationship development) is predictable & not tat draggy...i think it's worth the ticket price...so if ya wanna catch a movie...go try spiderman 3! (go spidey!)

after the movie...went to shop around with ong...haiz...ong was searching for speakers while i'm fretting over wat farewell gifts shld i buy for my colleagues...it's really a headache cos i need to buy for quite a no. of ppl...everyone juz treat me so nice...cos they actually planned a farewell party cum karaoke session at JB (yes....johor bahru! they noe i like to sing/crazy over fei lun hai...hehez!) juz for me! I'm very touched cos almost the whole dept is going...for my sake? (cos i'm juz a temp staff!) hahaz...maybe it's also a great opportunity for these perm staff to have a fun gathering! (foster bonds!) but really...great thanks!

ong & i talked abt uni stuff again...and reality finally struck...i'm offered a place in the science faculty of nus (yesh...the admission letter has arrived...i was psychoed after reading the materials given...hehez...so it's 'decision' time...yikes!) throughout all this time...we have been pyschoed from diff areas...family& friends & even the unis...so it's really hard to choose when u dun really have a definite area of interest (somebody like me...hehe...or shld i say i'm fickle-minded!) i noe it's immature & probably disgraceful of me to cnt even decide for myself at this age...tat's my major setback...indecisiveness...so i really envy ppl who pursue their interest...cos up till now...i dun even noe wat i really like...

maybe i shld have thought of selecting courses earlier...but who noes i'll score respectable grades? (i dun mean fantastic grades arh!) i always have the mentality tat 'as long as a uni accepts me...i dun care wat course i take' so i didnt think much in the end...now tat i get the privilege to choose...things get more complicated...there were times tat i'm really fed up with myself...haiz...but courses doesnt really matter now...cos when i chose sci for nus/bus for ntu...i knew i cld study either one of them...so it comes down to the uni selection which is the biggest headache...(mum-nus fan, me-half, frens-majority ntu fans) i'm really ok with anything...tat's y i'm easily psychoed...wahahaz...so i decided to bring my mum along with me for 2 high tea sessions...one in nus and one in ntu (yep i'm going for ntu high tea again...) so after all these high tea sessions...maybe a final decision will come by naturally for sure...aiyahz just get over & be done with! :)

talking abt ntu business/accountancy high tea....went with ong last week...the talk was rather useful as we got more info on wat the course is like...ong & i toured around the campus on feet...omg...the place is huge...and there are so many stairs...(really can lose weight when travelling around campus...no wonder dun have PE lessons anymore...hahahz) we wanted to try out the canteen food but all stalls were closed...so we got ourselves toasted sandwiches from vending machines...(ok lahz...we are sua gu...cos we got fascinated by sandwich vending machines...esp me...hehe)...haiz...but not worth the money lehz...got cheated by the nice delicious pictures...the whole environment is good though....

haiz...enough yakking abt my dilemma...wanna think abt my indulgence next mth...this mth was a new wallet...so next mth will be VCDS/DVDS/COMICS! hahaz...cos gonna be jobless liaoz...so wan to spend time watching all the dramas/anime & reading comics...hehez! hahaz...and also the start of *gulps* 'Lose the calories' programme-supervised by my mum & bro & frens...cnt drag anymore...hehe...byes to the fat fat van.... :P

peek-a-boo

2007-04-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

my life revolves around juz a few simple words...'work'...'family'...'frens'...'leisure'(onli small % though...heez)...i'm under 'exhausted' mode again...neva felt like tat sch days when sch wrk makes me dizzy...now work wasnt as fascinating or refreshing as claimed...but luckily i got supportive & helpful colleagues...wahaha...tat's y i dun really dread going to wrk except mon(sorry...suffering frm monday blues...) gonna yak on my current working condition...heez

ok...let's start a few weeks back....the office tat i was located at undergo some renovation (ok...juz add a few big partitions to separate depts)...it's a tiring process cos we got to shift stuff and i realised tat my dept really GOT MANY MANY PAPERS...then i heard tat accts dept had to keep documents for 7 yrs at least...so we actually got papers frm yr 2000...i was pri 6 at tat time(omg)...but there's a gd thing...i got a new seat (& a new phone!)...my own big private space...wahahaz...i sat right at the back & near the pantry...so good...wahahaz...

however...since my desk became bigger...my workload becomes heavier...cos i almost see piles of papers on my desk so i muz keep clearing & clearing...actually my job scope is uncertain...i shld say i'm BKL ('Bao Ka Liao"-means do anything/everything)...but of cos i got to do easy tasks lahz...but lately...my superiors changed job scopes and i actually took over a job scope meant for perm staff!?! so i was really barely hanging these few days...i'm damn 'lost' cos i dunno lots of things...have to keep asking when they're already busy enough...(some of my colleagues are newcomers...can u believe it? i'm the second 'most experienced' accts assistant though i only worked for 4 mths...see the turnover rate?) hahaz...

wat does my job scope includes? dealing with suppliers! ahhh...tat's wat i fear...i thought having my own office phone was cool...cos i got an extention line...hahaz...but i dun feel tat way anymore...cos i always freaked out when the phone rings...cos there'll be ppl asking me 'when are u paying us???' ok...i really cnt give a definite ans...i'm juz a temp (it's already crazy for me to do perm staff wrk liaoz!) lehz...but lucky me...i got super nice superiors who help me out...thank god... :)

my colleagues are nice ppl...i shld say they are like my big sisters who take care of me...feeding me with food...(i can tell u tat office gals can EAT ALOT! office=food paradise)...teaching me stuff...luckily tat our age gap wasnt wide...all of us can communicate easily....and they are really funny...juz earlier today...we chatted abt guys (my ears went huge! interesting! wahah!)

TOPIC: SINGAPOREAN GUYS VS MALAYSIAN GUYS

as most of my colleagues were malaysians...they told me malaysian guys are really nice and sweet towards gal frens (mind u...juz frens not gfs!)...since i know singaporean guys quite well so i made 2 comparisons...

M guys- very generous...seldom make gals pay for their food...so gals got free treats!
S guys- go dutch lahz...obvious

M guys- will fetch gals home and make sure they have safely reached home...(eg...ensure tat u step into the house!)
S guys- err...u can go home urself hor...take care arh...be careful arh...bye bye...

(The above mentioned is based on personal exp...so dun take it to heart...hehez...)

I was practically laughing my heads out on the difference...but maybe malaysian guys are too kind tat shotgun marriages become common...they tend to marry early...but i think i still prefer local guys though they're mean...wahhahaz...

last thurs...went out with ping, dor & ong for dinner at pastamania tampines mall...it's a nice dinner cos we yakked abt interesting stuff...ate pasta (i like!)...wldnt mind if it's gonna be a frequent kind of dinner hangouts...great food! great frens! great hot topics! great fun!

recently...i went crazy over 'Hana Yori Dango' (aka meteor garden) & 'Death Note'...rushed over death note movies...then reliving the fantastic storyline of hana yori anime (my first anime watched!)...damn nice...maybe even nicer than the taiwanese version...cos anime juz rocks...wahaha! go watch hana yori dango anime...it's really nice! as for death note...i like L!

oh ya...i got accepted by a uni! yeah! got offered a place in ntu business (my lst choice!)...congrats to those who got replies from uni...we are being 'accepted'! last time i did dread tat no uni wans me...hahaz...now tat's a relief...but still have to wait for nus reply...before i make the final decision (which i hate to...)...ahhh...not much time left...

gotta think gotta think....

good holiday fun

2007-04-07T11:05:00.001-07:00

kinda lazy to blog now...hehe...read ong's & shawn's entries on the cameron-genting trip...rather detailed so watever i wanna type...they had taken the first step liaoz...but still...i wanna talk abt a bit on the holiday in my point of view...hehez...

went cameron-genting last week with ong, hui, shawn....we took a very nice coach from chinatown to somewhere near genting where we changed to a mini van to continue our journey to cameron first...the whole 'overnight on the bus/van' experience was fun even though it wasnt my first time...cos we were with friends! eating 'tea leaf eggs' at 'mosquito-infested' stop over-yong peng...chit chatting on the van...admiring the star-studded sky...interesting lehz...:)

we reached cameron the next morning...managed to check in to our rooms....and got a great shot of dawn (ok...almost dawn...) the equatorial hotel rooms are quite cosy & well furnished...(wait till u see First World Hotel...it's OMG!) since we only got one day in cameron...we quickly freshened up & had scrumptious breakfast & booked a one full day tour from the hotel (which costs 80RM...my colleagues said was exp!) had a good time sight-seeing...from flowers to cactus, from butterflies to snakes...from tea leaves (boh milk tea not bad lehz! shld buy more!) to honey...the most fun part shld be strawberry plucking! The strawberries are sweet and also sour lohz...but it's cool to pluck pluck pluck...oh ya...at this kind of cooling weather...we shopped at a multicrop mart tat sells cheap cheap flowers!!!! (1 stalk of sunflower costs 2RM ONLY LEHZ...regret not buying!) the dinner was great too....steamboat is the best dinner on a cooling weather like cameron!

very nice dawn pic i've taken at the cameron hotel room...my photography skills not bad sia!

cactus palace....majestic

pose a pic with nature!

flowers flowers

ong blends well with the surroundings...hehez...

a butterfly! nice shot right?

me & the beatles! (oops...i mean the beetles! heh)

affordable steamboat! watashi wa hungry again!

aiyahz...still got loads of photos...but i'll upload until here bahz...but the 'fun' doesnt stop here...errie stuff began happening in the hotel room tat very night when ong, me & shawn started to play card games...from freaky winning streaks with the same cards to same cards with same sequence...i wldnt wan to elaborate on tat (i was freaked out!)...juz leave it as a mystery...:)

genting trip was simply excitement...totally a change of mood from the relaxing cameron highlands....cos it's theme park fun! i luuuuuuvvvvvv theme parks! i like to challenge myself by taking on crazy rides...the indoor outdoor theme parks were not bad...finally i went to take the 'Space Shot' ride....it's like falling off from at least ten-storey building...wow...super shiok! the 'spiderman' ride (cldnt rmb the correct name) was super fun too...the swinging ride was fun though i went a bit dizzy after tat...i realised i like 'falling off' rides lahz...haha...i also managed to overcome my fear for pirate ships & bumper cars...hahaz...the bumper car one was hilarious...esp when ong, hui & i went to 'attack' shawn & his vehicle at the same time...hahahz...serves him right lahz...:P

nightlife in genting was cold but bearable...we shopped around the indoor shopping centre...bought horror movie tickets (cheap! only 10RM!) tat starts at 1.30am!?! (we muz be mad at tat time!) so we went back to hotel room to play card games...alright...the hotel room sucks...wldnt wan to elaborate also....ok...the room also looked eerie...i really got goosebumps when hui suddenly said 'though there are only 4 of us...y do i feel tat there are 5 voices in the room?' ok....freaked out again....we nearly forsake the movie but we still went to watch in a sleepy state of mind....in the end we only a few hrs of sleep before we had to return to our home sweet home s'pore!

ferris wheel with lights!

first world hotel room pic...cheese!

(*heex...didnt take many photos in genting...)

alright...after a nice holiday...had a nice catch up with ping, dor & ong....met them for a nice mos burger lunch at bugis on sat...happy to see dor cos long time neva see liaoz....she's still pretty as usual...wahahz...ping is sweet & cool as eva...ong no need to say...hahaz...we began to chat on our unpredictable future...hmmm...love relationships (my fave!) (to dor: dun think too much kies! dun give up the whole forest for one tree! hehez) we visited the national library & i borrowed some books tat i seldom borrow...a romance novel written by a guy ( i normally prefer female authors...) & a suspense thriller ( not my cup of tea actually...) we these 4 gals continued our conversation at a tea house...ordering $4.50 bubble milk tea (no diff from sweettalk lehz) juz to find a place to sit...i dunno why...but i like to have gal talk with them...super comfortable...maybe cos we are best jie meiz & we have 7 yrs of long friendship to prove tat! yeah!

forever 4 (xue.ping.dor.van)...a pic tat signfies our long-lasting frienship! maybe shld take a studio shot when it's 10 yrs anniversary! hahaz!

i noe...it's kinda a long entry...hehehz...but hope ya have fun reading! see ya!

romance consultant :)

2007-03-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

Romance Consultant-Dr. Vanessa Quek....omg...it's like gonna be so so so cool....hehez

alright...u may be laughing ur heads out abt my latest 'fantasy'...but i came to realise tat all the desperado times i had over the crave for relationships/steads were stupid...probably i didnt wan to be IN a relationship after all...i prefer to DEAL with relationships...it's not as tiring or heart-breaking when involved...it's more like a third party kinda view...hmmzz

maybe it's new ability tat i discovered i possessed...i can understand one's character somehow thru their conversation or behaviour...may not be tat accurate but at least 50%...my tuition student once mentioned tat i knew her very well...so i was kinda shocked...i didnt know i was an analytical person...wahahaz...but i only analyse things tat i'm interested...hahaz...i shld juz take up psychology...but izzit juz basic assumptions or basic knowledge tat ppl ought to know?

aiyah...young ppl at our age often face relationship problems...i mean like almost everybody around me are at different steps of a relationship...it's like a love battlefield...some are juz starting to pull out their swords, some are already fighting like siao...some are even injured or killed...so here i am...taking the role of a strategist (hehe)...no chance to take part but yet can help in one way or another...no practical experience but strong theory background...haiz...juz one word can sum up all the mixed feelings tat had been thrown into a relationship...COMPLICATED....loh...

i think i shld juz resume back to my 'research' (my virtual world of manga, books, dramas :P )

celebrated hui's bdae on tues with tracy & bin (S.H.I.T reunites!) at katong shopping mall ktv...really happy to see them cos it's been long since we actually hang out...the ktv we went was kinda isolated...but overall...their songs are rather updated...price is reasonable...so we found new place to sing our hearts out besides kbox...tracy's voice is very soothing...she's got the 'american slang' voice...so her english songs are superb! bin's voice is very clear & sweet as usual...chinese songs are her forte...hui's voice are more at the base range...unique & special...i like when she sings 'Happy Bdae' by Wen Lan....hehez...

guess wat...i signed up for facial treatment (it's ex lah!)...something tat i didnt expect myself to do...but probably i wanna 'save' my face from 'destruction' or i'm simply tempted....i mean who dun wan to be presentable...so i wanna 'fix' my face...before i 'fix' my body...haiz...as if i'm going extreme makeover...wahahaz...but seriously, spending money can motivate me to put in effort so it'll not be a waste! argh! it's hard...it's really hard...who can put a stop to my agony! wahahah

sooo looking forward for the coming week...cos got loads of programmes! mon got hui's bdae (again! hehez) celebration with ong & shawn! tues got horror movie date with my female colleagues! wed got facial appt...thurs-sun: genting cameron trip! hmmz...fun fun fun! yeah!

decision time

2007-03-14T06:25:00.001-07:00

yikes...i'm behind time...supposed to blog last week but was too busy & tired wif all sorts of stuff...so i dragged until today...but i guess no one really bother abt my posts except myself...(can see from pathetic tagboard...wahahaz!)

the beginning of march 07 was like a tornado...first hit was the major stepping stone of my whole future...the release of 'A' Levels results (here i go again!)...i did exceptionally well (according to my standard lahz...) way out of my expectation...so i was VERY happy & finally got a chance in my whole life to cry over results with tears of JOY...(past few times were sorrowful...) but it seemed unreal tat i even doubt if the name of the result slip was mine...i call my bro to hit me so to prove tat i'm not dreaming...i even went to check the slip every night (for 5 days) to see if the grades will 'morph' into reality grades...u shld see my prelim results...no one can believe lahz...it's like a miracle indeed or shld i say...my hard wrk finally paid off at tis pt of time....

getting acceptable results wasnt tat great after all...cos ur choices of courses in uni become wider...tat's my second hit...to make decision on which course to embark on & make a living out of it...ahhhh...i've been thinking & thinking & thinking for the past few weeks & i'm still hesitant & a teeny bit unsure...last time...i thought my final grades wld juz limit my choices & i wld be able to make a decision quick cos my ultimate goal is juz go uni regardless of any course cos i practically got ability to develop interest...but now...i'm spoilt with choices...so it's harder to make a wise choice tat i wont regret...ppl kept telling me to choose my interest but i find career prospects are impt...& unfortunately for me...my interest doesnt give me good broad career paths...really envy those ppl who had already made their satisfying decision...ok i'm simply fickle-minded....hmmm...so folks...do u think i shld choose science? business? or media studies? pls give comments while considering if my character & possible capabilites can fit in which areas...

3rd hit was really a hit...hahaz...experienced the tremors from sumatra earthquake for the 1st time...i was at the office wrking when i thought i went giddy...but i realised my table & chair are shaking...& i felt the tremors twice...the whole company evacuated the building for a while before resuming wrk...though it's scary but it's actually quite exciting for me lahz...a kinda excitement in my mundane life...

celebrated shawn's bdae last week with a mini surprise...i was rather shocked to learn tat shawn actually thought we forgot his bdae...hui's acting is superb tat she got shawn tricked...hahaz...but we did enjoy ourselves at the cafe in kovan cos the food is damn nice...of cos thanx to shawn for giving us a treat...feel kinda bad since he's still the bdae boy...glad tat he likes the gift though i dun think he like the cake...hah...

went to NTU & NUS open house last sat wif syl, zj & frens...ntu was the first stop...i like their funky & 'less rigid' kinda style for their open house...their talks are much clearer & detailed...nus was the last stop...their campus is really nice...though the talks are almost the same...but i like tat exhibition booths for enquiries...the ppl in both uni are very nice too...arh...thought i wld be able to decide better after going the open houses...but it made me even more confused...cos it got me interested in courses tat i nvr consider...so i'm so dead cos gonna make a decision b4 end of march....later a bunch of us went to zj's wrking place to have dinner...yeah..got to eat my fav unagi (eel in jap) ! the food is not bad & price is reasonable...& got food on the house...hahaz...thanx to zj's presence...overall i enjoyed myself tat day hanging out with frens...

hmmm...my wrking life resumes...& i felt tat my wrk load is increasing...leading to fatigue...& i began to lose the spunk & spirit & interest in wrking initally...but i'm still surviving cos i think i made many good frens aka colleagues...hehez...they treated me well & i'll really miss them when i have to go...probably i need to wrk for another 1 mth plus...hehez...i didnt realise i wrked for 2 mths plus liaoz...hehez...

busy yet fulfilling....

to be or not to be

2007-02-26T01:18:00.000-08:00

Quoting from 'K One' taiwanese drama--'Shakespeare says 'To be or not to be- tat's a question'...hmmz...yesh...right now i'm thinking...shld i be wat i'm now or not?

alright...i'm having only slightly low self-esteem again...aiyahz...probably u can guess wat i'm fretting over...yes..it's my weight lohz...weight is always a sensitive topic for me...though i was getting used to how ppl look at me...i cnt be bothered when young...but at this age now...image is impt cos ppl are practical...even myself...i tried to lose weight which i did last time...it was successful somehow...but wasnt near my ideal weight at all...but take one step at a time mahz...i got positive comments like...'wah...u lost weight lehz...' 'not bad arh...look prettier liaoz..' ermz...i'm flattered but deep down...i noe tat's juz encouragement...cos there's obvious long way to go....moreover...my bro became my standard bar...he's always getting the attention wherever he goes (not joking lehz!)...there's once someone said 'u & bro dun look alike lehz...one heaven, one earth arh...' obviously i noe where i belong....simply ouch....=)

had a nice talk with ong last sat on the bus...and i was practically laughing madly over her 'being stalked' experiences...so i began to envy her exciting life (though to her it's dangerous...hehez)...and blurted out my desire to be stalked ( which i think it's a bit stupid now...hehez...)....i noe it's kinda impossible cos i dun have the 'guy appeal'...maybe i appeal more to gals & children...hehez...then ong was saying i shld lose weight & become a pretty gal...but it's not easy...or else y ppl almost lose their lives juz to lose weight...never heard ppl suffering from gaining weight...furthermore...i got an almost unrealistic dream...is to find a guy who likes the simple me despite i'm fat...but as wat ong says is true...the world is practical lohz...haiz...

so i come to a conclusion...i'll lose weight for my own sake...but of cos...at my own pace (cos need to indulge sometimes mahz!)...i may even stay chubby (i prefer cute image) forever...but who noes one day i'll go into 'lose weight' frenzy? it's my life so it's up to me lohz...=P (haiz...but i really gained some kilos these days...CNY is always like tat!)

Juz now had a party at my house...some of my relatives came to watch lion dance during afternoon at my house...it's not bad though i almost went deaf by the drummings...had a fun time playing cards, singing & eating again...i juz love gatherings cos normally we only organise & plan during CNY...juz once a yr...so i had a fun time...

looking forward to genting cum cameron highlands trip with ong, hui & shawn...cos it's my first overseas trip with frens only...we can actually plan ourselves which is like sooo cool...maybe after gaining some experience travelling on our own without adults ( though we are considered young adults...) we can go further places like thailand, japan, korea or taiwan!!!! hehez...

enjoy the remaining days of CNY 2007!

festive mood

2007-02-20T23:11:00.000-08:00

it's a great time for celebration! *drum roll*...happy chinese new year!!! *drum roll* (again)....i got my pay at last!!! quite a huge sum...hehez...my hard-earned cash!!! *drum roll* (yes...again)...my internet is finally broadband! i can surf for unlimited hours and the speed is my....hell lot faster than dial up!!! YiPpPEEE!

i supposed i had a great CNY...though it's almost like a routine to me every single year...but nevertheless...i still enjoy myself cos i luv gatherings, food & ang baos...hehehz...it's really fun to chit chat with my cousins & maybe juz gamble for the sake of trying our luck...furthermore...it's also the time for u to doll urself up & look presentable...tat's basically what i did for the first day...haiz...but sadly to say...tat's also my first & last ang baos collection day...hehez...but i still had a 'fruitful' trip!

2nd day i went to my great aunt's house...i always luv to go her house cos she really bought many goodies...so i kept eating & eating...oh ya...& i drank my first glass of red wine which contains 10% of alcohol...haiz...i'm probably a lousy drinker...cos my whole face went red after 1 glass...but i'm still conscious...i juz felt very hot...hehez...

3rd day is the 'so called' temple trip...my mum wld drive the whole family to several temples to pray for everything...omg...the crowd was overwhelming since it's cny! i was almost suffocated & blinded my the incense smoke...there were even lion dance troupes tat even made me deaf due to the booming drums...but all these are part & parcel of praying process...hehez...

ooh...i went back to cchms a few days back with ping...nothing much had changed...except there's an extra security guard house...and a completely new cca block which made me sooo envious! the cca block is sooooo new & clean! u shld see the toilets...nice! facilities...cool! it's really heaven & earth lahz! i was grumbling why i wasnt born later...hahaz...but come to think abt it...the old cca block had it's eerie & special features tat the younger generation cldnt experience...so i shld be contented lahz... ping, ong & i also went to ate our fav katong laksa stall...the laksa still tasted good...hehez...& i really enjoy myself chatting with them on all kinds of topics...juz like old days...though we've grown older...the interesting past happenings in cchms, at sch bus stops, bubble tea shop, 7-11, pp...were still memorable!

been crazy over hua yang shao nian shao nu these few days...watching the episodes since cny...tat's y i sleep sooo late every night...i really LUV broadband & youtube!!! in tis way...i no need to catch the drama on tv every weekday when i'm working...hehez... da dong is soooo cute & dramatic...i also like ella's acting & wu zun is really handsome lahz...haiz...i still left last 2 episodes which have not been uploaded yet....but it's ok...i'm now watching an anime series...hehez...

gonna tell ya something...i really underestimate fei lun hai's popularity again...last fri...i went popular at pp with ong to check out the price of fei lun hai's pictorial bk...i was hesitating if i shld buy so in the end i decided to buy after i get my ang bao money...so today i went to kovan popular to buy the book...guess wat...SOLD OUT...alamak...i was shocked lahz...though i noe there'll still be stock at other outlets...i still didnt expect to be sold out in an outlet...it's juz the same situation like the CD!!!!! aiyohz...it's hard to be a fei lun hai fan arh....

very fast...it's already the third day of cny...no wonder ppl always say fun-filled & happy days are short-lived...lucky for me...i only start work on thurs...so i can enjoy one more day...yesh! (but sure got tons of stuff for me to do when work starts! haiz...) gonna go shopping with ping & meeting ong for lunch tml...now tat i'm slightly richer...really got the urge to pamper myself...hehez...

getting fatter liaoz...'xuete'!

it's all abt the money $

2007-02-11T23:48:00.000-08:00

cant think of any cool titles for this entry...probably my inner devil is money-faced...wahahaz...so it's not me...or maybe it's me...ok...this is getting a tiny weeny bit confusing....

most of us (me & frens) are working now...working for the exp to put in nice words...but for me...it's more for the money to enjoy? hahaz...to rather spend my time rotting at home...it's definitely a wise decision to move my butt off the couch & start working...so i slowly discovered the other side of me...yesh...a workaholic 'vanessa'....ppl say tat i'm hardworking to struggle between temp full time & part time jobs...y? hahaz..becos who'll refuse to earn extra cash? the truth reveals tat as u grow older...u tend to splurge more on comfort...ranging from clothes to food...and our age is beginning to deny our privilege of asking parents for money for self-indulgement....(u see...a few more yrs...21 yrs old=independence mentally & sadly....financially) sometimes i wish i'm still a kid...however...maybe it's more cool to spend ur own hard-earned cash...and u can really buy wat u like with no objections...but there's one more ironic thing...before we can earn money...we have to spend first to earn it...get it? ( office wear lahz...transport fee lahz...food fee lahz.....aiyohz...)

lately...i realised my company's office politics were getting a bit ermz...interesting? wat i'm facing in the office everyday are dreadful relationships...scandals!!...paparazzi....hahahaz...in schs...i always luv these stuff to the max...hehehez...cos i gossip mahz...but of cos office situation is different...i cant really give any comments (or else i'll be courting my own death lohz...) so all i do is observe & listen & analyse...luckily i'm a temp...not qualified to be their talk of the week...hehez...but soon all will come to the end....oh...i went back home with my senior on one of the days last week...we chatted and she's actually a nice person to talk to..but i'm still afraid of her somehow...maybe becos i treat her as my mentor/teacher...

yeah! meet up with pingz & ongz (miss them lots...esp ping lahz...cos i can see ong's face often :P) ytd for KBOX session at pp branch...we sang quite a number of songs & devour the klunch with delight...haiz...but this time we didnt drag the time...hahahaz...cos we feel paiseh lahz...i really like pp branch kbox...maybe better than hougang...cos the room & tv are bigger...we shld sing at more diff outlets...maybe can try the one at amk...or town area....later we went to popular to shop for ping's notebk...popular also brought back memories cos it's one of the main stops of pp for us...hehehz...last time my second home was pp (the shopping mall tat gave me a b3 for O levels eng! thanx so much!) during sec days...now it's hougang mall....hahaz...which mall will it be next?

juz had a terrific reunion dinner at my grandma's house hrs ago...i like my grandma's cooking...so i think i ate alot ( all the good food...abalone! sea cucumber! duck! roast meat!)...yesh...i also ate my 2007 first 'yu sheng'....very delicious cos many many slices of raw fish are added in...oh great...i'm getting into the festive mood....

haiz...this coming week will be sooo lonely...cos most of my colleagues took long cny leave...so i'll be only one left? wat's more scary? 'O' Levels results were out last fri...which means 'A' Levels results are coming out soon? *_*

Btw....Happy Valentine's Day (14 feb)....(another yr of signifying my singlehood....hahz!)

a.new.look. a.new.me.

2007-02-05T23:23:00.000-08:00

chinese new yr is coming soon...50% anticipating--i can get more wealthy somehow (alright i'm practical..)...50% dreadful---irresistable food (my stomach is going on an eating spree...i've grown fatter since the start of 07! yikes!)...

hmmz...ytd went to get a haircut (juz trim to be exact) at EC House...yup the $10 10 mins haircut...of cos i'm worried initially cos i dun really trust the skills as compared to salons...but ironically...i'm quite pleased with the result...hahaz...cos it's simple & nice.. & cheap lahz...then i did a major change to my hair!! (one of my best features ok!) i dyed my hair!!! aaahhh....(lightning & thunder---ok i'm over-reacting...) it's actually DIY lahz...but not me...it's my mum who diy for me...but the hair colour (medium brown) wasnt very obvious lehz...unless i stand under the light....i juz feel tat dyed hair make me look more mature which wasnt my true intention...but i still like my new look somehow...cos i received good comments for my new hair look...hehezx....

last fri met up with ong & hui at hougang mall (our 2nd home liaoz...hahaz...) for dinner at pepper lunch...i suggested it cos i wanna try the food there...it's ok lahz...though i found it costly lehz...serving can be bigger...( u see! my appetite is growing like hell!) after tat...we shopped for some office clothes...i began to feel tat we were behaving like adults where frens meet up after work & shop for office clothes together...as sharing the same sentiments as hui....sch life is the life tat we still prefer somehow...we are still at the student league mahz....:P...but i'm still enjoying all the meeting ups!

wanna blog my second tuition session wif my student...this time is much better cos probably we had built a good rapport in the beginning & i did my 'homewrk' by drafting lesson plans...she's more comfortable with me & more willing to converse in mandarin (though we still use eng sometimes...hehez...)....i also see her improvement...so i'm quite happy...so i muz think of new ways to make her enjoy learning chinese...so guess wat...i'm gonna use lyrics...hope it's effective....actually we are more like frens lohz...cos we always chat after lesson...tat's gd...so i dun dislike ppl younger than me afterall...

abt my main job...haiz...i made mistakes...yikes...went to key in wrong info (cos i act smart lahz! haiz!)...but luckily my seniors are understanding...so now i'll always ask if i've any doubts b4 doing anything...or else i wont forgive myself lohz...but i'm still quite happy with my current job though it's super tiring...have to deal with papers! papers! papers! everyday...data logging can make u feel like sleeping lahz! however...i'm sorta given a new impt responsibility...which is to do payment....where i've to issue cheques...stress lohz...i'm kinda privileged cos temp staff are not supposed to write cheques...so i'm proud tat they trust me...hehehz...

yeah...i'm having reunion dinner this week...i noe it's a bit too early but dun ask me why cos i also dunno...but i'm looking forward to it cos i can hang out with my cousins...hehez...and of cos...the food...wahahahz...fat liaoz...oh ya....maybe there shld be a reunion dinner with my pals...right??? hehez....

sorry...this is a long entry...but hui tagged me to do this...& it seems interesting...so here goes...")

Layer ONE: On the Outside
Name: Vanessa Quek
Birth date: 23-12-1988
Current status: Single & available lohz...hahaz...18 yrs old chubby gal who enjoys life & is a tv addict...
Eye colour: Black or dark brown?
Hair colour: initially black...now it's brown & black
Righty or lefty: Righty
Zodiac sign: Dragon

Layer TWO: On the Inside
Your heritage: i'm a chinese half teochew half hainanese
Your fears: failures
Your weaknesses: soft-hearted...give in to temptations...
Your perfect pizza: 'Lots of Meat, Cheese & tomato sauce' pizza

Layer THREE: Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: i wan to sleep again lahz!
Your bedtime: 12am-2am
Your most missed memory: ermz....childhood & sch life

Layer FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
Macdonalds or Burger King: Can i choose Long John Silvers? hehez...but i'll choose BK bahz..
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: I'm an Addias fan...
Lipton tea or Nestea: Nestea....i'm super tea lover!
Chocolate or vanilla: VANilla
Cappucino or coffee: Cappucino...it's another kind of coffee...

Layer FIVE: Do you..
Smoke: No...definite no
Curse: Always! wahaha! but i'll do it silently...so dun offend me arh!
Gone to the mall: of cos!
Been on stage: Ya...i'm a performer lehz...ermz...ex-performer...hehez
Eaten sushi: yesh! luv sushi!
Dyed your hair: yar...juz did it last week....not bad lehz...

Layer SIX: Have You Ever
Played a stripping game: ermz...of cos no lahz...i've no shape at all....:(...but i strip in the bathroom...thus tat counts? hehehz...
Changed who you were to fit in: i also do tat...but not to the extreme lahz...ppl still have to accept the way i am...

Layer SEVEN:Age
You're hoping to be married: by 26 i guess...but muz get married b4 30...or else i'll juz say bye to marriage..SOB! (i wan to be housewife mahz...)

Layer EIGHT: In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: Black/Brown
Best hair colour: as long as it suits the person

Layer NINE: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: Blogging
1hour ago: Munching titbits
1.5 hours ago: Watching TV
1 month ago: Working lohz...
1 year ago: Studying...probably preparing for some 'argh' tests

Layer TEN: Finish the Sentence
I love: Idol Dramas, Manga & Fei Lun Hai...hehez
I feel: extremely tired but happy i guess
I hate: to grow fat & pimples
I hide: my true inner feelings
I miss: fun & exciting sch life with activities, the spirit & frens!

Layer ELEVEN:
Tag 5 people anyone who's bored.
anybody & everybody!

mission possible---fahrenheit edition

2007-01-30T00:05:00.000-08:00

i noe it's obvious what the content of this entry will be...let me tell u...u'll never believe what ong & i been thru juz to get fei lun hai's signatures...hmmz...very very long story....pls read patiently...everything juz had to start from last sat...

after reading ong's blog...yesh...she's right...it seems tat god has planned obstacles after another for us to prevent us from being idol crazy for once....ok this is my second time...first obstacle nearly scared our wits out...fei lun hai cds are sold out?!?! tat's wat i heard from famous cd retail shops such as sembawang music & cd rama...i really underestimate fei lun hai's popularity...i was definitely more worried than ong...cos i really dread to go the autograph session alone...moreover...it's a miracle tat ong actually likes a boy group & willing to accompany me & buy the exp original cd...so i'm super touched...so for tis reason...i did 'homework' such as searching phone numbers of cd shops...and are we lucky or wat? cos there's still stock mahz...at music junction! now i noe where to get my cd at cheaper price liaoz...hehez...

28 jan...a day probably i wont forget for the time being...cos it's D-DAY...fei lun hai's first singapore autograph session...i never attended an idol group autograph session b4...my first autograph session experience was given to zaizai...cos i really idolise him...i thought i'll never have the 'idolise feeling' again...but surprising...i'm willing to queue for fei lun hai...i'm always loyal to who i like...juz like F4...probably fei lun hai & F4 share some resemblance...so i've the urge to see them in real person...

12.45pm....ong & i stepped on the grounds of IMM...mind u...the autograph starts at 6pm...and we started to queue at 1pm...u shld see the queue...SCARY...why? cos it's only 1pm! the line is so long that it extended to the carpark...but ong & i still can accept the length somehow...it's similar to the length during zaizai's autograph session...but i rmb for zaizai...i queue 2hrs earlier only lehz...so ong & i spend nearing 5 hrs in the 'air polluted' carpark...tat's our second obstacle...as time passed by...the queue was super super long as concluded by ong...i didnt manage to see how long the queue was...but i tink is thrice the queue in front of us...we are lucky to be quite in front....

4.45pm....the queue moved...we finally can proceed inside the shopping centre...but frankly speaking...ong & i cnt even see the stage...it's blocked by shops...and this is where the real frightening part starts....it's abt outlast, outlive and outwit...hahaz...a bit like survivor...esp when we entered the yellow barriers...it's soooooooo squeezy...everybody (99.9% gals> was practically pushing...we were all standing so close that our bodies are sticking on one another...cant feel the aircon...air became stuffy & hot...i was sweating like mad....had to hold on to ong...or else we cld be separated at any moment...so we stood in awkward positions for hrs....tat's the third obstacle...to test our endurance...haiz...

6.15pm....as usual...idols are always late...& false alarms are always given...so ppl practically juz scream & yell & scream & yell....basically the area tat ong & i & many other gals were standing is really unsatisfactory....cos we cldnt see or hear a thing properly...have to tiptoe all the time...ok it's not tat i'm short...it's tat i'm blocked & pushed! i gave up trying to see a thing....so i juz prefer to listen...but tat's even worse...i dun understand why some gals' voices are so shrilling! i'm a gal also but i can neva scream likeeee taaat....and they did not realise they were screaming into my eardrums!!!! obviously ong & i did not even scream ( too tired & cnt be bothered)...we are considered as 'hidden fans'---rather to support them quietly...coming to this session is to experience de experience...fourth obstacle...to jostle & keep our balance & to be in queue...u noe...had to prevent the cutting queue thingy....

6.30pm...finally fahrenheit appeared & sang their songs...the atmosphere was very high...all the gals screaming for the individuals they like...i think quite many supporters for wu zun, da dong & ya lun...haiz...calvin not many though...but ong & i think tat he's good lehz...i wanted to try to enjoy myself...but i cnt even see their faces...and i was pushed & squeezed...ong was facing the same plight as me...haiz...so i told her...'can they sing quickly and start signing so we can get over and done with it? '

9pm...we were not even close to the stage where u cld get the signatures...but at least i can see their faces quite clearly from side view...they are really very shuai...every single one of them is shuai...but then came the worrying part...the autograph session wld end at 10pm despite the super duper long queue...ong & i began to panic cos we stand a chance not getting the signatures...of cos i grumble as we waited for 8 hrs for their signatures lehz ( i began to think it's a bit stupid...hahaz...:P) i dun wan to go home empty-handed....tat's our fifth obstacle...but we are lucky tat the door to the main stage area was opened...and ong & i rushed in...yesh! we cld get signatures before the clock ticks 10....

9.35pm...ong & i went up to shake hands and get signatures...it's very rushing though cos the organisers took our lyrics book ( they were signing on lyric books)....and we were actually focusing on our books rather than the idols...hmmz...wu zun shook my hand quite hard...can feel he's strong...ya lun is rather charming...da dong is very cute & he kept saying thank u in eng...which i found it weird & funny...calvin's smile is very nice & warm-hearted...so when everything ended...i realised the book i took wasnt mine (was ong's)...so i stunned for a while...then i was rushed down...so the person in front took my book but i dunno who! then ong took another person's book...now this became our last and most difficult obstacle of all....almost mission impossible!

10.20pm...we were still in IMM...the session extended for around 30 mins only....we left the stage at 9.40pm...but we didnt leave the place yet...it's not tat we didnt had enough of fei lun hai...it's tat something shocking happened...we realised the book tat ong took had a signature missing...yan ya lun forgot to sign!!!! alamak...the situation was rather bad...cos we cldnt get close to any organisers to pass the book to him to sign...ong & i were definitely reluctant to juz go off without a complete set of signatures...so we tried all sorts of ways to attract the organisers' attention...we are even stopped by security guards...i'm really pissed at tat time...hehez...cos i'm super tired and had no strength to fight for attention...haiz...and there are many unhappy fans around tat cldnt get their book signed...so we are despondent...esp me...but ong was still persistant...so when we thought our first autograph session was going to end with a sour note...an organiser stood near us trying to keep order...so this person was our last hope...we called her and told our request...at first she's hesitant but finally she obliged and helped us!!!!! We successfully got the last signature of yan ya lun! ong & i were super happy...not only tat we got the signature at the last minute b4 the event ended....it's also proved tat we are super lucky!

as wat ong says...within 2 days...we lived our 48 hrs in trials & tribulations...wahahaz...a test to our long running friendship...this experience is definitely more tiring yet meaningful & fun (cos i'm not alone!) than b4...hahaz...i'll rmb this autograph session...a mark in my teenager life...probably i wldnt attend any more autograph sessions.... i need yrs to prepare myself...hahahaz...

thanx ong for accompany me! hope ya enjoy urself somehow... :)

mission impossible-----> mission possible! YEAH!

PS: to dearest ping...had a great dinner time last fri...welcome to our north area! hahaz...cnt wait for our kbox session next week! good luck in ur tests! jia you!

workaholic

2007-01-21T13:56:00.000-08:00

i think i'm working like crazy and seems to be enjoying it...izzit for the money? or izzit for the interest? or izzit to pass time? cos i realised after taking up a full time job...time really passes quickly...but u'll feel tat u've a fulfilling day...furthermore...i work for 6 days...sunday is my only rest day...but i'm satisfied...it's better than fretting over what to do....

i am sick! yesh! i'm coughing like mad...no matter if i'm at home or at the office...i kept coughing coughing...medicine can only relieve my suffering...i really hate to be ill...esp having cough...the feeling is super terrible...u can feel ur lungs bursting...i even need to restrain myself from my fav food...until my appetite is destroyed...ahhh....my cough have to be cured before new year...or else i can only see not eat those goodies!!!

oh ya....ytd...it's my first time as a paid tuition teacher, teaching my student chinese at her house...ok...after the first session...i realised being a teacher is tough...esp for an inexperienced me...teaching languages like chinese is different from teaching other subjects...last time when i joined my sch's voluntary tuition project...i taught maths & science...it's much easier than teaching chinese...my student is more english-educated so she tends to direct translate from eng to chi...so i muz try my best to expose her to more words to use to express what she wans to say...ahhhh....but i think i teach quite lousy...i muz revise my teaching methods...to make my lesson more interesting lohz...but i dun have creativity lehz...

hmmmz...i began to make comparisions on sch life & working life...sch's good...cos i can always hang out with frens...enjoy the sch's facilities...participate in sch activities & celebrations...it's like a sense of belonging...but i juz dun really like homework & tests...hehez...work's good...cos can earn money...can know more ppl and learn many useful stuff....be involved in gossips (hehez...tat's a fun thing!)...having a sense of satisfaction when praised...but can be very slack or very busy and long working hours & short lunch break & exp transport fees... nevertheless i enjoy my work lahz...my superior even suggested to extend my contract for another month...cos i think the company seriously need more manpower...hehez...but not fixed yet...i dun mind cos i too lazy to find another job....

i got my first pay on 17 jan!!!!!! but only 100 over bucks...hehez...cos it's my pay for last dec where i only worked only for 3 days...but hope to see the money rolling in cos i need some cash to go shopping!!! yiippeee!!!

i wanna announce tat i've a new boy band tat i idolise since the 'almost long gone F4'...it's Fahrenheit--Fei Lun Hai!!! I like Jiro Wang aka Da Dong the best! But i began to admire the rest of the members after watching 'KO One' aka Zhong Ji Yi Ban starring 3 of fei lun hai's members...they are sooo cool...so if u like Fahrenheit too....rmb to go IMM next sun at 6pm...got their autograph session...i'm going most probably (but haven bought the cd yet...yikes)...i wan to get their signatures...this is the first boy band tat i'm willing to queue for...haiz...i think i'm crazy....:P

i finally completed the Full House korean drama...but i wont do a review cos almost everyone watched before...i can say tat Rain is quite handsome & cute in certain angles...the story plot is not bad but a bit repetitive at times...hehez...but it's a muz watch for korean dramas fanatics...as for now...i'm watching 'KO One'...omg...Da Dong is very shuai and so is Yan Ya Lun & Chen Yi Ru...it's a very interesting story abt sch violence, friendship, romance---then it's a muz watch for ppl who like Fahrenheit...

i think i'll have a fun & exciting & tiring 'next weekend'... tat's all for now...have a fun & enjoy life!

identity crisis

2007-01-14T19:02:00.000-08:00

ok...i think i'm getting paranoid...or izzit tat i'm thinking too much already? i'm actually having identity crisis here?? who am i right now? a student? not really... a working adult? not really.... a teenager? not really...a xiao mei? too young for tat... a xiao jie? too old for tat...ahhh...so confusing...

maybe i hate to admit i'm getting older...alright u may find me ridiculous to think 18 (actually going to turn 19 tis yr...yikes!) is old...but it's tat i dun behave like one...i'm still a kid lahz...hahahz...can u imagine the feeling of being somebody u're not? everyday i wear office clothes, high heels walking on the streets (it's really not me...i'm a casual lehz...)...i dun look like a fresh jc grad at all...i dun look like a student...which makes me feel weird...hahaz...probably u can only find the 'youth atmosphere' in schs...probably i'm not used to the working society environment...but hehehehz...putting in practical terms...it's all abt money & experience...so all tis will come naturally afterall...i'm juz thinking too much...hah

as usual...wanna update abt my job...ermz...my workload increased this week...did more data logging & issue checks...so scary lahz...cos cnt make mistake while writing the check or else the check will be wasted and i've to key everything again...but i learn more things too...so no regrets or complains lahz...oh ya...i sat a new place...it's even more enclosed & personal...not bad lahz...hahaz...but i realised the office politics are getting interesting... there are really some bad relationships going on in the office...i began to understand who the gals are gossiping abt...cos i almost knew everyone's names in the office...of cos...i keep my mouth shut lahz...i juz listen & laugh lohz...oh ya...i almost eat packed lunch everyday in the office...it's super cheap lahz...cos got many dishes...and delicious...(prob i'm hungry...hehez...get too hungry easily liaoz...)

i've a good news!!! i'm a freelance part time tuition teacher! yeah! but i got one student onli...hehez...it's recommended by my mum...i'm teaching my mum's fren's daughter chinese...shld be my forte lahz...actually last dec i got this offer liaoz...but i thought the mother didnt wan the tuition liaoz...but suprisingly she called me last week...we talked and she hoped tat i can help her daughter to regain her interest in chinese and excel in it...hmmmz...seems to be an interesting yet challenging case...so i decided to give it a try...i gave voluntary tuition before...so hope i can handle a sec 2 gal well...hehez....

YEAH! went kboxing with ong ytd at hougang...had a super great time lohz...actually i'm a bit sick but i cnt miss tis singing session cos i wan to relax mahz...i enjoyed myself very much cos i managed to sing all the songs i've written on my song lists...hehez...later on ong & i went to hougang mall to see mediacorp artistes...they are having a roadshow to promote their dramas...i saw felicia chin, shaun chen, adam chen, project superstar alumni, qi yu wu (shuai!), jeanette aw, huang wenyong, lin meijiao, ann kok and some more lahz...it's quite crowded lehz...being short hor...i've to tip toe to see clearly...haiz...yikes...it'll be more scary if it's Fei Lun Hai's autograph session...too too too packed i guess... last stop was comic shop...very long neva go liaoz...so went to borrow some comics...die...now i'm thinking when i can return the books...cos i'm too busy to go back there liaoz...

hohohoho...it's drama reviews again...this week only can review one...cos i only completed one...hehez...

4) E Zuo Ju Zhi Wen (It started with a kiss)----Starring Zheng Yuan Chang, Ariel Lin Yi Chen, Wang Dong Chen (Da Dong)
Mini summary: The story started when the F class gal, Xiangqin (Ariel), falls for the A class genius, Zhi Shu (ZYC) ,by love at first sight...after having a crush on him for 2 yrs, Xiangqin decided to confess her feelings for Zhi Shu but was later rejected...even worse...Xiangqin's house collapsed due to an earthquake...unexpectedly...the new house she's going to stay in is Zhi Shu's house! Zhi Shu's cool & cold attitude VS Xiangqin's adorable cute foolishness & kind heart...5 yrs of laughter, joy and tears
Thoughts: i was quite shocked actually...cos the storyline is quite different from the jap version i've watched...similarity onli 30%...but still...i think the story and cast are not bad...but i juz feel tat taiwan version Zhi Shu is not cold hearted enough...but i'm impressed with Da Dong's portrayal of Ah Jin, a boy tat had a crush on the lead gal, Xiangqin, for total 5 yrs...he's super cute & loyal in the show...hahaz...as for Zheng Yuan Chang...he's really shuai & cool...i dun really like Ariel Lin at first...but she's cute & naive in the show...so she's not bad lahz...abt the soundtracks...worth listening...very nice very nice... esp 'Say U Love Me' by Jason & Lara
Rating: 3.8/5

i'm currently watching a rather old korean drama...cos i bet many ppl watched liaoz...except me...hehez...it's 'Full House'...it's really very nice cos i like the bickering parts...but watching all these romance dramas...juz dunno why the female leads muz always fall in love with the male leads first? and hor... why muz the female leads have to sacrifice a lot to let the male leads realise who they love? dun tell me guys are always so block-head mehz? hahaz...

wanna recommend a manga i'm currently reading...i think it's super nice...it's called 'Gakkou No Ojikan' by Mimi Tajima....it's abt sch life romance...if u're finding any new titles to read or u're into romance girl comics...this is the one for u....hehez

ahhh...i think i type too many words lahz...but no choice cos i onli got time to blog once a week...hehez...so can take ur time to read slowly & also tag too...see ya next week....:P

identity crisis

2007-01-14T01:49:00.000-08:00

reviews

2007-01-07T15:34:00.000-08:00

ohhhh....my first entry of the year 2007!!!! hahaz...sorry arh...noe tat i'm kinda slow liaoz...but i'm busy & lazy mahz...u noe my everyday schedule is juz work & watch my dramas...no time for other stuff lehz...dun even have time to rent manga...but i'm going to rent next week...i dun care...wahahaz...for tis entry...hehez..gonna yak abt some dramas i watched, work & outings...hehez

last mon, meet up with ong, hui & shawn at hougang mall...hui actually works at Gelare...famous for ice cream waffles...her job is interesting cos can learn to make food & serve customers...probably i'll suck at service line if it's me...hehez..we ate lunch at Cafe Cartel...my first time eating there...the food is not bad lahz...but not fantastic as i thought...but my family wans me to treat them cartel when i get my first pay...ok lohz....i'll call ribs next time...we exchanged some gifts from oversears...thanx hui & shawn for the presents...hehez...

last tues, ping & ong came to my house...hehez...kinda excited so the day before i spent hours to clean my room...the before & after was like...WOW...hehez...so luckily they saw the 'after' only...hahaz...ok...we spent time watching goong extra...going thru memorable stuff tat reflect our good old days & it's quite fun after all...so we decided to go each of our house and do the same things!!! then i persuade ong to watch the dramas i recommended...hehez...hope my recommendations are satisfactory... :)

hmmm...wanna talk abt abt my work here...basically i've worked for a week liaoz...i do enjoy my work cos it's rather simple and not as stressful as those permanent staff...i finally can touch the com liaoz...doing manual payment checks...but only once for time being...hahaz...but i'm happy liaoz lahz...cos i can understand i cnt do those impt documents...i still lack exp...but i tried stocktaking lehz...sooo fun...counting & recording...hahaz...at least i learnt someting....i made some new friends too...they are very nice to me...esp the gal sitting next to me...her name is mary...she helps me alot!! i made a discovery...all the office gals in my dept are all malaysians except a few...and shocking still...they married super early!!! got one is only 20 yrs old & already pregnant!!! most of them are attached lahz...so i feel super weird...wahahaz...cos i'm single...aiyohz...peer pressure again...hehehehez...haiz...i heard i need to change place cos got new permanent staff being hired...aaahhh...i dun wan to leave my cosy working corner...

i wan to do some mini reviews on the dramas i've watched....i completed 3 & quarter of dramas only since i'm back from holiday...which is kinda slow for me....hehez...but no choice mahz...i need to work in the day...& watch dramas at night...u might be thinking why i'm rushing my dramas...it's not rushing...it's addiction...hehez...i dun even watch chn 8 or U liaoz...

1) Er Mo Zai Shen Bian ( Devil Beside U)-----Starring He Jun Xiang, Rainie Yang
Type: Romance/Drama
Mini summary: Qi Yue's (Rainie) life became upside down when she gave her love letter to the wrong person, the talk of the sch--Jiang Meng (Jun Xiang)....who became the devil of her life, her not blood related bro...making her fall in love with him...facing the obstacles that came inbetween them...
Thoughts: the drama got its light & dark hearted moments...the script got meaningful quotes tat actually make us think for a while...the plot is not bad cos really many obstacles to overcome...and my fav...love triangles...hehez...the songs are ok as a whole...i like the opening song...fits the drama...hehez...my fav scene includes the guy kissing the gal on the road lying down with many cars around...representing their dangerous relationship...hahaz...
RATING: 3.5/5

2) Wei Xiao Pasta-----Starring Zhang Dong Liang, Cyndi Wang
Type: Romance/ Drama
Mini summary: Xiao Shi (Cyndi) is the daughter of the owner of Wei Xiao Pasta...on the day she was dumped by her bf...she kissed a superstar, He Qun (ZDL) who was running from paparazzi, accidentally. Unfortunately, their kiss is captured and published on the tabloids...so she was asked to be the fake fiance of He Qun and in exchange...Xiao Shi requested He Qun to be her fake bf to please her family...so it's a 'fake relationship turned true' drama...
Thoughts: tis show is out of my expectation...i dun like artistes under 5566 company but i muz admit...i like this drama...it's funny yet got very memorable quotes & flow of thoughts...and also got my fav plot...the couple took a long time to be truthful to each other's feelings...the songs are very sweet also...got the 'happy go lucky' feeling...
RATING: 4/5

3) Fei Tian Xi Shi (To Grow with Love---Hong Kong TVB drama) Starring Hu Xin Er, Andy Hui
Type: Romance/ Drama
Mini Summary: Fei Tian (HXE) believes tat her true love is someone who has telepathy with her...despite her big size & living in HK where slim is supreme...she displays confidence & drive tat earned her boss---fashion designer, Dai Xi's (Andy Hui) admiration after some misunderstandings...but Dai Xi despises fat ppl & think tat fat ppl dun deserve to wear nice clothes...Fei Tian tries hard to fight for her true happiness and to change ppl's point of view on size...
Thoughts: hehez...this is the show where the tvb actress has to gain weight and look fat...but she's not really very fat lahz...and she's still pretty with chubby cheeks...this show kinda reflect my life...the problems tat most fat gals face in everyday life...however...i dun really fancy the plot cos the romance part abit weird...hehez...but i muz recommend this show to ppl who dislike fat ppl...hey...who says fat is ugly!!!
Rating: 3/5

Now i'm currently watching 'It Started with a Kiss' (Er Zhuo Ju Zhi Wen) starring Ariel Lin & Zheng Yuan Chang (Super Shuai!!!) & got Da Dong (Super Cute!) hehez...oh ya and my fav show, Hua Yang Shao Nian Shao Nu is out for sale in cd shops...but very exp...5 episodes cost $18.90...total got 15 episodes...haiz...now have to wait lohz....

very long entry hor...hehez...thanx for reading till the end....

rush hour

2006-12-31T00:44:00.000-08:00

yoz...wanna apologise for not blogging for a period of time...cos my life juz went frenzy when i returned from my holiday...wahahaz...as wat ong say...i really have a lot to yak abt...so this will be a pretty long entry...hehez...bear with me cos this is the last entry of year 2006 liaoz! C'mon let's celebrate! hahaz...yeah!

a small tribute to myself for turning 18 few days ago...it's not really a good feeling to spend ur bdae outside S'pore...hahaz...but no choice...so going to compensate for next year!!! yesh! i wan birthday bash!!! it's not childish hor...it's FUN! anyway...18 yrs old is OLD...gosh!

alright...tok abt my trip to china...specifically yunnan-kunming, dali & lijiang...plus thailand-bangkok...i really had a great time in china...visited the famous 'Stone forest'...play with snow...sat the open-aired cable car (the view of mountains is simply fantastic!)...learn abt the chinese tribes & culture...went to the 'Tian Long Ba Bu' filming site & the 'ancient/oriential themed' shopping centre...& many more...hahaz...oh ya...i bought quite alot stuff too...esp drama serials!!!! wahahaz...u noe wat...flowers are sold very cheaply in china...1 bunch of 6 roses is juz $2 with nice wrapping...probably wat i'm picky abt china is food...hahahz...alot alot of veg & oil! as for bangkok...it's juz all abt shop eat shop eat! hehez...no wonder grown fatter liaoz...

maybe it's luck...i managed to get a job in less than 48 hrs when i came back from holiday...thanx to recruitexpress (a job agency) & lili...my consultant...she is very persistent in finding a job for me....and i'm finally hired after previous rejections...actually i started working 3 days ago le...it's at woodlands...working as temp accounts assistant...hehez...my job is simple (more of admin) yet tiring (cos i've to deal with many numbers & alphabets!)...hahaz...cos i always not enough sleep...due to late nights for watching dramas...wahahaz...basically i find office job quite boring but somehow interesting (reasonable pay? attractive OT pay? hehez)....hmmmz...office fashion also give me headache (heels are killing my feet!)...haiz...lucky i only temp for 1 month...after tat...i'm jobless again...wahahahz....

met up with ong, ping & dor on fri night....glad to see them cos it had been months since we all 4 hang out together...we had a nice meal at Hans...talking & giving presents...hahaz...thanx for the bdae presents gals!!! i like them all!!! oh ya...hope ya like the souvenirs i bought too...hehez... rather excited tat u guys are coming to my house next tues...welcome welcome!!! hehez...

hmmmz....05S6G outing...shldnt say it's a failure...it turned out quite fine actually...ok...this time there's 5 ppl...at least not the worst record of 4 ppl during the sentosa trip....thanx to yao fei, wei ming, yu rong & fan yun for coming...in the end we didnt eat steamboat...we ate dinner, watch movie (Night in the museum!! very funny!!!), take pictures & play arcade!!! not bad after all...hehez...hope next time...more ppl can come & have fun together!!! it's a deal!! :P

been super busy these days...my life suddenly like rush hour....suddenly found myself working...suddenly found myself glued to drama serials...suddenly found myself involved in many outings...wahahaz...though it's tiring for the body but i think i spent my day worthwhile...hehez...2007 will soon arrive...will i have good luck all year round? hahahaz...hope so....

hApPy NeW yEaR 2007

on holiday

2006-12-15T23:00:00.000-08:00

woaa....i'm practically rushing this entry...so it's gonna be short & sweet...hehez...pardon me cos in another 8 hrs...i'll be flying off to China...and only be back Xmas day! Yes...long long 10 days away from home sweet home...hahaz...gonna miss my frens, comics, tv...and lots of stuff...hahahz

alright...actually i got loads of things to yak abt...ok...let's talk abt the 2 'job interviews' i've been...first...it's a recommendation by ong & her nice fren jane...it's a job position of a telemarketer...hmmm...actually we went through a job agency to learn abt this job...erm...actually i didnt like the evening hrs slot...the salary is ok but becos we need to meet a quota...it's quite hard to sell products through phone...so better to be safe than sorry...in the end...we didnt even went for the briefing...hahahaz...

2nd interview is also with a job agency called 'RecruitExpress'...this time i went alone...i sent my resume to one of the staff and was called for interview...so i went to their office at Ngee Ann City....hmmz...this is what i expected...a real working environment...the dress code, system are like sooo formal...i was almost frightened off...hahahaz...but as what i also expected...after an informal individual interview...i'm supposed to wait if there's suitable temp job (admin/customer service...) for me...hahahz...everytime i've to fill application form and wait...i think i'm cursed by god of employment....alamak...how come ppl so easy then can get job...i'm still sulky over phonecalls? hahahz...

so...i tell myself to enjoy this holiday...when i'm back...i've the whole time to find a job tat suits me...wahahahz...jia you to myself!

oh ya...i finally went to watch a movie at GV marina lately...it's a big improvement...cos i rarely spend money on movies in cinemas...i normally buy the vcd instead & watch at home...hahahz...i always find movie tickets expensive unless the movie is a must-watch...hmmm....ok...i went to watch 'The Holiday' starring Cameron Diaz & Kate Winslet with my bro...hahaz...i finally won first free pair of preview movie tickets since the change of new hp !!! YEAH! This movie is not bad...romance comedy...interesting romance plot & script...i'll rate 3/5.... oh...i also wan to watch 'curse of the golden flower' (jay chou movie) & death note 2...hope i can win the free tickets!!!

yikes...it's late and i haven complete my packing yet....gtg...see on 26th dec...i'll be back!!!

2 sides of life

2006-12-09T00:43:00.000-08:00

hmmm...9 Dec...such a familiar date...wahahaz...of cos...it's my best bud, ong's 18th bdae!!! so i dedicated my lst para to her...18 yrs old represents the first step stepping into adulthood...becoming a demure lady and attracting guys...hahahaz...cos it's the primetime age for LOVE...hohohoho...blossoming time...ok lahz...besides all the mushy stuff...wish her all da best!

move on to my sucky job hunting...i really wan to give up on finding sales job already...last tues...went wif ong for a walk-in interview for sales associate job in robinsons...first of all...it's not an interview...juz briefing & filling up application form...but there're many ppl who wan to apply for this job and we ended up waiting for hours for the briefing that lasted less than 5 mins...i begin to dislike job interviews tat request ppl to wait for their call...do u noe it's troublesome for ppl to brood over phonecalls...and ppl restrain to find other jobs, thinking tat they may be employed...didnt know finding a good job with good hrs & good pay is hard...

obviously...i did not receive any calls from robinsons cos i knew it...hahaz...i'm had mixed feelings...despair yet relieved...despair cos they chose not to give me a chance to prove my capability & i'm been rejected twice liaoz lehz but i'm relieved cos the hours are long & pay is low...i'm been thinking abt my whole job hunting experience tat probably i'm not cut for sales due to appearance...hahahaz...dun be mistaken...it's not tat i look down on myself...it's juz reality tat one has to face... juz think abt it...u've to dress well to be a sales assistant selling clothes, u've to have nice complexion & good makeup to sell cosmetics, u've to have 'the' face tat supervisors find pleasant....etc...customers need to be convinced....tat's why i dun apply those sales assistant jobs...cos i'm quite hopeless at all these...wahahahahaz

however...never say quit cos i wanna try being a 'backstage crew' instead...in terms of doing admin work, being a telemarketer...need not use my appearance to please customers mahz...hahahaz...so i'm going for another interview to try for telemarketing in the courtesy of ong's recommendation....i dun carry high hopes though...cos i dun think my voice tat great...hehehez...but talking is something tat i like...hehez...aiyahz...i rather take a paparazzi job...hahahaz...urgh...ugly side of life...

luckily i'm still a student...so finding a job is not really priority at this pt of time...my plan is actually to start work during jan...wan to enjoy my dec holidays mahz...but because i'm facing some cash flow problems...hehez...so desperado lohz...ok... let's talk abt the fun side of my life...

last mon is cool day...cos went to celebrate early bdae for ong with hui & shawn...we met during the evening to have a nice dinner...we ended up in a hong kong restaurant...the food was economical & the taste was not bad...we had a lot of fun talking & yaking...the shop tat we can eat ice-cream & play board games ( recommended by hui) is not opened on mon! yikes...so we went to a cafe instead to order a slice of blueberry cheesecake ( ong's fav) for ong & sing bdae song...hahaz...i knew ong was touched lahz...& she looked damn pretty...cos she got her makeup on...wahahahz...sorry...i still believe in natural beauty...hehehz...but glad tat all of us had fun!

oohh...went out wif my bro & mum on wed to extend my bro's passport so can go holiday...then i realised this week's U weekly has KIM JEONG HOON on the cover lehz!!!! but it's all sold out liaoz...cos this week's copy costs only $1...ahhhhh...who has this copy??? can give me pls!!! :P
i managed to buy some clothes from this fashion in town area...hehez...selling cheap cheap...

hahaz...the blast of the week...Kbox outing with my nyjc classmates for the 1st time on fri!!!! frankly speaking...though we had been classmates for 2 yrs...we never really hang out together...so i'm sooo excited...met syl first in parkway...then we shopped & talked till it's time to meet the others at the Kbox outlet...there are 5 of us (me, syl, peiwen, xiangling & huimin!) in the room...singing our hearts out frm 2-7pm...i realised tat their voices are good...and our taste of songs are similar....it's great to sing & even dance with them...tat's y i realised time passed so fast!!! later, we had dinner together at yoshinoya...hahaz...we had fun laughing & chatting! i really dun mind hanging out again together!

i think i can juz blog one more time b4 i'm off to my holiday...now wat i'm looking for hor...is not my trip yet...it's STAR AWARDS 2006!!! yes...it's TML!!! it's a MUST WATCH!!! I'll strangle myself if I miss it lahz...cos i juz love to watch award ceremony!!! all the glitz, glam, thank-u speeches & overseas celebrities/idols (ahhh...Zheng Yuan Chang!!!) i even have a bet with my bro on the winners of each category...may the one with the good foresight win...hahaz....have a nice weekend to all! tat's my happy side of life!

=( unemployed gal )=

2006-12-04T14:09:00.000-08:00

haiz...now i finally get the feeling of being unemployed...wat an unsuccessful start for a person like me who's going to enter workforce soon...now i finally realise...being a student is such a wonderful thing!!! hahahz...

i'm not obliged to find a job of cos...but i'm compelled to find one...to feed my hangout sprees!!! the best is to stay at home so i wont keep spending money...but i dun have drama serials or animation to keep me at home! i luv to go out with my frens...but tat means money involved...so i'm like spending alot without earning any single cent!!! i definitely hate this feeling!!! i'm like seriously seriously broke! hahahahaz...u really need money to have fun...haiz...

i did try to find a job tat's really short term...cos i'm going overseas in mid dec...but indeed no one wld wan to employ a girl who can only commit 2 weeks...no wonder i got rejection from diasco & poh kim video...a good job is really hard to find...so i decided to give up and find a good job when i'm back from my holiday....hope so lohz...hohoho....

talking abt holiday...i'm going kunming/dali/ lijiang (China) & few days in bangkok on 16 dec...so next week will be my last post...then i'll resume when i'm back on 25 dec...christmas day...hehez...i'm excited for this trip cos i very long nvr go overseas liaoz...then can also shop like crazy....dun worry my frens...i'm sure to bring some souvenirs back...cos i always do...hahaz...probably the sad thing is i've to spend my one & only 18th birthday during overseas!!!! haiz...i always want to celebrate in s'pore lahz and also thought of spending with my frens ...but the holiday clashed so no choice!!!! but never mind lahz...21st bdae more important...hahaz... many ppl are going overseas too...so muz have fun!!!!

*Chuangyi Manga Bazzar (if ya like comics...go check it out...visit chuangyi webbie for details!)

went to the bazzar with ong last fri...it's like sooo shocking that there are many many manga fanatics...most ppl leave the place happily with big red plastic bags containing many many comic books...there are old new titles up for grabs...older titles are selling at $1/$1.5o per book...new titles will have 10% discount...i expected myself to buy at least something but in the end...i went empty handed lahz...hahaz...cos i didnt like any of the old titles...then the new titles still out of my budget...hehez...but i'm really surprised to see ppl buying 50 over books...it's like hundred over dollars...i rather borrow 100 comic books with the money...hahaz...tat's wat i call...a manga fanatic...i'm juz small case...hahaz...

then went to shop with ong at vivocity...actually nothing much lahz...cos as we named ourselves...we are budget teenagers...we prefer heartland areas where prices are within our range...hahaz...maybe all will change when we earn our pot of gold...hehez...

the best is to visit the comic shop in hougang...yes!!!! i'm dying to read manga lahz...ahhh but now have to save some money for this hobby....hehez...why i juz cant pick up some gold??? :p

ps: if there's anyone willing to introduce to me any temp job...tell me hor!!! thanx!!!

turn of luck

2006-11-28T16:02:00.000-08:00

luck is an unpredictable thing...either it'll make ur day or break ur day...normally ppl will have their bad/good luck days...but weird enough for me...i met both....

27 nov (ytd)...a day that i'll probably rmb...cos i was super busy...meeting ong, xh & shawn for kboxing & later rushing down to my jc class chalet...i had been looking forward to both activities...firstly....i'm dying to K with my buds...then i wan to spend some fun time with my classmates & i can finally stay overnight in a chalet!!!!....hahaz...so muz made sure everything goes smoothly....

ok...i encountered bad luck early morning liaoz...i was trying not to be late but my shoes betrayed me...can u believe it??? i was wearing a new pair of shoes & i haven even walk up to 5 steps...it broke!!!!!! i was stranded at the mrt station so i called for help...my bro!!! i learnt a lesson....never buy shoes tat are on cheap sale! ok lahz...the shoes cost me 5 bucks....so in the end i was super late...at least got 45 mins...haiz...

luckily...the kboxing and shopping were interesting and my mood became better lahz...hahaz...although i was a bit on a laughing frenzy during singing...the marina square kbox outlet was like...wow...nice sia...but freaking cold...shld have wear long sleeves...burrr...oh yes...the lunch we had was also memorable...we ate at 'Dian Xiao Er'...famous for their duck (super nice!!!) we had a spread lahz (juz like one happy family!)...hahaz...soup & veg...yummy...even took a sip of chinese wine....soooo herbal taste...hahaz

2006 NYJC O5S1A CLASS CHALET (ALOHA CHANGI)

hahaz...i was quite guilty for arriving late...around 9pm...oops...cos i was lost somewhere near the changi prison cos i got no sense of direction...lucky me...i managed to reach the place with the help of zj & huimin!!! thanx!!!

the chalet condition wasnt very good...it's not appealing but rather spacious and there are many rooms...when i reached...they were preparing food...but the rain ruined our bbq so we ended up cooking...hahaz...it's very heartwarming to see everybody sitting & eating together...the response was quite good...more than 10 ppl came!!!

the night was still early...after clearing up...we played sparkles, went night walk at changi beach...hahaz...it's very fun...since many ppl stayed overnight...we occupied ourselves with Twister game...it's soooo energy-draining...so i back out cos cnt tahan lahz...hahaz...we also played cards...heartattack...Big2...finally the Taboo game...hahaz...super funny!!! tat's why we only managed to catch some sleep after 5am...

sure enough...i started my day with bad luck but end it in a good bang! hahaz...i truly enjoyed myself ytd!!!! YEAH!

PS: to zj, thanx for the early bdae present...didnt expect u'll really buy the cd for me...cos it's ex lahz!!! but i like it a lot!!! hahahz!!! cos KJH is juz super shuai! so now have to think of wat to give to u on xmas day! hehez!

to jess: thanx for the letter/card...hehez...really touched by ur words!!! btw...good job in organising the chalet...it's a success!!! yeah!!!!

.freedom.relief.loss.

2006-11-23T21:53:00.000-08:00

.freedom.relief.loss....3 words tat best describe my feelings right now...gaining back my 'long-lost' freedom...be freed from the clutches of tys & notes....being relieved tat A levels are finally officially over for me (performance= average only)...loss in terms facing an uncertain future...thoughts like 'wat am i going to do after A levels? Slack? Work?' there's even a split second tat i'll miss my mugging days....wahahaz

hahaz...but i think i'll be VERY USED to my slacking days soon....wahahaz...can easily pass the day with a few comic books or drama serials...tat's my interest!!! Or even better....hanging out with my friends....eats loads of food and buy lots stuff...or even juz simply window shopping or Kboxing...wow....eat sleep play...heavenly....

probably wat i fret most is getting a job....cnt deny tat i'm still a greenhorn in working...no working experience but i'm a young gal full of drive to look for an exciting job....hohoho....doing free advertisement here...hahaz...my mother has been nagging me to get an admin office job which i probably will try only next yr...hahaz...these holiday i may wanna try all kinds of job...it's gonna be fun i guess....but first...will ppl even hire me???

my list on 'Things to do after the A levels' can finally be used....wahahaz...i realised i had written down many things but probably not going to complete all of them lahz...hahaz...mission impossible...but there's one thing tat it's time for me to concentrate and determine to do....and tat's LOSE WEIGHT....i'm flattered tat my relatives are saying tat i looked skinner than b4 (becos we didnt see each other for months lahz!) which i think i even gained weight actually...but now i got time...no excuse for me to slack....muz control diet and exercise to conquer my fats...oh my gosh...this is even harder than studying!!!!

hmmmm....dunno wat to blog liaoz...but i guess i'll be blogging often! So many things to look forward to....happy day happy life!!!

battlefield

2006-11-09T22:10:00.000-08:00

THE BATTLE FOR 'A' LEVELS 2006

enemy report

commander: 'A' Levels

soldiers: General Paper 1
General Paper 2
Chemistry Paper 1
Chemistry Paper 2
Chemistry Paper 3
Maths Paper 1
Maths Paper 2
Biology Paper 1
Biology Paper 2
Biology Paper 3

personal report

Commander: JC2s/ Teachers

soldier: vanessa

enemies killed: General Paper 1
General Paper 2
Biology Paper 2
Chemistry Paper 3
Maths Paper 1
Maths Paper 2 *new

enemies approaching: Chemistry Paper 2
Chemistry Paper 1
Biology Paper 3
Biology Paper 1

Current condition: half-dead

Confidence level: vary

Skills: average

Plus pts: recall, never give up/strive on attitude, happy-go-lucky

Minus pts: partial black out, get stressed up, careless, forgetful

pending for victory.....

-----------6 down....4 to go....

NB: to all other soldiers out there...hang on & jia you!

graduation day

2006-10-15T13:15:00.000-07:00

last fri was graduation day...hehez...it had been a tearful & emotional day...cos i cried TWICE? can u believe it? at least i dun....

i admit i dun cry easily in front of ppl...esp in sch...i never shed a tear in pri or sec sch as i rmb...i'll always try to keep my tears from falling...cos to me...crying is embarrassing lahz...hahaz...maybe becos i always keep my feelings inside me...i end up crying at home for no reason...maybe to release some emotions...sometimes i'll cry at some touching tv dramas...when ppl dun find it touching lahz...hahaz...i'm a weirdo....

dunnoe why...since i came to nyjc...i've been crying lots...hahaz...maybe as u grew older...cnt control ur emotions lohz...became a more sensitive person i guess...hahaz...i'm also very afraid to cry...becos once i cry...i cnt stop! Really...it's scary! so it's better not to cry than cry...i can cry until my eyes get swollen lahz...so ugly...hohohoz

alright...it may seems normal to cry on graduation day...since this is the day where u really kiss goodbye to ur sch days, leaving ur bunch of friends, officially not a nyjcian, and blah blah...hahaz...i cried lst when syl gave me my early bdae present....it's Goong soundtrack VCD!!! i'm sooooo touched tat i cried! hahaz...maybe becos she knows wat i like....wahahaz...probably it's obvious....hahaz...juz too shocking...didnt expect it coming...hahaz...

as i think it's a culture to do some gifts on graduation...i made scroll of letters to all my classmates...haiz...now i noe it's really tough to write for 20 plus ppl...i spent the whole night thinking & writing....hahaz...i'm glad they like it and and hope our friendship will last!

the graduation ceremony is typical...speeches...presentation of CCA awards and jc2's gifts to the sch ( tat's the funny part!!) all classes are supposed to present gifts to nyjc as a form of memorial thingy...so our class presented cash to plant a mango tree! wahahaz...our sch is gonna become a plantation...got many classes gave palm trees (nyjc's trademark)...then got saga tree, rambutan tree...hehez...some classes even gave swings and see-saws! i really wonder wat nyjc will look like in future? hahahaz!

the 2nd time i cried...shld say i laughed until i cry was when watching the videos of the teachers to the students...some of the videos are very funny...now i noe our teachers can be funny & creative at times! our principal was even more clever...he was filmed at the provision shop... pointing to a bag of good grade rice 'AAA' brand...get it? hehez...smart lahz!

yeah!!! we graduated again...cos it's juz a short couple of yrs since the last graduation...hmmm...this'll be the last entry for now...cos i'll have to pia for now...be back after battle! hehehz....

PS: JIA YOU TO ALL...got abt one month till the END of exams...so work hard, play hard too (cos cnt over-exert urself mahz!) May be the knowledge be with U !

special: post- ping bdae- celebration

2006-10-08T14:06:00.000-07:00

announcing....i slacked half the day ytd!!! hahaz...at least i got an excuse...it's ping's post bdae celebration...thanx to her...finally can relax a bit in an outing...i was really happy ytd...cos all four of us can get together...eat, crap, and gossip!!! probably...tat's wat most gals do....hehez

firstly...we shocked ping wif a mini mango cake...(wow! luckily it's her fav flavour cake!!!)...btw...the cake's name is very unique..."Mango Tropicana"....hahaz...suitable for ping lahz...i can see she's touched though our surprise a bit funny (cos me & ong used the same trick everytime...hahahz...)

dor came along and all of us marched to PIZZA HUT (my FAV!!!) for lunch...it's always an enjoyable experience to eat in a classy restaurant with my frens....feel like as if we are tai-tais....wahahaz...we ordered the family set...hahaz...remind me tat we are a family ( me- husband, ping-wife, dor-mistress, ong-maid!!!) we chatted while we eat...i rmb our topic is abt the horror of reaching to the twenties soon...(since ping is only one who's turned 18)....i was indeed horrified lahz...cos i dun wan to touch the numerical 2....only ping is calm to accept reality...kudos...hahaz...

we shopped around tm & century square...wanting to buy something tat we can have in common...to represent our friendship...so after a long decision...we bought coloured rings...very nice....i'll rmb to wear at every outing...hohohoz...of cos...the highlight shld be taking neoprints (almost our routine for every outing)...we also bought some stuff for ourselves...i bought cheap comic books (Du Yi bookstore rocks lahz!)...i realised my eyes always shine at cheap sale stuff...esp vcds & books...beginning to feel very auntie liaoz...wahahah...

a few other surprises we had ytd...stumbled upon the recording of Channel U's Shoot 2 at century square....and met shawn there as well....the world is really small...

basically...i had fun ytd...but the haze was rather terrible...so folks....better drink more water and stay indoors...stay healthy and eat more supplements...wohohoho....

PS: hey ping, dor & ong...i uploaded 2 neoprints already in my friendster account....feel free to copy it...hehez...

btw...i personally like a neoprint we took ytd...the pic tat has 4 diff. personalities...ppl noe i like to write stories & scripts...hahaz...actually i had thought of participating in the Phua Chu Kang Scriptwriting competition (ping suggest i shld join...hahaz)...but hor...i dun have any inspiration & time also...though the prize money seems alluring but hahaz...i wld give a miss...however, back to the neoprint...it gave me inspiration to write a new story...wahahaz

i wrote 'X-rated gals' series 1 & 2 for my frens b4 but i think i lost series 1 & my series 2 is incomplete... (X- rated gals is adapted a bit frm Charlie's Angels...character reference frm my frens...) prob after exams...i'll upload my masterpiece on my another new blog (mainly on my creations)...hahaz...

anyway...the new story will be something like....

a bride-to-be gal who's on her way to registry of marriage to get engaged...stumbled upon a magical well & met 3 different gals frm different generations...a geisha frm ancient japan wif a mysterious past, a roman princess running away from an arranged marriage and a superwoman cop from the future who gets entangled in forbidden love....4 of them befriend each other...a beginning of joy, sorrow, love & friendship....

hahaz...this is the pic of my inspiration!!!
is the storyline nice? pls give comments & ideas! hehez...

underdog

2006-10-01T15:38:00.000-07:00

looking at singapore idol poster in my room...i pasted "underdog" on hady's pic a few months back...thinking he'd the potential to win...and he did...although i was rooting for jonathan...no regrets tat hady won since he can sing...but i was horrified by the difference of votes between jon & hady...jon only garnered 30% votes...& my 5 votes were included...juz wan to clarify tat i support jon not becos of his looks...but he can sing too...but vocally lost out to hady...& hady can also be on par with jon in terms of looks since he looks charming in his way...so as the cliche says...both are winners....

talk a bit abt the s'pore idol performance show tat i went live in s'pore indoor stadium...is better than i expected...the sound system is simply great though the visual part is horrible (my seats are far far away lohz...) but i dun care since it's free tickets anyway...the atmosphere is very high...u can really feel the hype & how things are operated...totally diff frm watching television...hahaz...and i also went to grab goodie bags (we are not supposed to have those...i think which is unfair lahz...) becos i juz resist free stuff...wahahaz...so next time i dun going to a concert afterall...but of cos...with better seats!

back to serious note...i got back all my prelim results...there's sure to be shockers & demoralisers...generally i think i did badly...at least not up to my expectations...i saw it coming but juz tat i dun wan to accept the reality somehow...as wat i told ong...at this pt in time...passing a sub is not the key anymore...it's abt getting a respectable grade...u see...having a pass does not satisfy me anymore (at least it does in the past...hehez) i'm beginning to hunger for more...becos i'm scared tat i'll disappoint ppl around me...i'm carrying a burden tat's permanent...(feels like as if i'm an inexperienced crown prince waiting to ascend the throne...) wahahaz...better dun let my nerves get me...

one says tat we shld reflect on our prelims...finding our strengths & weaknesses...i guess i've more weaknesses...hahaz...i realised tat i get freaked out & partially black out easily...probably becos i was afraid to under perform...so i'm trying to find back the carefree and happy-go-lucky self...cos under those circumstances...maybe i really perform at ease...and naturally...stuff will come to ur head...i was murdered by my carelessness during this exams...for subs supposedly to be my a bit stronger ones...so things are really unpredictable & unexpected....

being a capricorn...we are known to be ambitious & competitive...but surely enough...i dun find these features in me...but totally opposite...but slowly...i realise these features are in me in a diff. way...frankly speaking...i aspire to be an underdog...where ppl focus on the hot faves...letting their guard down on underdogs' potential to shine...i really envy ppl who can improve tremendously in their grades in short period of times...shocking every individual...showing ppl tat despise them b4 tat they can succeed too...hahaz...hot faves are also in hard positions to maintain well...i'm not a consistent player but i need a breakthrough to show wat i'm made of at least...but it's gonna be really really tough!

believe ourselves tat we are underdogs or dark horses( we've not failed yet!)...there may be hot faves everywhere...but who noes...with our own capabilites & strive...we can also be recognised & respected for who we are...i dun wanna be the best...but to be somebody who's proud of my ownself....

ahhhh----but it's going to be a tough battle to fight...haiz....(cos i'm more of 'words' than 'action' person...hahaz...)

btw...hAppy ChILdReN'S DAy....although i'm not a child for dunno how many yrs already...but least i'm very young at heart...hahaz...

my special edition--'life-music quiz'

2006-09-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

got tagged by hui to do this quizzie...quite interesting i think.... so decided to give it a try...hohoho...so i'm taking my bro's music player....ssshhh...

Instructions
1. Put ur music player on shuffle
2. Press forward for each question (got 20 qns!!)
3. Use the song tittle as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.
4. Tag 6 ppl to play this game too. : )

Here goes....

1 How are u feeling today?
Wu Niang- Jolin Tsai
Comments: ok...dun really get the lyrics lahz...maybe i juz feel like being a dancing diva...wahahaz...

2 Will u get far in life?
Shuo Yi - Ah Sang (a song frm drama Chinese Paladin)
Comments: nice song... it's abt triangle love relationship...abt a gal who likes one guy but he's attached...so she is giving her love to him quietly...wahahaz...maybe i'll get far in life if i find the courage to confess and get on with my life!

3 How do ur friends see u?
Mu Nai Yi - JJ Lin
Comments: alamak...dunno how to explain this....so ppl see as a mummy...wahaha...stiff yet mysterious? But after hearing the lyrics...i got another interpretation...my frens wld want to preserve me cos they dun wanna lose me (it's a pity...haha!)...like me for who i am...(hahaz...am i being too thick-skin?)

4 Will u get married?
Let me love you- Mario Winnans
Comments: Good to see the word 'love' there...but this song is abt a guy singing how he's gonna treat the gal if she's his gf....wahahaz...if my boyfriend is tat good...then i'll marry him lahz!!!
Excerpt (lyrics): "give you everything u wan & need, good love & protection....show u the way love suppose to mean..."

5 What's ur best friend's theme song?
Pulchritude (Wan Mei) -Jolin Tsai
Comments: hmmm...this is a commercial song for LUX...it's abt gals 'playing with beauty'...u noe...to gain confidence and love and to make guys fall in love in us like crazy....hahahz...maybe this song suits ong, dor & ping (cos they noe how to dress up mahz...).... :P

6 What's the story of ur life?
Qian Li Zhi Wai - Jay Chou & Fei Yu Qing
Comments: LUV this song man...esp the chorus! cos both singers' voices juz blend well...and the song is soothing...i'm not very sure wat the whole song is abt...i think is abt long-distance love relationship...i dun wan this kind of life lehz...i wan to be in close-distance relationship wif my bf...but if my bf is soooo shuai & trustworthy...loyal to me like hell...maybe i dun mind...hahahz!

7 What was high school like?
Perhaps Love (Goong ost)- Howl & J
Comments: this song rox!!!! so i may keep saying tat i dun like my sch life...but perhaps i do love my sch life afterall? is juz tat i dun notice tat obviously? hahaz... haiz...hope my sch life is like Goong lahz...so my beau is a prince...wahahaz....yep...day-dreaming again!

8 How can u get ahead in life?
One Fifth- One Fifth
Comments: dunno if u have heard this song b4...it's by a local-taiwan(mixed) gal group long time ago called One fifth...Jamie Teo is one of the members....the song is abt gal power...dare to dream & fly to ur goals &...ultimately to build ur own 'empire'...something like tat...so i can be like tat in my life....good...

9 What is the best thing abt ur friends?
Bu Xiang Zhang Da- SHE
Comments: this is soooo funny...but maybe true?...i think my friends wldnt want to grow up so soon lohz (or else no more student value meals & transport fees!!!)...at least i wld want to stay 17 forever lohz! hahaz...we are still childish at times lahz... :P

10 What's in store for this weekend?
Super Model- SHE
Comments: am i going to be a super model? wahaha...probably gonna shop lots of clothes, bags, shoes...i need extreme makeover lahz!

11 What song describes u?
When You Put Your hands on me- Christina Aguilera
Comments: this song is in christina's 1st album...it is actually a sexy song lohz...wahahaz...the chorus goes..."when u put ur hands on me...i feel so sexy...my body turns to gold...when u put ur hands on me...i feel ready...& i'll lose my self-control...." ok it sounds a bit RA lahz...but i'm probably sexy in the inside...hehez...

12 To describe ur grandparents?
Fight For Your Justice- Vandread Opening Theme song (Anime)
Comments: it's an anime song from vandread...so maybe my grandparents value justice...hahaz... (i'm a 3 justice/4 justice student too...wahaha!)

13 What song will they play at your funeral?
A Thousand Miles- Vanessa Carlton
Comments: probably i walked a thousand miles or even more than tat before i breathe my last lohz...but no matter how long the distance is...i'll surely miss the ppl dearest to me...hohohoz...

14 How does the world see u?
Scandal (Korean)- Kangta & Vanness
Comments: HAHAZ...almost fell frm my seat when i saw this song... i am sooo scandalous!!! next time all my scandals will spread all newspapers & tv....cnt go entertainment industry liaoz lohz!

15 Will u have a happy life?
Zhong Yu Ming Bai- Power Station(Dong Li Huo Che)- (Chinese Paladin Ending Song)
Comments: it's a sad love song...abt understanding eventually tat u've to let go ur loved one...losing hope on love & live on with memories...wah...i dun think it's a happy at all lohz...but i think life still goes on...so let keep those precious feelings...and try to be happy?

16What do ur friends really think of u?
Mr. Q- Jolin Tsai
Comments: I like this song...funky upbeat...so my frens see me as Mr. Q? wahahaz...weird lahz... maybe i'm as cool/sexy/faithful as Mr. Q...wahaha....but i hope to inherit Mr. Q's ability to attract...electrify ppl....hehez

17 Do ppl secretly lust after u?
She is- My Lovely Samsoon Ending Song
Comments: totally crazy over this song...although i dun really noe the lyrics lahz...but probably there's a guy as shuai as hyun bin who lust for me???? hahahahaz...the 'She' hor...is refering to me right? hehehz...as the lyrics say "she is the girl...oh....she is the one!" yeah me! :P

18 How can I make myself happy?
Kiss Goodbye- Wang Lee Hom
Comments: this is a very nice song...but how i am supposed to be happy if i've to kiss goodbye lehz??? (btw...izzit forever goodbye arh?) oh but maybe...i'm kissing goodbye to all the bad things tat happened to me? hehez....

19 What shld u do with ur life?
Kuai Le Chong Bai- Wilber Pan & Angela Zhang
Comments: actually i nvr really listen to this song...but i like this answer...cos it's true tat in my future life...being happy is an impt thing...so muz worship!!!

20 Will u ever have children?
Bad Day- Daniel Powter
Comments: omg...izzit a bad omen?...hahahz...maybe i juz won't have children at times tat i want...but during unexpected times????

So ppl in this list...do this interesting quiz if got time lahz...hehez
1) Doris
2) ZJ
3) jess
4) syl
5) anybody
6) anybody

popular.loner.attention-seeker.follower

2006-09-22T01:30:00.000-07:00

running out of topics to yak abt...wahaha...so i have to come up wif one...i manage to classify ppl to 4 groups...so have u ever wondered if u are popular? a loner? an attention-seeker? or a follower? or a mixture of everyone?

Features of a popular person: always have many friends surrounding him/her...never ever need to fret over boredom or finding ppl to crap or talk to...a very likeable person...natural attraction...everybody treats him/her very well...shower him/her with care and concern...ppl going after him/her for advice and even worship.....(tat's scary...)

Features of a loner: mostly seen alone...dun really like to smile alot....talk to himself/herself...often in deep thoughts...have a 'leave me alone' face...too quiet...dun like big groups or dislike to mix around...want some peace....have weird interests....

Features of an attention-seeker: doing ridiculous stuff...loves to give ppl surprises...very thick-skinned....trying to be popular...can be detestable or funny...have positive attitude...going crazy sometimes...theatrical...

Features of a follower: the quiet person in a group...juz love to listen and keeps his/her mouth shut...can be invisible sometime....juz enjoy company...almost becomes a loner...hates to make decisions...no views...

Note: the above descriptions are based on my own observation and thoughts...so may not be true lahz...and dun take it too hard...

For me....definitely i'm a mixture...but i belong more to the loner and follower grps...i dunno...cos i dun think i got many friends...i dun think i'm comfortable with everyone i noe....i always need my 'warm up' time...u noe...like getting to noe someone better before showing my true self...ok...it may sound fake but ppl....sometimes first impressions doesnt count...u nvr noe if they are themselves when we first met...

let me tell u a secret of mine...do u noe how i make friends? first i wld try to get them to like me...in terms of being comfortable in my presence...so i'll do all the compromising stuff...because only tis way...i can understand them better...i wld noe wat to do, wat not to do...blahz...and slowly...it's my turn to show a bit of myself....to actually see the extent tat my fren can accept...i dunno if i'm doing the right way...but i rather hurt myself then hurting others...the feeling is sooo bad...hahaz....so i seldom hate ppl but i really do...then tat person is really argh...hahahaz...

back to my normal life...finally i'm feeling the luck...cos i won tickets to the Singapore Idol Grand Finals Performance Show (been a long time since i won something!)...TODAY newspaper posed a question and best 20 entries can win tickets so i'm one of the lucky winner!!! i'm quite happy because never been to a concert before...hahaz...furthermore...it's free...hahaz...btw...i support Jonathan...because he's a special guy...Hady's vocal is verrryy goood...but i always see Taufik's shadow in him...dunno why....

guess wat...i got back some of my prelim papers back(sooo fast!)....i shld say it's average for now...u see...i can predict my future...wahahaz...i knew i wont do well...due to my crazy health conditions (or izzit an excuse? :P)...and maybe my tv's fault? hahaz...so i decided to watch less tv...since my mum always say the tv is the obstacle to good grades (for my case)....u think i really master the skill of studying and watching tv at the same time? HAH...65% on tv, 35% on books LOHZ.... so i'll be experimenting to test the hypothesis... aaahhhh....but i'm already 'married' to my TV!!!!!

van dreaming

2006-09-14T21:16:00.000-07:00

been reading some blogs...seems tat the latest trend is to enter an entry on our future plans/ wishes or even dreams...it's interesting in the case tat i'm a 'present' person...i dun dwell on the past but yet i dun think of the future either...so i'll be scratching my head and blogging for this entry at the same time...really dunno wat i'll become in the next 10 yrs?

i'll call mine dreams...cos i dunno if wat i'm gonna list down are stuff will really happen...u noe...life can be unpredictable...but these are some of the dreams i have...:P

van's dreams (mostly unrealistic lahz...at least i dare to dream!)
1) to have a angel face and devilish body...(wahaha!)
2) to direct my own idol drama...writing my own script!!! (it'll be soooo great if it happens!)
3) to be a leading actress in a famous drama....and get an award!
4) to be a successful entrepreneur...known as one of the successful businesswomen!!!
5) to be a singing and dancing sensation...having my own album & going on a world tour!
6) to be entangled in a love triangle relationship...(i noe it's stupid & crazy dream but it sounds exciting mahz! esp if there's 2 guys chasing after me! wahaha!)
7) to be a fashion designer, creating my own line of clothes.....vaNESsa
8) create my own entertainment magazine....
9) win big lottery!!!
10) to have a bf as shuai as hyun bin!!!!!

it's sooo embarassing to list down my 'dreams'.....hahaz...but ya...tat's me... maybe i will have another entry on a more realistic wishlist or do-list next time...

hmmm...now i'm going to give another list of 7 things tat i wanna my bf to do if i have one....inspired by My Lovely Samsoon korean drama....it's like so funny...wahahhaz....

7 things that i'll probably want my bf to do.... (hahahaz...negotiable!)
1) Hold hands in the public (but i got sweaty palms...hahahz)
2) Have a nice lunch/dinner in a fancy restaurant and chat all the way
3) Amuse me at every date (i wan to be wif a funny person mahz!)
4) Walk me home when it's late (hey...my house there gets very scary at night!)
5) Proudly introduce me to his friends and family (tat's a muz!)
6) Take loads of neoprints (so can keep mahz!)
7) Carry me for 5 minutes (test fitness level....hahaz....it's not gonna be easy!)

ok...shld stop day dreaming liaoz...back to reality....wanna talk abit on prelims....i really dunno how to rate my performance...i dun think i give my best cos i've been moody and restless these few days...but i hope to see some improvement (there shld be lahz...) or i'll be screwed somehow....in general... the papers are hard yet managable...hard in terms of the time factor...i dunno let out how many qns already...so i'm trying to increase my pace and thinking...so i still have bio & maths left...so muz jia you liaoz...u guys also jia you!

the tooth

2006-09-07T23:23:00.000-07:00

thanx to the tooth, thanx to the dirt, thanx to the gum....whoala...gum infection...ARGH!

had a super lousy week (there goes my studying mood...seriously affected...)...y am i so suay to have gum infection? and it's my wisdom tooth's doing....u noe how terrible and painful to only swallow soft food and experience excruciating pain juz to bite some solid food or juz to talk...worst still...i hv to resist yummy food...boo hoo....

wat exactly happened to me? alright...thanx to my wisdom tooth (better give me wisdom & intelligence arh!)...food gets stuck easily and if not cleaned properly...the gums will get infected...so it's partly my fault tat i failed to brush tat area properly...so i got a VERY swollen gum at the back of my teeth...luckily there's no need for an extraction...or else i'll be sooo dead...the trip to the dentist was so impt yet scary...cos i detest dentists...dun blame me for tat cos i'm like tat since young...tell me...which kid will not get frightened to see a 'doctor' taking knifes and 'metal pointed thingy' 'playing & poking ur teeth'? furthermore...it had been a million light years since i visited a dentist...nvr been there since sec 4...soooo i juz dread dentists...

luckily for me...i'm in a recovering state...now i can finally eat 'properly' (hey i've been eating porridge and soup stuff only lohz...no rice lehz...i miss my carbos!)...hahaz...juz ate pig trotters ytd with RICE...oh my gosh...heaven!!!! so this whole lesson taught me to brush my teeth properly and frequently...so got myself a new brush...and i brush real hard...hahaz...now i'm still on medication...antibiotics...and medicinal rinse to cleanse my teeth...hahaz...the previous dentist trip was okay...he helped me clean my wisdom tooth...can u believe it? cleaning the teeth is always an enjoyable process...cos it gives a refreshing feeling...but it hurts like hell for me...thanx to the infected area...hahaz...never wan to see a dentist again...at least for a year...hehez....

i think the only optimistic thing is tat this is a good chance to lose weight...imagine eating only soup stuff and porridge...u sure lose weight...and i think i did...i lost my appetite due to the pain...and sometimes i even get hungry yet i wldnt dare to eat anything....hahaz...but i managed to gain those kilos back still...cos now i can bite & chew happily...yeah! i sooo craving for fastfood right now...long john silvers spicy chicken and pizza hut triple chicken cheesy bites pizza...ahhhhh...i'm going nuts....

okay...i shld be worrying for my prelims...and i think i'm super dead...cos i wasted a lot of time whining on my plight & slacking...the pain and headache juz switch off my studying mode...so i hv to make up as much as possible...jus hope that luck will be by my side tis once....i really need the luck tat i can get...better wish me luck!!!!! i juz need big memory space for my brain...ya...go a buy a memory card....(haha...so cold...:P)

oh yesh...got to meet up with dor, ping & ong (we are the famous quartet...nmr...hahaz...) b4 my impending swollen gum...great to see dor and ping still pretty and cheery as ever...we indulged ourselves in delifrance, giggled in mos burger(wif fries & ice milk tea!) and shopped around pp...trying to buy something tat we can have in common...it's really tough...hahaz...but i really enjoyed their company becos we are really close like sisters...esp the gossip segment...hahaz...hope we can hang around more often...hurray to sisterhood!

weird habits

2006-08-31T04:44:00.000-07:00

i bet everyone has weird habits...it's the matter of how weird your habits are...weird enough to shock other ppl...wahahaz...i myself sure have many weird habits that make ppl shudder or salute me...i'm not getting cocky lahz...becos weird habits do not mean good habits...it's experimenting...u noe...i'm juz a normal teen to find my own ways of living in my own style... :P

*DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS OF VANESSA ARE GOING TO BE REVEALED IN THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPHS....gonna break the rule and tell ya my weird habits (so can understand me better mahz! i'm also throwing away my image! ahhhh!)...hehe...read at ur own risk ( ok lahz...it's not tat scary!)

i TALK TO MYSELF and to my televsion....weird enough? some ppl cnt accept this weird habit of mine...thinking tat i'm crazy in the head...but i do find it perfectly normal( at least for me)...it seems tat i have a conscious self and sub-conscious self...tat's why i talk to myself...sometimes i look at the mirror and talk or talk to the air but i'm listening at the same time....it's like my sub-conscious talking to my conscious and vice versa and it can even be enjoyable and beneficial...(never bluff u!) i also realise that i normally talk to myself due to either sorting out my thoughts and views or juz simply lonely...wanting a listening ear...i'll feel much better after talking to myself sometimes...because only we understand ourselves best....hahaz...

i talk to the television probably i'm too engrossed in the story plots of dramas...i wld get agitated and hurl vulgarities at certain characters, sympathise the victims, drowned in the romance and etc....it's not weird in the sense tat u'll feel like u are part of the story....u'll be able to appreciate the drama better...

i SING EVERYWHERE....alright...maybe it's normal...cos ppl who like to sing will sing all the time...but the venues where i sing are the highlights for laughter....hahahaz....my 'fav' singing spots are not kbox or even on stage....but in my bathroom, on my way home, cars, buses and bus stops...u noe...sometimes...my mouth juz went out of control...and i'll mumble during bus trips...then i can see ppl staring at me...thinking 'why is tat girl's mouth moving?'...i tried to spot ppl who do the same thing as me in the buses...but to no avail...ppl who listen to their mp3 dun even sing along...but i am singing without the music....luckily...my volume is juz loud enough for myself to hear...

there are surely ppl who sing in their bathrooms...and i'm definitely one of them...i always dream to be a singing sensation in my own world of cos...so i treat my bathroom as my stage...singing loudly and confidently...hahaz...beaming when i managed to hit the high notes...but i was often teased by my parents and brother...cos i juz sang too loudly...they think i'm dying to be a pop idol which is not reallly true...there was once tat even my neighbour's maid heard me singing...and went to ask my mother abt it...soooo embarrassing lahz...

i PEEL MY NAILS sometimes.....let me remind u tat i dun bite my nails but peel it...it's much cleaner in the sense...my frens noe that i dun keep long nails...cos i always got the urge to remove the 'white part' of the nails...alright i'm weird and so not feminine...but long nails are really hard to maintain (even my hair is short too...ya i'm lazy!) ...and i cnt resist nail cutters....i'll always grab it to cut my finger and toe nails...let me warn u...my nails are really super short...hahahaz....

it shld be enough for the day...bombarding u all with my weird habits...i sure have more...but keep u all in suspense first...( or u cnt take it anymore already? hehe)

Teachers' Day celebration in ny is not as bad as i thought actually...there were sure some boring moments...but i was impressed by the teachers' performances...i like the teachers' band, dress up competition, duet and drummings...the 'picnic' in the canteen with my class was also good...cos got food! Glad tat my classmates like the jelly i made...hahaz...it's juz a pity tat i didnt went back to cchms & yps...not free and no time...sob...

had official last tutorial sessions yesterday...feel kinda sad and lost as jc life is soon coming to an end....it's like 2 yrs passed so quickly that u dun even have the time to stop and recall those fine memories...i sure miss those fun lessons i had with my tutors and fellow classmates...probably i wont miss the tests and exams part...hehez...haiz...now it's the start of the holiday...indication to bury our heads in revision and adjust to studying mode...yikes...tat's even more scary! :P

the .f.a.t. issue

2006-08-25T02:21:00.000-07:00

exams and tests are really the culprits of my weight gain...i tend to eat a lot when i'm tired or stressed up or for some other reason...worse still...this period of time is dangerous in the sense tat u juz eat sleep study....my appetite has grown bigger and due to lack of exercise...no wonder i have bulging tummy, hidden fats...it took me months to lose some weight...now i've gained tat back...wat's mine is really mine...haiz...

ironically...i have been living in a fat shell for almost 18 yrs...so being fat is not a new thing anymore...and i dun really care also...i'm even proud of myself being in the trim and fit programme for consecutive years since pri sch till now...however...come to think abt it...it's not easy being a fat gal...it's really a lifetime experience tat not all gals can undergo (or maybe they dun even want to...)... in a fat gal's perspective...we can understand more abt human nature...the pretty and the ugly....

as i grown older...i do detest the way i look sometimes...maybe cos we are more aware abt good appearance...hoping to fit in with the swans and be recognised, appreciated and different in a pleasant way...if not...we have to largely depend on our star quality personalities...so most fat gals like me can actually be quite sociable...hehez...we often get targeted for harmless jokes or sarcasm...it does hurts in the beginning (cos we are a sensitive bunch)...but we get so used to it tat we dun even bother...this is when we actually be respected by others...wahaha

the love thing is tough for fat gals...ppl who are obessed with fat are surely limited...furthermore...guys are going for bony curvy gals now...so i often wish i was born in the dynasty where chubby gals like yang gui fei can reign as one of the beautys...but it is stupid thought as being a confident individual...i do like myself the way i am...juz tat i have mix feelings abt myself...i am soooo weird!

anyway...at this pt of time...i rather forsake beauty for brains...hahaz...but in future...i will try to do something different to myself...since i've been a fat gal for so many yrs...time to change into another comfortable shell...maybe i being paranoid...let my mouth and stomach do what she wans...let my fats stay with me first...i'll deal with them soon too... :)

korean drama 'my lovely samsoon' is AWESOME...i like the main characters and the plot....u see...it's a fat and talented woman trying to find love (she's sooo cool & funny!)....and the guy is like sooo handsome...hahaz...it is indeed a romance comedy...cnt help laughing throughout the show...definitely thumbs up for this series...so u haven watch it...better do so! samsoon really did the fat gals proud...yeah!

yesh! finally there's a class chalet in late nov....been a million light years since i've been to a chalet...i'll definitely go as there sure to be loads of food and fun...another highlight in my list of stuff i wan to do after 'A' levels...am i planning to early arh? hahaz...

hmmm...had another busy and tiring week...but next week will be better cos got holiday...but again...i've GP PRELIMS...yikes...wish me luck man! i really need the luck tat i can get...BEST OF LUCK to all ppl taking prelims too...doom days are juz drawing near for me...have to activate my fat gal fortune...hehez... :)

exhausted!

2006-08-18T02:15:00.000-07:00

TIRED is the best word to depict my feelings for this week...i noe it's a perfectly normal sign for a jc2 student like me to have...or else something muz be terribly wrong...i guess everyone has started mugging for the prelims and A levels...seriously...i'm always stunned when ppl ask me "how's ur revision going?"...cos i dunno how to ans them...i actually haven begin due to the workload of papers & questions to do for lectures and tutorials...so to console myself...this is also a kind of revision...a practical one...i think i've to squeeze myself dry to find time...ahhhh:P

i was on a "not so good" luck steak this week...probably i had tests, insufficient sleep, good appetite (not good for the body mah...), hideous pimples, moodiness and lots more stuff tat drove me crazy....izzit becos of the stress of examinations? probably so...but frankly speaking...i dun like to be stressed up...i wish i could treat exams seriously yet in a stress-free manner...but i guess it's quite difficult lahz...my sch's exam slogan says "Press on! NYJCians!"...ya...have to press on till the end of A levels...but for my case...i'm hanging and struggling on lahz...haiz...

i guess every sch will have a banner on the NO. of days to prelims and A levels...sooo horrifying to see the numbers getting lesser and lesser...my sch principal will keep reminding us...telling us tat we shld be juz only eating, sleeping and studying now...my mind immediately protested...i'll definitely be drowned in a sea of stress if i dun have a bit of entertainment...can somebody juz eat sleep study for 3 months??? i salute arh!

matilda is out for Singapore's idol! Not shocked but disappointed...as wat my bro says...this is the good-looking competition...not singing competition...where popularity is undenying the key to victory...i like matilda cos her vocals are very strong but i knew she doesnt have a huge fan base as the young ones in the competition...wat's more worrying is tat the bottom three were the supposedly "best three" in terms of performance and vocals...imagine either joakim, nurul or jasmine got the highest votes? oh my gosh...who'll be out next week?

manage to catch the first episode ''my lovely samsoon'' on channel u...i begin to rekindle my liking for korean dramas...it's hard to comment juz watching the firse episode...but i think shld be a not bad drama...the onli thing i find it weird is tat the cast is actually acting out the romance story of middle-aged (27/30) yrs old characters which is something i seldom come across...i always prefer those teeny dramas...but hope this drama can change my mind...hehez...

i actually didnt have much to blog abt cos my mind always blank out for no reason...hahahz...maybe i'll blog more next week...hope something good will happen will happen next week....although i'm skeptical abt it... :P

PRESS ON VANESSA! YEAH! STUDY AND SLACK HARD! tat's the spirit! (muz strike a balance mahz...)

///pre...post...national day...///

2006-08-11T04:44:00.000-07:00

my throat is killing me...my teeth is killing me...(i think got toothache) had been singing and eating for the past few days...soon blowing up into a big fat pig...had a sorta fun filled national day holiday...not on the actual day though...wahaha

8/8: went to sch for a ‘different’ national day celebration...besides the usual sing along sessions and parade...the whole sch went on a charity ‘raise’...which means doing flag day...the response was okay since most working ppl were too worried to be late than to bother us...our flag day cum national day stickers were very nice...very big...tat’s y there r ppl donating...it is a meaningful event cos our class ppl could get together...although only abt half the class were present...wat the...:P

9/8: Singapore’s birthday...all the glam & glitter (thanx to the fireworks...) guess wat i was doing when the ndp started...i was doing sickening ionic equilibria...sad sia...i wanna go see parade live lah but no ticket...(every year also like tat!)

10/8: went kbox to sing my heart out wif ong & hui...my throat wasn’t feeling tat good tat time...so i was off tune for most of the songs (cnt bear to hear...)and the price went up again but at least the food was better...with dessert lehz...wat’s the best part then? the company i had lahz... :)

i realized my mum is on a spending spree recently...esp on entertainment for the family...shld be a good thing cos got benefit me...hehez...she bought a karaoke system with 10000 songs! can u believe it? so tat i no need to visit kbox liaoz...but the song choices were quite old although u can find still songs by jay, fish, she...tat’s y my throat hurts lahz...and she also bought a new computer...somemore is Pentium D...YEAH...fast speed man...

updating a bit on ‘Goong’...the recent Korean drama tat i’m obessed wif...hahaz....i really like the second lead actor...Kim Jeong Hoon...i always have the habit liking second lead actors in my dramas...hahaz...cos they are mostly neglected and pitiful mahz...anyway...this drama is not bad...will rate 3.5/5...heard tat there’ll be a season 2...hahaz...cnt wait to see it...

wanna say a bit on the grooming workshop i attended...i did learn quite a few tips to become more presentable i guess...making me interested to get some working clothes...wahaha...oh yes...and i wore working clothes to sch...but my dressing was too formal cos i looked like CEO lohz...hahaha

end of holidays....

)(experience)(

2006-08-03T21:58:00.000-07:00

i have big panda eyes...thanx to the days of insufficient sleep...maybe it's pre national day or my own laziness...the workload is piling up...i'm so behind the schedule...so as usual...the weekend is the best time for me to catch up...some work...some sleep...

let me see...i've been super busy this week...maybe because of one unacceptable reason for a JC2 student like me...supposedly using precious time to buck up on the studies...but yet...i was totally glued to my korean serial drama...yes...tat's my sin...i shld say now is not a right time to start any series...i jolly well noe tat i'll lose concentration and be addicted...but i'm vulnerable...ok...

u may be wondering wat i was watching...*drumroll* it's actually "Goong"...yes...i actually bought the whole serial...to pamper myself i guess...becos i very long time never buy any series already...then the packaging also look very nice,...so i bought it...and hor...i read the manga of this serial b4 (some vols onli...) dun ask me if izzit nice...i juz can say tat it's similar to the manga...but the sequence of events is different...the cast is good...esp the female lead and the second male lead( the golden haired...very shuai!!) the scenes were great...excellent mixture of the olden and modern times... there were funny & dull moments...but overall...it's ok...i haven finish watching actually...but this is how i feel now...wahaha...juz a bit disappointed in the chinese dubbed part...

u noe...it's the seven month of the lunar calendar...so i went to hungry ghost festival dinner( the one with auctions going on for charity...) this time i went to bedok area...the main reason for me going to this dinner despite the next day being a sch day...it's all becos of the food...but the food wasnt fantastic...it was the auction biddings tat were interesting...my dad bid a boat for my bro...hahaz...for $400...quite ex...but it's for the charity...however...the climax was when many ppl were bidding for statue of a horse ( medium sized)....the price actually went up to $6000++...despite the average final price of other items is approx $2000+...ppl were challenging each other, flaunting their wealth as it seemed...hahaz...i clapped my hands for their auctioning spirit...hehez...

next mon have to wear office wear to sch to attend grooming workshop...ahhh...never dressed like tat b4...and gals can put on makeup...wah...so troublesome...even there's a competition to choose our very own Mr Sleek & Miss Chic...hahaz...

next week is national day week...means holiday cum study & watch my serials...
Happy Birthday to Singapore!

to zj: get well soon...get ur voice back...i'm too deaf too hear...:P

(;) L.I.K.E.S (;)

2006-07-27T21:56:00.000-07:00

i am a likable person who likes many things...this is supposed to be an optimistic entry...to all ppl out there who are stressed up, scratching their heads, having heavy eyebags, yawning machines...time to give urself some fun...to like something and do it...

catching up with sch life...it's like running after bullet train...dealing with sch life...it's like trying to float on water with tonnes of stuff on the shoulders...maintaining relationships...it's like trying wash, cook, mop, dust at the same time...wat's worse...everything becomes a mess...i believe this is the current situation tat most students face at this period of time...so which is the best month of the year? Dec lahz....cos it's really truly holiday...

ppl say distractions are bad for students who are supposed to be burying their heads in ten years series...but i wld dare to say i need some distractions...everyone has a limit time to concentrate...esp for me...mine's super short...i'm a bit weird...i can get very stressed at one moment...then the other i flushed all my troubles down the toilet bowl...wahaha...cos my circle of interest is increasing...

i LIKE comics (started since sec 1)...can help to relieve stress for sure...becos i always feel like i'm brought to another dimension...it's like watching tv...except u have to picture the realistic images in your head...it's similar to reading novels...where u get to feel and understand the character which is something i like to do...comic drawings are simply great...it's really remarkable to use drawings & words to trigger emotions in ppl...take up as a hobby lahz...

i LIKE to watch TV...ok...it's not something new...but tv sure can entertain...from exciting reality tv shows to melancholy dramas...i can appreciate them much better than textbooks...at the extent to say out the story plots fluently without memorising...tat's why my father always say..."if ur interest in tv can be converted into studies...u will surely excel!"...hahaz...maybe...

i LIKE elvin ng...aaahhhh....it's not a love confession...in case u're wondering who this guy is...he's not my classmate, schmate, or whoever...cos he dun even noe me...he's a mediacorp actor, currently acting as she weixiang in "Love at Zero Degrees" at channel 8 9pm weekdays...he's really a cool & sincere guy...his acting skills has also improved since his last drama...and wat shocked me was tat he replied my e-mail....he's really cute...hehez...oh...julian hee also not bad...:P

lastly...i wanna show u the lyrics of a song tat i LIKE...
*bold areas are the parts tat i can relate to...enjoy!

You Found Me
by Kelly Clarkson

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me

~/~van-evaluation~/~

2006-07-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

it had been a busy week...got many remedials to attend...extra lessons to cope and the stress tat lurked around...but i'm still in a 'slack' mood...wahaha...i think my bad habit will forever be laziness...however i'm haunted tat it is already week 4 of term 3...it's like the prelims are approaching soon....time always flies past sooo quickly...especially when u dun wan it to be...

my mum is kinda sick these few days...cos she grumbled abt doing routine housewrk and being unable to do something of her interest...in the past...she complained abt working life being competitive & stressful...but now tat she's unemployed & became a full-fledge housewive....now she yearns for working life again.... i may be whining over studies right now but who noes one day...i may even miss the leisure to study?

a bit evaluation on my mid year exams...there were disappointments...there were suprises...first up...GP is expected but i was glad tat there were improvement in my essay...it's like the highest score tat i ever get...it may be an insignificiant grade for GP experts but i was comforted tat hard work paid off...Chem was disastrous & unforgiving...cos i attended chem tuition but the results sux...so i finally proven tat...Tuition doesnt work for me!!! Bio was a bit encouraging cos i improve but i still have more and more room for tat...but bio's really a detailed sub...it's hard...i was happy for maths...cos i got the highest grade tat i've ever gotten in ny...i hope to hit even higher...hehez....

wanna talk a bit abt friendship stuff in jc...frankly to say...it's hard to enjoy in jc...friends play an impt role in jc curriculum...but i find it hard to maintain and make it last...tracing the history of having friends...i got many friends in pri sch...maybe i was more open and sociable when young...u noe...young innocent look...in sec sch...it's almost the same for sec 1 & 2...i became sillier & wackier...but everything went wrong for sec 3 & 4...i became rather anti-social, uncomfortable, quiet and even cautious...not wanting to anger anybody...i just became a mould...letting ppl to shape me...jc 1 1st 3 months was like a dream...cos i began to regain true self...hanging out wif ppl who 'appreciate' me....jc1 & 2 turned out fine...cos i felt at ease but still there's smthing lacking...i made friends in class & cca...but as exams approach...funny conversations turned into simple 'hi & byes' or even juz a smile or wave...at worst...we ignore...the feeling we once shared had gone....

recently...i finally reunite with one of my pri sch friend...we had lost contact for almost 6 years...i was really happy to hear from her again cos she was my best friend in pri sch...i noe we cnt be as close as in the past...but able to be in contact...i was really happy.... :)

i wanna make "Forever Friends' work...so i was lucky to have a good bunch of friends inside outside sch...even if it doesnt work...i wanna cherish and rmb the moment forever... :)

===reminisce===

2006-07-12T00:58:00.000-07:00

yesh! the exam period is over for the time being! admit tat I totally slacked these few days...becos i noe my slacking days are not for long...heehz...foremost...let me apologise for my temporary stagnant blog again...thanx to my lousy computer...hahaz...when will I get my super fast speed broadband...(yes...i'm still stuck wif dial up...)

basically...i was going idol crazy for the last few weeks...thanx to superband (milubing rocks btw...) & s'pore idol...i always loved to watch reality tv shows...u noe...witnessing ppl fighting hard to pursue their dreams...i began to think for myself and my passion for music & acting...then my parents caught me singing when i'm bathing...haahz...maybe i'm training for the next auditions of s'pore idol or project superstar...i mean like y not give stardom a shot in future...it's like grabbing opportunity to realize how good or bad u really are...hehez...of cos now studies still come first...

talking abt reality tv shows...recently i'm addicted to project runway...the fashion designers competition...i'm really rooting for Chloe Dao & i'm glad tat she was the grand winner! (went to check the results on the net...hee...) cos i'm always lousy of guessing winners...my faves are always out...hahaz...

went out wif ping & ong last sat...shld say it's a time catching meet up...esp for ping...i seldom get to see her since we live quite far...glad tat my "lao po" (who loves mos burger milk tea...juz like me!) is still cheerful & funny as usual...getting on well in sch...as for ong...wont get to miss her lahz...cos can see her almost once a week...hahaz...we always can have great minds think alike...as for dor...hoping to hang out with this 'mistress' of mine some other day...

sch reopened...so lectures, tutorials...here i come again...haiz...suddenly cnt get used to sch system...haha

juz wanna say...gal comics juz ROX!

bad sister? bleah...

2006-06-19T04:16:00.000-07:00

calling all big sisters who have a younger bro like me...do you all feel the same dilemma as me?

i am always pissed wif my bro...esp when he wans to invite his friends over to our house for gathering...i had mentioned it b4...dunno izzit sister instinct or wat...i juz feel uncomfortable in my bro friends' presence..or even worse...to dislike them...i noe it's unkind and ungracious of me to feel this way but it's juz like innate...u noe wat...i never ever like or talk to my bro friends (frm neighbours to sch friends) before....except taking up his phone calls...( ya...the hi and byes...) wat's funny is tat i only like some of his pri sch friends...hahaz...because i noe their sisters...

his friends are forever rowdy but partly the case tat boys are like tat...but i thought u'll still have to maintain some manners in someone's house...but wat wld i complain if my parents are okay abt it? alright...i like boys tat are natural (u noe...yelling & shouting some vulgarities are fine...) but his friends are too natural to be exact...i dunno wat to say but the unhappiness in me always boil uncontrollably...wat's the big deal of coming to ppl's house to have fun watching tv, playing mahjong, playing PS2...when these activities can also be done at their own homes? i noe why....it's the friends company....

my bro often nagged at me for my objections...because when he mentioned calling his friends over....my face juz automatically turned black...(i cnt help it...i try to be a nice sister but failed...) i'll display my displeasure and my bro will get pissed and end up screaming at each other...my mum will interfer and ask me to be more understanding and reasonable...ok...i being the bad sister...will then be mocked for being a loner and have no friends....hahaz...but wadeva they say...i still support my stand...i still have my "sister authority"...hmmm...tat's it for now...:)

alarming news to announce....ong is going on a date....wahahahaz....juz felt excited for her...u noe...like "a mother is getting excited when her daughter is marrying off" kind of feeling...her senior invited her to his partner for a social nite event thingy...aiyah...something like prom...oooh...my good ole pal has grown up...hahaz...being dramatic here...hey ong...better blog all the juicy details...:P

oh yesh....had a fun time singing kbox wif ong & hui & also did some shopping last sat...hougang outlet is really cheap so muz support klunch...and we took some neoprints also( very nice....)...i'll upload the pics in my next entry...

to end of this entry...recently i'm obessessed wif voodoo dolls tat are on sale in mini toons...u noe...the charm dolls for luck, love, health, study and career....i'm juz sooo superstitious...hehez...

!! independent girl !!

2006-06-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

4 & a half days of being an independent girl is indeed tiring...now i fully understand how hard it is to be a homemaker....salute to all mothers out there...hahaz...i really have doubts of being a full-fledge housewife in the future...oh my gosh...

my dearest mum & dad are now overseas, enjoying their holiday....so the household responsibility lies on me & my bro...doing cooking, praying, cleaning and maintaining....wat an experience...the cooking experience is always terrible...i dunno why...maybe i am born to eat but not cook...although i can whip up simple dishes...but i wld always make a mess out of it...but luckily...the food always turns out edible...i tried to make fried rice the other day....it's kinda a disaster cos the whole pan got stucked with rice...the whole kitchen is so greasy tat i realised cooking needs a lot of practice...

dun ever think cooking is easy...juz cooking fried rice can make me go crazy...whipping up 3 dishes one soup is time consuming and end up...u'll find many plates & bowls to wash... but wat can i say...u'll still feel a sense of satisfaction tat ur 'masterpiece' is not bad...at least my bro & I did not get stomachache after eating...hahaz...

ytd...went to co seniors farewell bbq...being the senior...wldnt wan to miss out the food...hahaz...but i was disappointed tat only 3 gals (including me) of the senior batch turned up...but i shld have expected it since my batch is dominated by the males...i personally feel tat the juniors had done a great job in preparing & serving the food (they really bought a lot of food...)...doing a banner wif all our names...presenting us with gifts...giving us surprises ( ya...like water bombs!)...kudos to them...

i begin to recall all the bbq parties tat i ever been...even though i was always obessed with bbq food...but i really never been to a bbq party tat i really enjoyed the best...maybe only the home bbq tat my mother used to organise...hahaz...because being the host...u can always eat the most...hahahz...furthermore....u can call the shots...when the crowd gets too big...it's easy to get neglected if ur best buds are not around...ahhhh....i am a difficult person....hehez...

juz-B from superband is out!!! boo hoo...i was soooo sad cos they are really good and unique...it's really a pity...haiz....

just wanna share this drawing tat i've done on a manga named Cherry....my drawing has always been ugly but i managed to draw out this presentable piece (i think lahz...) it looks ok mahz...hehez...give some comments...:)

\^^/ lurrveship \^^/

2006-06-07T01:28:00.001-07:00

obviously...the topic i wanna yak abt is lurrve...hehez....i noe it's a bit funny cos i shld be burying my head in my books, instead of sharing my philosophy on lurrve on my blog...and i'm juz wanna share a freshman's view (me lahz...) wahahaz....a bit of leisure time here...basically juz wanna discuss abt the squamous line between frenship & lurrve (yesh...a guy & gal)...

since sec sch...i was pondering if it's possible to maintain juz purely frenship between a guy & gal...not at the stage of being frens but good or even best frens...many ppl told me it's possible but i was quite unconvinced...or shld i say confused? cos i thought guys & gals have to be good friends before becoming couples? i was then rebutted by my jc frens...normally when a guy becomes a best fren of urs...we are talking abt buddies here....not lurrve already...there's no 'feeling' liaoz...maybe it's true...a boyfriend shld be a guy tat catch ur attention or juz simply attraction...if it's really true...i'll be left on the shelf...hahahz

i'm kinda gal that dun really believe in love at first sight cos i dun think guys will fall the same way for me...my inner beauty is definitely more appealing than my appearance...so developing a strong frenship is impt before the stage of courtship...in this way...i wld not be biased by juz looks...but i was slowly accepting the possiblity of pure guy gal frenship...judging on my current status (having good guy frens)...it's like i've many seeds now...i'm juz waiting for one to bloom into a flower...hahaz...(prob i've to wait long long...haiz...)

to ans dor's qns....certainly i do not want to look for a bf now...at this crucial time...if i even have....i'll be dating wif my books...(hahaz...so pitiful hor....) at least i wont be lonely...hehez

had a great time going out wif ping, ong & dor...finally we could all meet & had fun eating, gossiping and shopping...miss those good old days and company...without doubt...all of ur are my best buds....hahaz...oh ya...went to watch x-men too...i was overwhelmed by the wonderful visual effects and cast...hahaz...their sequels juz rock!

ok ping...i noe i owe u the neoprints...hehez... managed to scan 3 pics...the small one too blur....hehez...

behind the times

2006-06-03T00:10:00.000-07:00

hmm...recently i realised something shocking abt me...i'm soooo "behind the time"...get wat i meant? ok...actually it had been ongoing...but it's getting obvious and i was kinda affected...u muz be thinking...wat the hell i'm yakking abt...it's all about branding & following up the trend lohz...in simple words...i'm "late-dated" (updated but slow...)

watever i do....i'll be the slow one...be it the fashion sense, thoughts, keeping on...etc...it's like so scary suddenly...tell u smthing funny....at the age of 13-15...i was speeding too fast, wearing auntie clothes and trying to be mature...simply not behaving a sweet young innocent...but at the age of 16-17, i shld be evolving into a mature young lady wif sensible dress sense...but i'm running back to sweet gal childish look...argh...u see...haiz....

more ppl are getting brand conscious....but for me...i'm going 'cheap & good' conscience...i noe this may be a virtue...but not for my current age mahz....making me like so cheapskate...dunno if i shld be happy or sad...the problem is tat i was seduced by the brands...hoping i can wear branded stuff to fit in the society... u can walk around my sch & discover 80% of the student population wear branded shoes and carry branded bags...guess wat...my shoes only cost one tenth of theirs...u see...the gap....

i was thinking...maybe soon i'll shower myself with some branded stuff when i earned my own money....but i'll always be catching up the trend...i juz wonder y ppl like my age has so much money to offer....then my mum said to me..."they got savings mahz...u lehz?"...yep...my savings are measly...

i juz upgraded my m1 plan today...yep...went to change for my fav hp...the nokia L'Amour Collection...7360...it's not a new hp so to say...it had been in the hp market for at least a few months liaoz....the 1st time i saw it...it cost abt $300 plus...now lehz...i dun even need to pay a single cent after trading my old phone...value dropped so much....then the functions are okay only...haiz...no choice....no budget for expensive 3G phones....hahaz...

my one week gruelling extra lessons week are over...it's like soooo fast...left 3 pathetic weeks and i'm not revising properly...kinda stressed up cos if i dun do well...i'll be sooo dead...now i'm even going chem tuition (not the usual me hor?)...anyone can juz tell me how to study and play well, providing end result of acceptable grades? cuess nobody noes...haiz...but anyway...i'll try to figure my way to kill 2 birds wif 1 stone successfully...hahahaz....

oh ya...one last thing to say...my sch got a new cca called J-FIRE...it's a jap club specialising in anime, manga, j-pop, drama serials and many more....ARGH...why do they want to set up this club only NOW? i feel like crying....boo hoo....

being dramatic...

2006-05-26T04:01:00.000-07:00

feels good to be back...maybe becos i needed a place for me to pour all my thoughts...yeah...i mean blogging can be so refreshing or boring...so i'll always have irregular posts...dun blame me ok...haha

so many things happened to me since march...happy, sad, funny, horrible...all kinds...dun wanna even think about it...cos i cnt rmb...gone through disasterous block test, got back good pw results, dropped lep (kinda sad abt it...), shared my tears with jewel in the palace (damn nice!), tortured by my mountain high hmwrk...wow...i was like thinking...how did i survive on the gd & bad stuff? I shld say i wasnt very contented wif my life...cldnt imagine my life will soon turn to mug mug mug....the irony is holidays are coming but i wasnt least excited...cos the hols juz turned hell...but i noe...i cnt blame anybody...exams are still priority....i'm juz trying to comfort myself...hah...

wanna say smthing abt my cca...yeah...synergy ended and i believed i wld miss my buds in co...at least we did spend some fun time yelling at each other...showcasing our gossiping skills...maybe tat's wat i really like...to behave like a mad woman...a likeable mad woman...hehez...maybe i'm juz dying for attention...?

let's talk abt my so called last week of sch....my honour to mention i got "spa-ed" twice...chem & bio...memorising and memorising...writing and writing till i almost gone crazy...and thanks to them...i did nothing else this week...been obviously slacking...oh gosh...my guilty feelings juz went up...the good thing is tat the whole practical stuff is over once for all...i'm freed! yeah! oh ya...i'm also feeling kinda moody these days...my hormones are protesting...urgh...

so the million dollar question is...will i survive the mid year exams? Better hope so...bless me!

note: my blog can survive again, all thanks to xy, lp, xh and zj....for their continous support!

i'm back

2006-05-22T00:51:00.000-07:00

yoz....i'm back with a new blogskin...ya....it's another pink design...no choice...cos i'm a gal...
my blog is still under construction...curious why i'm blogging again? juz wanna find a place to talk...and i'm forsaking the 'live' blog thingy (no one likes it...)
so be sure to catch me 'on blog' soon!

wAt's WiTh The BaD LucK?

2006-02-02T01:09:00.000-08:00

WaAAhHh! i'M SuPeR dOwN oN mY LuCk rEcEnTLy! bAd LuCk Is SuRrOuNdInG me!!! yIkEeS!

duN wan to meNtIon abt it now...will nag abt it in my next entry...

I sUsPecT...i'M uNdEr tHe LuNaR NeW yEaR CurSe!

HaIZ...drAgOn PPL tHiS yeAr "fan tai sui"...and it's alsO a pRoBLemAtIc YeAr aS sTaTed (not gonna be good for the year of dog!)

it's not tat i'm superstitious....read it....

It is inevitable to feel down since your glorious days are not here to stay. Bide your time this year and make preparations to rise again when fortuity returns next year. Take the current opportunity to enrich yourself and reserve your energy when possible from needless attempts. As long as you can pull through this dark period, success is a breeze in the following year when you will be fully recharged and revived. The clash with Tai Sui renders prudence essential in everything you do, as any blunders may land you in a quandary. Expect obstacles throughout the year. Perhaps read up on Jiang Tai Gong or Kong Ming to pick up some strategies that you may use to excel next year.

(An extract from http://english.wayonnet.com/category_fengshui_atlas.asp?aID=86&articleid=588)

BeLIeVe It Or NoT....(to improve ur luck...)

lucky colours: orange, green
lucky numbers: 4, 6

haiz...hope my luck will change for the better...soon...

HaPpY ChiNeSe NEw YeAr 2006

2006-01-26T01:00:00.000-08:00

yoz buddies....chinese new year is juz around a corner...so how exactly do you feel? excited? happy? wahaha....for me...i juz cnt wait for a long break...can slack a bit (though i'hv tons of "chi new year presents" frm my tchers...) however, i seem to realise tat whenever there's a festive season going on...i'll feel sick...i had been having sore throat and a bit feverish lately...dunno why...i cnt even concentrate properly and always get sleepy easily...maybe i pia too hard for jan liaoz? izzit? hahaz...guess i've to gain back my energy this holiday...

i began to grow tired abt sch life...maybe i discovered that the pace tat my class is going is increasing...it's like everyone is chasing after the train...and i dun really keep up the speed...it explains the rising of my serious problem...tada: moOd SwInGs! i think i'm struggling in the sense of keeping up on the pace of tutorials and lecs...ppl salute me for taking 4 sub...(cos now 3/4 of the class and most of my frens take 3 sub)...i often wonder if i'm a nutty...i came in ny with one of the worst scores and still have the cheek to take 4 sub...i'm really in dilemma becos i dunno if i shld drop, drop wat sub? will my grades improve if i drop a sub...or nothing will change? there's too many factors for me to be concerned with...i think even my friends and teachers cnt help me much...it's all depend on wat path i wan to take in future...be it the science field or language field? and thanx to the fickle-minded me...i dunno yet...my mum did encourage me to hang on to 4 sub...(cos she has the mentaily tat 4 sub is good...) but she did say if i cnt cope then drop lohz...but wat do u mean cnt cope? cope in the sense tat ur grades muz be good or juz pass can liaoz? i'm famous for maintaing average grades for subs (which mean i dun have a strong sub lahz...) i'm still alright studying 4 sub...(i mean i haven gone bonkers mahz...) but i'll never know when the real day comes....sooooo many facts to understand and memorise...will my brain able to take it? i also dunno....do ppl taking 4 subs have the same dilemma as me? maybe not...cos clever ppl can handle 4 subs...'A' lvls= scary!

now i understand why decision making is impt...being wishy washy juz doesnt solve the problem...(i learn frm the channel 8 9pm show: ai de zhang men ren...hahaz) so i decide to let the upcoming block test on march to decide my fate...will i stay on or drop one sub (bio or lep?) stay tune to find out...hahaz...

anyway...enough of my complaining...back to sch life...hmmm...juz ended my lep project presentation ytd...it's disappointing for myself...cos i forgot my lines...how can i forget my lines when i did memorise it? since i always have a passion for acting....memorising lines shld be easy for me...haiz...maybe i lost the actress touch...oOpS man...aiyahz...i'm juz super displeased with myself...it's like i got an angel & devil inside me...aiyoyo!

ok...last but not least to my dear readers....dun think tat i'm under depression lahz...i'm juz using my rights to voice out my thoughts & opinions...tat's all...i always feel better when i vent out my frustrations...if ya have any advice or words tat ya wan to convey to me...juz tag...i'll definitely appreciate it! hehez...hey it's chinese new year....let's all be happy and have a great year ahead!
Gong Xi Fa Cai! =)

tHis Is tHe aDaPtInG pErIod....

2006-01-15T22:02:00.000-08:00

i'm not an active blogger now...since my com is down and the sch lib coms are always fully booked...(phew...managed to "grab" one com to blog...) feel kinda weird to blog in sch....cos ppl can see wat i'm typing...ahhh...actually i dunno wat to blog abt...cos it's juz the usual study slack slack study slack...wahaha...

the second week of sch is also gruelling...tutorials & tutorials...pe is another horror too...juz run 2.4km today at the start of week 3...(hey...it's a screening test lohz...) the pe department really got very high hopes of us...cos they are so "confident" tat they increased the standard of passing marks for all items...regardless of age lohz! 2.4km muz run at most 16.30 mins! standing broad muz be 165cm & above...inclined muz be 7 at least...these are only the passing marks lehz...i think i'm fated to stay for afternoon pe (which mean extra pe for weak students...) today's 2.4km result made so super mad....cos i ran 16.31mins which i failed by o.o1 min (i thought i heard the tcher yelling 16.28mins..but nvm) so which means...i have to re-run!!!! i think my stamina deproved a lot...cos last time i can run 16 mins lehz...(the glory times...hahaz...) then now...i get tired easily after a few rounds...i muz train liaoz lohz...train my hands & legs!!!

oh ya...went to shop for new year clothes last sat with ong & hui...haiz...i shld say it's not a very fruitful outing...cos in the end i onli bought one skirt...it's hard to find something nice & formal...& cheap...hehez...cos i got low budget mahz...hahaz...but overall, able to spend some time with old pals was really great...hmmm....i think i'll have to continue my shopping spree this weekend...hehez...got to meet dor too...cos she wanted to pass us bdae present...thanx dor!

this week is test week for me...yes! i juz hate tests! i juz hope CNY will arrive quickly...i really need a short break to read comics, watch anime & korean dramas!!! hehez...naughty me hor...haiz...

aiyahz...i dunno wat to blog already...lost the touch to write long entries...maybe the best place to blog is still at home...not sch...hahahz...but bear with it...i'll try to blog more and long...hahahz... buai! have a nice week fellows!

fIrSt WeEk Of ScHoOL +=&%!$*

2006-01-06T01:38:00.000-08:00

a week of sch was already super tiring for me...yesh...first of all, i'm quite unhappy abt my new timetable...ok lahz...for some days onli...last year...my latest day was till 3 plus...now is 4 plus..going to 5...worst of all...mon supposed to be my earliest day...1.45pm...but got lep extra lessons at 4pm...wat the heck!

haiz...jc2 life is super stressful & labourious! hahaz! hey! I can feel the stress liaoz loh...u noe...teachers started to yak abt the 'A' levels, oncoming tests & extra tutorials, put in effort lahz, do ur best, aim this aim tat...my new principal's advice for the year..."Eat less, learn more!" but it's juz the first week...y dun they juz let us off for a while? hehez...wat makes me torture is to see the new jc1s enjoying their orientation...it made me recall my orientation days...damn! i shld have cherish those days....envy man! u noe tat kind of feeling....watching them play & scream...while u sit in lecture halls and classroom going through notes & tutorials...oh man...now i understand how the jc2s last year felt! hahaz...the feeling was like irk! got the urge to tell them..."better enjoy ur honeymoon period...wait till u see wat happen after 1st 3 mths!"

ok...back to stress part...do u noe i slept 1.30am this week becos of homewrk! ok lahz...it's my fault for not completing my holiday hmwrk...but i myself cnt believe i slept this late on a sch day...then i already took lep tests on the first week (those who dun meet the mark will have to retest lohz!!!)...pity me...week 3 is going to be worst...the tests week! (want to torture us before chinese new year! how smart!) once, someone told me tat jc2 life is actually much better than jc1...i thought so...but i was SO wrong! u noe...ppl in my sch are already mugging in sch lib (zj...u are one of them...haiz!)...i was so surprised & it's scary...i wonder wat will the scene be like when the 'A's is nearing...

Talking abt teachers, i got a new bio teacher, Mr Goh. I shld say he's a teacher who loves to talk...hehez...tat's gd...cos i like teachers to do the talking while students juz listen...however, i dun fancy his way of teaching (especially bio prac! call us to do on our own with no discussion!)...maybe i cnt adapt juz yet...i cld see he's trying hard to add humor during lessons so tat we dun look tense up...hahaz...hope tat our class can co-operate well with him!

wat a super busy week...i think next week will be the same too...gonna slack a bit today....to give myself a treat for working hard for this week...muahahaz! jia you!

2006-01-04T20:10:00.000-08:00

ok...i noe i'm kinda slow...but hApPY New YeAr to aLL...forgive me for bloggin' inconsistently...cos my com is letting me down all the time...so now i'm in sch blogging away...yesh...on the first day of sch...hahaz...slacking already!hmm...actually...i dunno wat to blog abt...so maybe this entry will be short & sweet lahz...i think i'll give a summary on my thoughts & feelings on 2005...and my hopes for 2006...

2005...

it's a fast year...with lots of happenings...i shld i did not change much in terms of character and appearance...(although i was hoping to lose some weight...but to no avail...) but i think i grew a bit more vain...hahaz..because maybe my friends around me are turning into swans...so i dun wan to be the ugly duckling lahz...hahaz...being in nyjc is a bless...cos i'm able to adapt to the humble surroundings and ppl...hehez...u noe...i like my first 3 months class :05S6G! i thought i wld not be able to find a class as wonderful as my sec2 class...but i found the essence of happiness in this class...empire family rox!05S1A...yesh...my current class...my pillar of strength (to study...) hahaz....cos this is the mugger class...maybe due to the domination of gals and 3 hardworking chaps...so there were only few slackers (including me...) hahaz...but throughout 2005, we shared many tears & joy...so naturally...our bond is there....i feel fortunate to be in this class for 2 yrs...proud to be a member of nyjcco...able to communicate well with most of the members...esp my section....(hahaz...cos onli got 4 ppl...)....thanx to co for giving me lots of opportunities to perform on stage...special mentions to nyjc choir too...thanx for accepting me as a contract singer, encouraging and supporting me all the way throughout this tough competition....

academic wise...i think my grades are average...maybe i can do much better...so i've to work hard....looking back to 2005...i think i did put in effort...even though my results seemed otherwise...hahaz...but i got improvement! yeah! but i think i need more....to do well in exams...i hope the inner studying drive will surface soon...( i think mine's hidden...)

relationship wise...i made a lot of new good friends...my first three month empire gang...ppl in o5S1A...as there's a saying...one can make many many friends...but best friends are hard to find... hahaz...totally agree! special mention to ong, ping, dor, yu & hui....all of ya are my best friends since sec 1! wat makes me cherish our friendship is our ability to still keep in contact till now...it's really meaningful to me...so we muz keep it tat way!!!

2006...

a new year...a new beginning...critical year for me...cos it's the 'A' levels year...i guess the pressure will start coming in soon....but nevertheless...i hope to enjoy this particular year...work hard & play hard....since 2006 onli comes once in a lifetime mahz...

New YeAR ReSoluTiOnS
1) Hope to do well in exams & 'A' levels
2) Try to be a mugger sometimes...
3) Hope to slim down till ideal wt (i think it'll take more than a year...hahaz...)
4) Make more friends...build stronger friendships!
5) Have money to buy comics & anime!
6) maybe can have a bf...(depends...)
7) hope things will go smoothly for everybody
8) Enter University and join Animation Club!!!! (shld be 2007 resolution)

---cnt think anymore...hahaz...

Good Luck everybody....

bdAE--ChRiStMaS--mOvE hOuSe

2005-12-26T21:24:00.000-08:00

yikes...took so long to blog...pls understand lahz...now my new house has no internet connection yet...so have to come to sch and blog...hahaz...partly because i'm kinda lazy to blog too...many things had happened this few weeks...dun worry...good things happened though...dunno where to start...ok...let me begin on my bdae....

yesh...my bdae was on the 23rd...it's a fri...i rmb tat becos it's the most tiring yet touching bdae tat i ever had...why tiring...hahaz...cos i attended nyjc choir's farewell party...ok...it's not quite a party...it's an amazing race challenge...i forgot all abt it...thus it explains my wrong outfit and shoes...worst still...there's rain...so i almost slipped & fell...i'm soo clumsy...the race was tiring but rather challenging and fun...supposedly the race was for the jc2s...but since i'm neither a member nor senior...so i got to join in unwillingly...hehez...they shld organised in the heartland areas...i may be able to help out more...hahaz...later on... went to meet ong & yuzhi to celebrate my bdae...glad to see them and we hang out in j8...near our houses mahz...finally i got to eat in pastamania...ok lahz...say i'm sua gu...cos normally i dun have much dough to eat in pastamania...so my comments were like yummy...guess wat...we even saw the participants of Star Idol...they were having an autograph session in j8...i'm not very impressed with them anyway...hahaz...then on...we proceeded to my empty house for the cut cake ceremony...so my bdae celebration ends here...my bro says it's pathetic...but who cares...but now i'm 17 yrs old...BOO HOO! :(

let's move on to christmas eve...in the afternoon...i went to do cip (salvation army) in AMK mrt with yuzhi...this is my third & last time...ringing the bell is kinda boring actually...but wat makes this cip interesting is the kind of ppl u meet...there were really kind folks who donate like $50...ppl who donate twice...curious ppl who ask us questions...cute kids...and some irritating ones too...hahaz...most of all...i was trying to see if there's any dudes around...but nah...they're all attached...so sad man! :P anyway...later on...i went to meet hui, sibbin & tracy....it had been a long time since we hang out together as S.H.I.T...i told myself tat no matter wat...i muz make it to this outing cos i'm always the problematic one...hahaz...firstly...i saw tracy...as beautiful & funny as usual...then sibbin was like...wow...super feminine...hui was chatty & cool...we shopped around orchard road...thanx to hui...she treated us starbucks coffee (the name was super long to pronounce...hahahz)...then we even went to take neoprints...very nice...tracy treated us bbq feast at her house...finally i got to visit her house cos i known her for 2 yrs & nvr been to her house before...hahaz..we had a great time eating and talking...managed to stay there 5 mins before midnight...however...we still did countdown to christmas on our way to the bus stop...it was so enjoyable! thanx to hui, bin, tracy, ong & yuzhi for the gifts and efforts!

ok in my conclusion...gonna talk a bit on the day i shifted into my new house....ok now i'm officially staying in my new house....i'll give ya my new add if ya want...hehez...i really miss my old house...as i'd stayed there for 5 yrs i think...still need time to adjust to new environment...hahaz...i like my room a lot...cos i designed it myself...hahaz...cos it's purple...and got television...i can swear it's a good room for gals' night out...and my things are arranged much more neater than before...hahaz...feel free to come to my new house....hehez...happy new year!

nYjC cHoIr>>>A CiNdErELLa stOrY

2005-12-15T19:08:00.000-08:00

woOSH...i'm back...been a LONG time since i blogged...sorry lahz...i'm damn busy with ccas & packing up my stuff (u noe...i'm moving house soon!) managed to find some time to blog...slacking right now...hahahz...

ok...juz came back from KL...juz a few days ago...what can i say...it was simply a wonderful experience...although it's juz a short 5 days trip, but i learnt a lot and made many new friends among the choir members...i really enjoyed myself very much during the trip...the first few days in KL were quite intense...cos the competition date was nearing...everyone was trying very hard to give their best...including myself...but i always cnt get my placement right...and my singing is kinda unstable...so i'm under a lot of stress during tat time...as if my mistakes were due to my lack of effort...

the day had come...we competed with confidence. I made a mistake during the competition...doing wrong actions...luckily i managed to react quickly...but i guess the judges spotted it...yikes...careless me...everyone wasnt very pleased with the performance...izzit really so? later tat night, there was a friendship concert...whereby choirs frm estonia, s'pore & malaysia gave stunning performances. The host of the show actually approached us to perform one of our competition songs...becos it's interesting...so we did...hahaz...quite fun actually...oh ya...the host was really superb...hahaz...not only is he handsome hor...he's also has the gift of being a super host...his english was like wow...envy & admiration...hah

yesh...the interesting part is the shopping spree...hahaz...bought some stuff for my family and myself...did not really buy much though...cos the price wasnt tat cheap either...but i had great fun hanging out with my group of choir buddies...they are really nice! anyway...later tat day...we went back to the hotel to hear the announcement of results...guess what? NYJC CHOIR WON GOLD (B)!!! yeah! everyone was so super happy...screaming and crying! We managed to beat MJC & TPJC (Their choirs are supposed to be the best...since they got gold for syf...btw...think they got gold (c)) it's like a cinderella story...nyjc choir doesnt juz worth a silver in syf...we are much stronger as we seem...now i believe...quality does surpass quantity...i'm proud of nyjc choir...

hey...wanna thanx all the choir members for giving me opportunity to part of this glory...hope tat my presence was helpful...not a burden...hehez...it's sad tat i'm unable to stay as a member of choir since now the contract has ended...but hope tat nyjc choir will continue to rock & shine!!!hahaz...think tat's my true feelings to choir...

went back for co prac ytd...learnt a super tough song...the fingering was tough but my friend can master it so quickly...i noe lahz...my skills sux mahz...need more time to prac...juz feel tat i'm quite redundant in co sometimes...makes no difference if i'm there or not...haiz...& u noe wat...i'm so shocked...i began to feel a bit drifted a part from co...cos i think i'm giving ppl a feeling tat i'm a major slacker...aiyahz...no choice...cos i'm still in a midst of finding the thing i'm really good at...instrument & singing juz werent "it"...juz tahan for another 6 months lohz...

now back to myself... been busy with lep project & packing of stuff for the big day...yesh...moving house...so forgive me if i fail to be present at any outings or events...been spending too much money too...so muz control...i realise tat i got loads of things to pack & unpack...along the way...i discovered & recovered many old stuff tat brought me beautiful memories...hahaz...the past was so great...really miss those days man...haiz...i still left so much things to pack...cant wait for the official day to move in...tat can invite all my buddies for a gathering at my place...hahaz...cool...maybe if i've time...i can arrange tat...hahaz...die...hoidays are going to end soon...juz left a few pathetic weeks...and haven even touch my hmwork...i'm super dead...then i'll be busy with cip, cca & packing...no no no time!!! alamak!!!

*I gave up looking for a job...dun care liaoz...maybe next time...:P
*happy BeLated BdAe TO OnG! (claim pressie frm me arh!)
*thAnX shAnYu, ZHoNg JuInN and ppl who chipped in to buy the bdae present for me...like it a lot!!!

^!^ noV oUtInGs ^!^

2005-11-27T22:51:00.000-08:00

it's another sunday entry...hahaz...guess i'm too busy to blog on other days...wat a busy week...really...simply choir and co pracs can already drain my time away...then this week i got 2 outings...which also made me broke...but at least i had fun...hehehz...

allow me to crap on the choir and co pracs...basically...it was fine actually...for choir...did the usual singing and met a lot of JC2 choir seniors...they seemed to be a group of nice ppl (luckily...hahaz...) not to think abt the time factor...choir is not bad after all lahz...maybe i shld consider joining choir as second cca..(since the seniors encourage the contract singers....hmmm) as for co...went back for prac on tues...luckily the instructor was absent...or else she will suan me again...or even...ignore my presence...haiz...cos my skills sux lahz...had to learn the new song...it's was tough...the fingerings are too complicated...have to rely on my fellow "tan bo" mates...i think i'll be outcasted (useless...) soon...when new expert JC1s come in...boo hoo...missed the prac on wed...cos i was not informed and also got choir...(sickening golden haired mane's fault!!!)

22nd NOV--dor's bdae...thought cld celebrate with her, along with ping & ong...but too bad dor cldnt make it at the last minute...so in the end...ping, ong & me went suntec and hang out...hahaz...it'd been a long time since we went shopping in the evening...quite cool indeed...ping was soo funny...always snapping photos whenever she saw pretty things...ong & I will juz crap along the way too...i think this jie meiz gathering will be much better if dor was there...hahaz...PING. ONG. DOR. VAN. >>>Forever Friends!

26th NOV--05S6G outing!!! yeah...frankly speaking...i'll nvr miss one 6g's outing...cos i'm the planner mahz...hahahz... i shld say it was a success...although not many ppl turned up (less than i expected...)however...i was pleased already...cos it's an improvement frm the last outing...(last time onli 4 ppl...this time got 8!!) a big thank you to wenxin, yu rong, hsiang ling (ah ma!), xinhui, yuze, hanjie & weiming for turning up!!! thanx for all ya support! (am i being dramatic? hahz!) anyway, we went to marina bay for steamboat...ate a lot of cos...i did enjoy myself...got teased by the gals (burnt meat...), seeing hui & hanjie squabbling...laughing & eating together...i was indeed moved by our friendship...even though we were only classmates for short 3 months...later on, hui, me, hanjie & weiming went to orchard to view the christmas lights...hahaz...kinda fun too...haiz...really miss those 6g days....

hey...can u hear my blog's music...i changed the midi liaoz...cos ping & ong said the previous one sux...i like this current midi ya r hearing...it's one of the songs from D.N Angel (anime)...named "Fragments of Dreams"...i find it vey soothing & dreamy...hahaz...i'm currently actively reading comics...now i'm reading 4 comic titles at one go lohz...hahaz...spent too much money on renting comics liaoz...but cnt control myself mahz...i'm also watching anime too...LOVE HINA...hahaz...i think i'm going gaga over jap stuff...hohoho...a new manga author to introduce...Mimi Tajima...her story plots are rather awesome...manga juz ROX!

i will yak more next time...hahaz...b4 i blog off...juz wanna say something...I WANT TO LOOK FOR A PART TIME JOB! Haiz...cos i'm super cash tight!!! But it's hard to find a job to suit my timing...but juz wondering who got lobang can tell me....hehez...it wld be best if the days/hrs are flexible...hohoho..."desperate job seeker gal!"

//mIxEd FeELiNgS //

2005-11-20T21:42:00.000-08:00

dazed...haiz...guess i'm feeling kinda weird now...dun ask me why...my mood swings are juz unpredictable...maybe i'm juz a vulnerable person...so emotions can easily overpower me...hmmm...now listening to jay chou's songs...his songs are REALLY great...cos his voice and the melody of his songs seem to possess the ability to bring me into my inner world...where i can day-dream!!! hAhA! his ballads rocks man!
trying hard to find an explanation for my thoughts...aiyahz...maybe i'm undergoing "mild depression and self-thinking" stage? i'm always like tat...hahahz...juz finished watching D.N Angel...trying to pia this anime...overall...it's quite nice but a bit confusing to me lahz...so i'm planning to watch it again...hehe...
sometimes, i realise tat i do learn a lot of things from anime and comics...some ppl found it a waste of time to pick up this hobby...but i dun think so... cos i began to understand more about the true meaning of friendship, love, kinship and even life...so i'm super impressed by the manga authors and animators...their thoughts are really way beyond our imagination...can u believe it...i do find myself part of the story plots sometimes...feeling the sorrow & joy...hahaz...no wonder ppl can cry & laugh sooo hard when watching tv or reading any books...i'm not an exception of cos...my teacher once said tat watching too much tv can make one an idiot...cos we werent using our brain at all...but he was wrong...i believe tat we use our brain to think and our heart to feel when we are exposed to touching & meaningful scenes...we are actually learning too...hohoho....at least this opinion is frm a tv fanatic like me...hehez...
erm...nvm if u dun understand wat i'm typing...hahaz...it juz the "me" when i'm in the dreamy state...ok let's go back to reality...nothing much happened this week...juz some extra lectures...it seemed tat the mood to study wasnt there...everyone was already in the holiday mood...but we did have to face the outcome...TUTORIAL HOMEWORK...yikes...i started learning option topic for bio...haiz..biodiversity...wat viruses, bacteria...fungi...eck! gonna stuck with "them" till the end of 'A' levels...
had usual choir lessons...sad to say...choir is not as easy as i think...cos i kept singing the wrong thing...breathing the wrong way...the more mistakes i make...the more i feel despondent...same as co...i noe my skills sux (even the instructor says so..)...izzit becos i really lack the passion to master them (maybe i'm not a music person..)? i dun noe wat i wan actually...i like to slack but i dun like to be the weakest...maybe i do have my self esteem afterall...hahaz...i'm angry at myself sometimes...cos choir is really too time consuming...many of my plans were kinda ruined...i got a bit sense of regret...if i did not take part in this competition...wat'll become of me? but my positive side allows me to believe tat as long as i'm willing to put in more effort...i can do it...hey...who noes...this singing experience can be extraordinary...hahaz...so I'M OK LIAOZ... :p
went out with ong & ping ytd...i enjoyed myself very much cos i cherish our friendship...ppl often says it's hard to maintain a friendship when friends arent not together...but we actually DID it...although we were in the same class for only 2 years short...but our friendship is still going strong till now...so i felt blessed to noe them (plus dor!!)...hahaz...we went to the library and shopped for dor's present (did shopping of our own too!)...settled down in mos burger, sipping our ice milk tea and eating fries, chatting about interesting sch & love lives of each other...hahaz...it wld be great if we can do tat once in a while...hehez...
oOpS...guess i typed a lot this time...thanx for ur patience...hahaz...gonna be super busy in the next few weeks...outings...choir & co pracs...haiz...time & money gone...aiyahz...cnt find job also...too many clashes...super sianz...but i'm gonna tell myself...i'm supposes to enjoy not suffer...hahahz...so juz laugh and take things easily bah! (the theme of my pw...hohohoho) jia you vanessa!!!
(PS1: Bon voyage to zj & syl! Have fun in taiwan!)
(PS2: Hey buddies...i'm alright hor...dun think i'm under depression again...i'm juz complaining and venting my frustrations...i'm always the happy-go-lucky one lahz!)

HOLidAy mOoOd...

2005-11-13T20:58:00.000-08:00

OoPs...been neglecting my blog for quite some time...paiseh...cos my "blogging is sian lehz" syndrome is back...hahahz...sometimes...i do find blogging a chore...cos got soooo many things to say...juz too lazy to put them in words...hahahz...lazy me...anyway...my com is always giving probs too...so forgive me if i'm slow in blogging...not my fault hor...
many things happened during this week...u can nvr expect man...OP...ocean ambassador...cOmIcS...ahhh...let me elaborate slowly...hope u wont fall asleep reading my blog...hahahz..(some ppl complain my blog too wordy...HA!)

ok...let me start by saying abt my oral presentation...i'll give my grp's overall presentation an OKAY...cos we were quite fluent and natural...and most importantly...we had the laughing element...(as least we made the audience and assessors laugh!) for myself...i did fumble my words and repeat "therefore" sooo many times...no choice...i was kinda nervous...but i think i manage to pass it...i hope so...my classmates were fine too...could see "RELIEVED" on their faces...guess everyone's OP was good...aiyahz...i believe the teachers are not so mean lahz...i'm juz glad that PW is FINALLY OVER...(haiz...but i still got LEP PW...AHHHHH!!!)

Ocean Ambassador (2 day) in Sentosa...05S1A's learning journey...hmm...it's really not bad...i did enjoy myself...initially...i cldnt bear the thought tat my 40 bucks wld be gone juz like tat...(hey...40 bucks can do A LOT of things lohz...) but after the whole exp...it was quite worthwhile...hahaz...let me tell ya more abt it...
Day 1: Went to Underwater World and listened to a short conservation talk on sharks... then had a tour around the place...hadnt been there for a long time already...saw many aquatic animals...then went for the "behind the scenes" tour...was quite fun... after tat had lunch at delifrance...sooo ex lohz...eat the chicken deli until i nearly vomited...hahaz...later we went to dolphin lagoon and watched the performance (drats...it was raining heavily at tat time too...)...the dolphins were simply brillant...then we also got the chance to touch the dolphin JUMBO! The skin was kinda rubbery though...hahaz...then our class were split into 2 grps...and i'm in GRP B...
Day 2: basically...ppl in grp B had report to Dolphin Lagoon in the morning for some washing tasks...but the staff were TOO NICE to us...giving the gals err...sand piling jobs...which is not exactly fun...thought we cld wash the kitchen and prepare food for dolphins...guess they dun trust us after all...and we dun get to touch the water...haiz...
fortunately...the 2nd part of the job attachment was SUPER FUN...we went to underwater world to help up...we are split into 3 mini grps...one will be in charge of the fossil sketching...another one will be at the touch pool...encouraging tourists to touch the marine animals and also to obey the correct instructions...the last grp will be doing mascots...Shark & Dolphin! After tat we got to rotate our jobs...went to do the mascot thing first...it was sooo interesting...imagine many kids run towards u...wanting to hold ur hand...surrounding u...taking pictures...WOW...so cool...even adults were enthu (hahaz...u can nvr imagine how the adults behaved...shocked!)...the only bad thing was...it was damn HOT in the costume...simply sweating like a pig...hahaz...
touch pool was quite fun too...cos u got to interact with the tourists and touch the marine animals too...i luv the blue stingray the best...the skin was sooo smooth! as for the fossil sketching...i sketch a few for myself...and i was proud of my artistic side of me...(hahaz...even 3 year old kid also noe lahz...)....many kids did enjoy the sketching process too...hahaz...
overall...it was sooo fun-filling...we even extended our time to help out...we even made balloons...hehez...i learnt to make dog and sword frm nicole and yin mun...hahaz...wldnt mind to come back to underwater world to help out in future...
the day ended with a nice BK dinner with my frens...syl, nicole, pilai, zj, chee kian, yin mun, jong, yingz & julia...

thanx to Li Rong for introducing me to AZ comic shop in hougang...went to check it out with ong ytd...they have a wide variety of comics...mainly frm taiwan...i took a long time to choose the comic bks i wanna borrow...hahaz...of cos...ong & i became members...hehez...now i can read comics books in ease (provided i got money to rent them...hahahz...) the auntie there was very kind and helpful...and i was impressed by her knowledge on comics books...she seemed to noe the books that i want to rent...hahaz...i was glad to find bus 72 going to hougang...cos i dun wan to take mrt...and in near future...bus 72 will be the direct bus frm my new house...hahahaz...back to comics...i luv 2 manga authors...Yuu Watase & Ai Morinaga...so i wld be focusing more on their manga for the time being...i want to rent anime too...but...anime is juz too ex...haiz...btw...Alice19th ROCKS!

juz one more week...i can kiss sch goodbye (for the time being...) and welcome my holidays with my arms...hohoho...tml...the day after tml...and on...will be days of lectures...muz pay attention...hehez...but my holiday mood has already arrived...wat the heck....cos been a bit forgetful and 'dazey' these few days...everytime when i read comics or watch anime/idol dramas (onli for those can create huge impact in me)...i will going into 'dreamy' mode for a few days...hahaz...tat's me lohz...vanessa!

Life's dAmN fUnNy

2005-11-03T00:35:00.001-08:00

hAhAz...life's damn funny i shld say...i dunno wat made me think this way...it seems tat our lives are always full of surprises...good and bad ones i suppose...i got to know one friend...she's a very nice and helpful girl...and mind you...she's super talented! I think i nvr came across a girl like her...she's almost well-versed in everything...she almost had all the talent tat i wished for...sometimes...i even felt inferior standing next to her...u see...it's not tat i lack of confidence or i'm crazy...it's juz tat i admire tat she has her own strong capabilities tat she can be proud of...but when the spotlight turns to me...it seems dim...hahaz...i dun really have a talent i'm proud of...maybe due to the lack of recognition...but i dun regard my talent as a 'talent" when other ppl can surpass it sooo easily...get wat i mean...hahaz...maybe tat's y life's funny...making the fool of ourselves...hohohoz
enough of crapping...hahz...firstly to say...i was very happy to hang out with my close buddies last week...ong,dor,ping&hui...miss them lots...had a nice time talking to hui...knew tat she faced alot of obstacles in sch...esp the fact tat she might have to drop one sub to be promoted...but after reading her blog...i'm so glad for her as she can keep 4 sub...she can continue to pursue her studies for LEP...tat's sooo GREAT! as for dor, she's also facing hell of 'many problems'...i hope she can be promoted to jc2...and to be away from the nasty teachers...juz want her to noe tat...watever decision she makes...i will support her always! ping as usual...her new term starts and she seemed to get all pumped up for sch...actually...i always thought ping'll be better off in jc...but seeing her doing well in her studies and befriending a grp of good pals in poly...i'm relieved tat she did make the rIgHt choice...didnt expect tat she's can adapt so well...hahaz...sometimes i do wonder what will i become if i'm in poly...heard frm my mum tat my cousin is doing well in poly...participated in a competition and won a prize...and i'm here...stuck in a jc life...unable to achieve anything...cos everyone is a strong opponent...i cldn't find a place to showcase my talents...i juz think jc is not the right place anything else except for academic grades...hahaz...ok...as for ong...nothing to say abt her...hahaz...cos...she's strong as ever...she's always the smart & witty one...sure she's doing well in vjc...the gal who's going to get 2 S papers...my my my...
got scolded by the choir president today...ok lahz...not scold...but erm...nagged...or shld i say warned...aiyahz...noe tat it's my fault...cos shldnt use PW meeting as an excuse...but no choice...i'm always the one accomodating to my members...but i was shocked indeed...cos it made me realise tat i cnt treat choir practices lightly...cnt pon for no reasons...i'm kinda not used to it...cos i'm a famous 'ponner' in sec sch...only something tat i like will keep me going...eg...i seldom pon co practices in jc...cos i like being in co with my friends...although it can get bored at times...i like choir...but i still need time to find a sense of belonging...to make myself committed to this cca...haiz...tough man...juz tough
i got my choir costumes for the competition...i'm sooo relieved tat i can fit in the clothes...hahahz...and mind u...the previous owner is not fat lohz...and i can fit in her clothes lehz...hahahaz...sooo happy...of cos it's a bit tight lahz...juz need to lose some weight...YESH! LOSE WEIGHT! TRY LOHZ...
i want to announce tat i'm going anime/comics/idol dramas crazy...hahaz...i finished watching samurai deeper kyo...super nice...luv the characters and songs...thanx to nicole for lending it to me...i tink the next anime i'm watching will be D.N. Angel...i will be thanking mengtak...my co-zhong ruan player for agreeing to lend me...hahaz...and a big thank u to li rong...for agreeing to lend me the whole set of Alice 19th comics...ahhhh....thanx to all of them...juz wondering...who can lend me "Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa"?...i juz luv ming dao and qiao en....hahaz...
wrapping all up...juz cut my hair recently...got diff. comments from everybody...hahaz...my parents said tat it seemed tat my hair is same as before...some say not bad...quite nice...some even say they dun recognise me...hahaz...so funny...but i like my new hairstyle lahz...cos it's cool man...hahahz...ahhh...late liaoz...gonna go hit the sack...nitez everyone...sorry for the long entry...congrats to u if u managed to read till the end...hahaz...
happy hari raya puasa!

PW PW PW

2005-10-27T22:08:00.000-07:00

yoz...this is definitely a strictly PW week for me...hahahz...had been going back to sch for OP,OP & OP...simply rehearsing many times...again and again...hahaz...kinda tiring too...i nvr rehearse sooo many times for a presentation before...maybe it's becos it's an 'A' level exam...so cnt play play lohz...but frankly speaking...these few days in sch were kinda fun...cos i got to talk crap and chit chat with my classmates...got to rot in sch...the feeling was indeed carefree and relaxed...hahaz...who says i'm gonna miss normal lessons days? NAh...hahahz...
Erm...been thru 2 sessions of OP rehearsal...got comments from mrs tay and mr toh...generally...my comments are okay frm mrs tay...juz tat i need more eye contact...need to familiarise my content...and blah...then frm mr toh...he pointed tat my hair is messy...Duh...of cos i noe...tat's y i tied my hair...but still messy...hahahz...but i'm gonna cut soon...short hair is still de best! thus...u'll nver see me in long hair soon...hahahaz...but hor...i'm actually happy tat ppl say i looked not bad when my hair is tied up...(cos i think i really sux with long hair...) oh ya...and he said my ending was kinda abrupt...so okay...i gotta train on tat...but i believe my strong element is my SMILE...:) hehezz....
went for choir practices twice tis week...actually...i'm beginning to a tiny weensy bitsy regretful to join choir...after knowing tat i have to sacrifice my free time for the intensive practices...and due to tat...i also gave up some other courses and stuff cos there'll be clashes...haiz...but i noe...it's too late to turn the clock back...so i told myself to be responsible and do my best in choir...tat's the least thing i can do...positively...this competition can be a new experience to me...hehehz...
yeaH...managed to borrow an anime from nicole...she is really an anime lover...so she introduced me "sAMuRaI dEePeR kYo"...I watched a few episodes and it was quite nice...a little different from the genre of animation i watched...u see...SDK has more fighting and historical scenes...got a bit of romance lahz...but usually...i will prefer to watch romance-related anime...not miLD romance...but with StRoNg romance content...hahaz...tat's very me lahz...but SDK is really not bad...like the songs though...hehez...i hope can borrow more anime frm her...so as to widen my anime knowledge...hahaz..
on the other hand...didnt get to read comics much...cos i realise my fav manga artist..Yuu Watase...actually published her books evey few months...reading comics can make me super impatient lohz...so i was so sian lohz...guess i have to start hunting for other comic books...but i noe comic books and anime are going to cost a bomb man...but no choice...i juz fall in love wif them...hahaz...but actually...is it better to rent or buy these things?...hey...need some serious advice...!
haiz...tml will be DE DAY...yesh...gotta get back my results...now i begin to worry...hopefully i can be safely be promoted to jc2...and hope my result slips are okay...hahaz...oh ya...forgot to mention tat mrs ho...my sch principal is retiring soon...kinda sad tat she's leaving soooo soon...she's really a good & caring principal...she is actually one of reasons y i want to be in nyjc...hahaz...and my bio teacher, mrs tay will be migrating soon...rmb the first time i saw here...i really disliked her...cos she was sooo super fierce and demanding...but now...i actually will miss her...cos i find tat she's actually a funny teacher...and she teaches well too...haiz...i guess partings are juz unavoidable in life...hahahz...tml will also be the official 'last' day of sch...but i still have to come back to sch for OP discussions, choir practices and extra lessons...AAAAAHHHHH
looking at the bright side...tml and sat got hangouts with my old pals...miss them lots...and can shop and slack...YEAH!

1I.2I.3B.4B.5A.6A.1GR.2GR.3JT.4JT.O5S1A

2005-10-21T18:40:00.000-07:00

hahaz...time to blog again...hmmm...been almost a week and yesh...got back my results...i wldnt say it's terrible...but it wasnt fantastic either...shld say i can safely be promoted to jC2...hahaz...cos i passed my GP for the lst time man...yeah...so proud of myself...i think my bio did well too...cos i got improved mahz...hahahz...maths and chem were ok lohz...juz kinda disappointed for lep...did not do well...but luckily...i did not fail any sub...hohoho...but dunno if i want to drop any sub...cos wat's the use of having almost the same sucky grade for all subjects right...haiz...i need advice too...as for "S papers"...NO THANX...hahaz...
been busy doing the last amendments for WR and starting of OP...kinda worried though...esp OP...cos i'm having OP rehearsal next week...and my grp haven done a single slide man...hahaz...so tml must pia with my members...tml's my father and bro's bdae...yikes...no time to get a gift for my bro..hope he understand..hahaz...had a taste of presenting to the whole class today..since my topic was on laughter therapy...i was trembling and smiling WIDELY at same time...luckily my gp teacher said tat i'm quite good...i'm really relieved man...but i was so so nervous! my face muscles even twitched...
i think i became a outing planner...hahaz...cos i think i got a lot of outings to plan (actually not a lot lahz...hahahz...) planning outings had never been my forte...cos the outings i planned were very inorganised and boring...but dunno why ppl are willing to call me to plan...so i have to take this job...and train myself...hahaz...i became one of the planners of my current class outing(S1A!!)...it's gonna be chalet...yeah...cos it had been a long time since i stepped into a chalet (last time was with 4jt...) i'm looking forward to it becos i'm beginning to like my current class...and this is the lst official outing tat our class has...so i die die muz go...since i'll be in charge of food? hehez...
next outing to plan is O5S6G...my first 3 months class...tat brought me many beautiful memories! i'm the appointed chief planner for this class...cos i really hope to bond these ppl together..it's quite tough cos most of us are separated....i also want to thank them for giving me another class to plan outing...cos i wasnt really good at it...hahaz...so i muz jia you man...oh ya...to 6g ppl...pls visit the 6G fOrUm often!!
xin hui said she'll be planning 2GR outing too...and i'm helping out too..hahaz...very long nvr go 2gr outing liaoz...so i hope many ppl will go and we will have a good time together....yeah...hohoho...so many outing to go...hope i can make it for all the outings!
as everyone noes i'm in choir liaoz...under the name "contract singer"...which means only temporary member for the international performance's sake...hehez...been to at least 3 practices already...it was actually quite fun...and i'm able to blend in with the members and newcomers well (surprisingly....haha)...but i was juz quite uneasy abt the way singing is trained during choir...hahahaz...cos got body contact! (not with gals...wif guys lohz...)...ppl think tat i quite open-minded...it is true...but still...i feel a bit weird mahz...i was complaining to zj...how come choir so erm...funny one...hahaz...for example, we have to touch each other's waist and press or stare at each other's eyes directly...i noe these muz be necessary during choir practices...but hahaz...i juz still need time to adjust...since in co...zhong ruan is the only body contact i had with...hahahz
i discovered tat i had a taiwanese idol drama hidden in my cupboard...(qiang wei zhi lian aka the ROSE)...u noe...the SHE drama...ella is the main actress...i bought the series in china and kept it...cos no time to watch...so now i dugged it out and watch...hahaz...and it was super NICE...cos one of the main lead is SUPER FUNNY and quite charming...the actor's name is Zheng Yuan Chang...i think he acted VERY WELL...u will luv him when u see this show...but too bad he didnt get to be with ella as a couple in the end lahz.... i was frustrated cos i discovered tat i got a missing episode...and it's rather important...spoil my mood to watch the show liaoz...but overall it's good lahz...hahahaz...

i think i talk too much liaoz...will blog soon to continue my long long story...oh ya...rmb to tag more arh...buai!

aFTer eXaMs AcTiVities

2005-10-15T11:48:00.000-07:00

been super busy these few days...by right..i have a week to enjoy..to rot at home with my serials and tv and maybe can even go shopping...however...i had to go back to school almost everyday this week for cca...haiz...sad sia...tat's y i now then blog...hahahaz... let me have a quick recall wat i did this week...
mon:i went to ping's house...had a lot of fun playing monopoly although i LOST a lot of money...then we predict some tarot cards...i really cherish our long-lasting friendship cos even though we only been classmates for 2 years...but the strong bonds between us had lasted for almost 5 years liaoz...so very glad to have these close pals... miss dor too...
tues: hahahz...went back to sch for co to practice some songs for open house for this fri...i'm rusty already...very long time never touch ruan...so when i play...my fingers hurt like siao...frankly speaking...i began to like co...cos i really felt comfortable with the ppl..well at least most of them...hahahz...maybe this is the so called benefit when u have a small no. of ppl...easier to mix around...furthermore... my section got only 4 ppl (including myself...excluding beginners...) and i'm the only girl...hahahaz..can bully the guys to help me...hohohoho...lucky me arh?
wed: it's graduation for J2s...and J1 lep students had organised a farewell party for the J2s lep students...so have to go for this party...i'm kinda forced to perform for one of the items...it's actually group singing...so i went to school early to practice...damn weird lahz...then i laze around until the actual thing start...the party was indeed very touching and fun...i mean...farewell is always a very sad fact...and i noe...next year it wld be us...haiz...some j2s put up very very hilarious performances for us...we really had a great time laughing...though i'm not close to these seniors...juz hope to wish them all the best!
thurs: had choir practice...first time...a bit scared lahz..cos singing choir songs are quite different from singing pop songs...and since i'm in soprano...had to sing in a high note all the time...i had to learn songs tat are in latin...japanese...quite hard for me lahz..cos i dunno how to see the score("bean sprout" score mahz...)but overall...i manage to pull it over...afterall...i'm not singing solo...so it wld be fine to make tiny weeny mistake...right? i also tried the choir costume for the peformance...cnt fit in the top (shucks)...so i have to lose weight...hehehez...actually had co rehearsal on tis day too...but ponned it for choir...then later got caught...have to go back since co is still priority... :P
fri: this is "THE" day...cos it's ny's open house...co get to perform at 2 slots...but whole orchestra performance is only once...since there're other instruments performing solo...we got the morning slots...so not a lot of sec4s are present...our performance was not bad...cos at least we heard loud applause...hehez...later...went to eat in the canteen with my co mates...got teased by them lahz...cos i always made a fool of myself...then went back co room to do spring cleaning...then i walked around the school and saw a lot of guests...it's good to see ppl coming to ny...hahahz...then i met up with my classmates and slack again...i wan to get the goodie bag but cnt take mahz...haiz...more and more ppl were pouring in to ny...but did not see a lot cchms ppl...i heard tj was having open house on the same day as us...then i noe...of cos cchms ppl wld rather go tj than ny...and i agreed wif wat my friend say...cchms ppl wld not want to aim to go ny...cos to them...tj is a better choice...and nearer too...but i did saw some of my juniors in ny...hahaz...so i coaxed them to join co...hohohohz... co rulez...
sorry tat tis is a long entry...cos i hv many things to type...hahaz...recently i am going anime and comics crazy...but...i only crazy over certain anime and comics only...cos i no money to purchase soooo many anime and comics to watch...but juz wanna say...fushigi yuugi ROCKS...simply addicted to it...now i'm reading fushigi yuugi genbu kaiden comics...damn nice lahz...i think i'm going siao soon...hahahahz...looking forward to tml...cos it's my great grand granny's bdae...means got yummy food to eat...but i dread mon...cos it's my DOOM day...no need for me to say y right....u shld noe...hohoho...*~*

bEgInNinG

2005-10-07T23:50:00.000-07:00

aHa! now is officially 7th October...erm...11.10pm...here am i...blogging away...heyhey...miss my blog man...got so many things to say...hahaz...but dunno how to start...1st of all...HURRAY...promos are finally OVER...yes! O-V-E-R....tat's good news...but frankly speaking...i wasnt very excited abt it...dun noe why...i didnt have the urge to jump and scream like mad to celebrate the end of exams...i jus felt relieved and a bit lost...it seems tat it is just one of the hurdles i have passed...i noe...there are still more to come...but aiyahz...there's one thing for sure...no need to touch notes for the time being...yeah!
i shld comment on my performance for this promos right? but hor...really dunno wat to say...i confess tat the papers are not very difficult...no wonder ppl say promos are easier than mid year...and probably becos the sch dun wan too many ppl to retain due to changes in the syllabus...so they showed mercy on us...however...a slacker like me...i dun think i did extremely well...i am a very weird person...sometimes...i dun really do well for easy papers...hahaz...this promos...i cld say...i did fairly ok...i hope...but for now...i'm not aiming anything...juz like me get promoted first...hahahz...tat's priority...as for getting better grades...let me strive harder next year...so jia you to myself! now i have to enjoy before i face the consequences...YESH...dEbRief!!!
i once said tat i had a list of things to do...like watching serials...hanging out...ccas...cips...tons of activities...so it's true tat when some things end...it is a sign of another beginning...yep...it's the end of exams...but the beginning of soo many activities...i think i will be damn busy next few weeks...have co and choir practices...cips...PW Oral presentation...yikes...hope tat i can find joy in these activities...who says life is gonna be easy after exams...NAH...
hang out with my classmates today after my last paper...first time...of cos it's not a big group...only 4 of us...(nicole, shermin, pilai and me!)...we actually had a deal tat we'll go far east to try the "fried mars bar" after exams...so we went to far east...almost combed the whole mall cos we couldnt find the shop...finally we found the shop and bought the dessert...oMG...this "fried mars bar" is sooo heavenly nice but SinFuL...it is actually ice-cream with fried mars bar chocolate...YESH...it's fRiEd!!!! I felt sooooo guilty when i ate it...cos count the calories!!! mars choco is already quite fattening...now...u even fried it...but...it tasted great...cos the choco jus melts in ur mouth...hmmm...u shld give it a try...i juz try to forget the amt of calories when i devour the sweet dish...and i had a nice time with my classmates cos they're a group of funny ppl...
oh ya...wanna make an announcement...i am moving house soon...hahahaz....it is confirmed...my new house is actually quite near to the house i am living now...but only bigger...i finally get my own big room with my own design...yeah...guess wat...i'm painting my room PuRpLe...hahaz...some of ya may think is a yucky color...but mind u...purple is a trendy color ok...and i luv to try dangerous colors...then i'm gonna put TV in my room...yeahhh!!! most probably i'll move by the end of the year...and of cos i'm having house warming!!! so gonna invite all of ya...who wants to come??? hahahaz...
hmmm...i noe it is a rather long entry but forgive me cos i nvr blog for a long time liaoz...hahahaz...now tat i'm still kinda free...i'll blog often lohz...hehez...i'm dying to say more things...but i think i will keep it till next time...have a nice time reading my blog! THAnx...NiTez...SaYoNaRa...

eXaM FevEr

2005-09-26T13:58:00.000-07:00

tis will be the last entry for the time being...as i need to study for my promos...wat a sacrifice...hahahaz...anyway...i will not be away for so long...duh...i can tell u wat will be my first entry abt when i'm back..."bYE byE exaMs CELebratIoN" !! HAH!
actually, this entry will be revolving around exams...dUh...cos exams are juz around the corner...u r really blind if u failed to see the situation now...soooo intense...as if everyone is training hard to fight a bIg scaRy EVIL monster..aka eXaM...I thought i will only witness this scene during 'A' levels...haH...i was so wrong...promos is already terrifying me...ppl are mugging...skipping lessons...photocoping past year papers...restricting themselves from sleep and tv...omg...i really wonder if these are all necessary??? i am really scared...cos as compared to these hardworking chaps...i'm so so slack...it made me feel guilty tat i'm not putting much effort as them...frankly speaking...i really hate to be under pressure...hardworking is not a virtue found in me...cos i'm far too lazy...only things like tv and computer can get me going...hahahz...but i guess i juz like things to be slow and steady...study is no exception.
after being in the system of education for 10 over yrs...exams has become a undying trend...esp in peak periods...it's a mighty "virus"...cos all students will have "exam fever"...symptoms will be those acts tat i mentioned juz now...of cos it's not as severe as dengue fever...but it's enough to drain our brain power and energy away...slowly...we will become slaves of exams...cos we are always suffering...i realised we will always shiver at the note tat "exams are coming...die...haven study"...it's like a reflex action...we get paranoid sometimes too...over-exerting ourselves with pressure...and get sick eventually...or even "black out" cases...our mind juz went blank when we saw the exam papers...i exprienced tat b4...but only half "black out"...hahahz...
ppl say i am a lazy gal...which is true..but i juz find it tough to be hardworking...cos i dun really concentrate well...tat's y my results sux...ppl also say tat if u work hard...u will score well...i have my doubts for this...becos there are times tat i think i did work hard...but i dun get to see the results i wanted...so i was like so disappointed...it made me ponder if i did put in my 100% or i'm not up to it...ironically...sometimes...i did not put in much effort...the results were satisfactory...so wat the hell is going on...?
haiz...many ppl had many ways to study for their exams...my method is damn unique...hahaz...cos u will definitely opposed my method...i actually study in front of my tv...on...hahaz...u'll be saying..."aiyahz...no wonder..how to concentrate lehz..." but i juz cnt live without the noise of tv...and no tv sacrifice for me...hahaz...but dun worry...i dun do tat all the time...most of the time is for doing homework only...hahahz...i juz hope the exam fever will be over soon...i am already planning post-exam activities already...although i will be quite busy after exams...i'm happy cos at least...no need to touch books and notes for the rest of the year...hahahahaz
2.5 more days to my exams...ahhhhh...stress! had to hit my notes now...sayonara...be back on 7th October...hohohoho...oh ya...and wish me luck...need all the luck tat i can get...

wHat aBt mE?

2005-09-18T12:01:00.000-07:00

very long never blog liaoz...maybe not considered very long lah...anyway...juz want to say tat this entry will be my second last one (last one will be next week) for the time being…cos promos are coming…guess i dun have time to blog during these few weeks lohz...dun worry...i’ll be back after promos...miss me if ya want...hahahahz...
i juz went for HSK exam and only had one word to describe...disastrous...cos the qns are rather hard...soooo “scientific” & “literature”...damn cheem lohz…and of cos...time was another killer factor...i think I’m gonna flunk my oral...cos it was totally horrible...i was like speaking broken Chinese...shucks man...the oral exam was very distracting cos everybody starts talking at the same time...even though...i had the habit talking to myself and talking to voice recorder...but this time...i juz stunned and stammered lohz...having oral thru voice recorder was such a bad idea...no interaction at all...and my nerves juz got me talking nonsense...argh...gonna fail...waste money...never want to go for this kind of exam liaoz...so demoralizing......
nothing much happened in the first week of school...juz the normal lessons...had maths test lahz...which was hedious...cos i left 3d trigo qn blank...juz stare at it blankly...i really cnt see a thing...i dun have 3d eyes mah...actually...i have start mugging properly yet...i’m like in bits and pieces...terrible man...no choice...i have to clear my hmwrk first...b4 i can start on smthing...nvm...jia you to myself......
did much thinking for myself recently...and i made 2 new discoveries abt myself...want to noe? Hahahaz…firstly...i realize tat i do crave for fame…izzit already an old fact? Hahahaz...cnt really rmb...but i do feel tat i want to be in the limelight...hoping to be recognize by ppl...ppl wanting to noe more abt me...or juz tat i want to have a certain achievement in life to fulfil my desires? Cos i really want to be noticed by others...having the chance to show off my talent and ppl appreciating it...but i dun really have a real talent of my own...cos for now...even my best talent, compared to others, is only at a “so-so” standard only...u may say tat i’ve low confidence in myself but the truth around me dampen my mood already...and I felt tat i wasn’t given enough opportunites to shine...but even so...i guess i do not have the courage to grab them either...i only have myself to blame...so smtimes...i wish to be extraordinary...i envy those who really have special talent...but i noe there muz be ppl to be ordinary...and i’m one of them......
Secondly...i finally noe why i am sooo desperate for relationship at this tender age...imagine having relationships at the age of 16 and 28...can u see the difference? At 16 yrs old...u can enjoy hanging out with ur stead at fast food joints…shopping malls...walk home with each other...whisper mushy stuff to other...young love is always innocent and pure so to say...but at 28, things and perspectives are different...it will be more practical/serious/bland...as if it is at the stage of choosing spouse…thus…I really hope to experience a relationship at this age…as i cnt be 16 forever wat...dun really want to miss those lovey-dovey moments...and trust me...u’ll regret it...i also claim to be a love expert...but a inexperienced one...so having a relationship can give me a new mindset on romance stuff...it can be useful...hahahaz...but of cos...i’ll not be disappointed if i cnt find a bf...cos i cnt juz pick any guy anyhow...so i let fate lead the way...it will be like a bonus if i can find one now lahz...hahahahaz…so dun accuse of me being boy crazy now since u noe my reasons…being boy crazy can make me forget abt relationships...but actually...i only crazy for anime guys...which are unreal...cos they are sooo handsome lohz...do u think there are guys in the real world tat are as handsome as comic anime guys?(ouch...sorry to the guys out there..hehez) i seriously doubt so…no wonder i always day dream…cos only dreams got shuai ge…hahahaz...of cos in real life...i dun go for looks cos i am not good-looking either…y so harsh lehz...but character wise lehz…muz be good lahz...cos i am a gooood gal mahz...hahahz...maybe i will have an audition on who wants to be my bf? Hahahz...JUZ JOKING HOR...:P (as if i'll have ppl queuing up...bLaH...)...

cIp fLag DAy---SeEn & hEarD

2005-09-07T18:35:00.000-07:00

nearly been a week since i blogged...ppl are nagging me again to type something down...i am happy i supposed...this shows tat my entries are quite attractive so to say...hahahz...juz joking...thanx to all my loyal friends who never fail to visit my blog often...A BIG THANK YOU! actually...i'm planning to have another blog...mainly posting all my talent works...like novels, change of lyrics, scripts and maybe some book/movie/serials recommendations...hehehz...tempted to have a look? hehez...but it will only be officially opened in late nov...cos now got to handle my promos first...:P
oOpS...guess i'm digressing...i wanted to post smthing abt the cip flag day i had done ytd. but firstly...i realised i been doing 2 cips in one week...juz did the yellow ribbon project(school organised) a few days ago...hoho...we walked abt 3.5km...got a goodie bag (yeah!)...got a lot of activites but i too lazy to participate...i tied a yellow ribbon to the "so called" tree (my photo was taken...yucks)...and got to talk to Mr Pang...my lep teacher...didnt noe he was quite chatty...hahahaz...zooming back to the cip i did ytd... Went with my classmates & yuzhi...this was my first time organising a cip...so kinda nervous...i was afraid tat i'll sux at being the person in charge...luckily...nothing really went wrong...juz tat...i was late...oOpS...anyway, all of us parted our ways to parts of s'pore...hoping ppl will donate some coins for charity...since the nkf thingy was juz over...yuzhi & i went to bugis...the guanyin temple there...cos yuzhi said tat there are many generous ppl there...guess wat...:)
for the lst 10 mins...i was standing under the hot sun...taking the cans and bookmarks...hoping ppl will donate...guess i was too intimidating or wat...all shunned me like crazy...some of them even glared at me...oh my gosh...i think some ppl still couldnt get over the nkf thingy...there were also other charity organisations around the area...the volunteers were nice aunties...one of them even encouraged me to be more daring...dun be afraid...i noe...but sometimes it juz pissed me off tat ppl can ignored me completely...a smile of declination will do no harm right? however, my luck changed for the better when time passed...more ppl pitied me...so to say...so my collection began to grow...along the way...i met a lot of funny things...firstly...i was accused of being a malay and having a malay bf???...cos i was helping a malay organisation to raise money in front of a chinese temple...how ironic can it be? Later, i met my sch choir teacher...surprisingly...she rmb me...hohoho...she also donated cos i quite pitiful lohz...one nice young lady also donated cos her ex-stead in ny (her current stead was wif her lohz...lol!) the most interesting part was i witnessed a case whereby a china lady was handcuffed by the police...everybody was like so "ba gua"(including me! :P)...spectulating wat was happening...i dunno actually but later heard frm yuzhi...it was like illegal syndicate involving in a theft case....the lady was like bawling and kneeling...no wonder everyone stopped at their feet...seemed to be a great chance for me to ask donation but err...they are too engrossed with drama rama....
yuzhi & i had a lot of fun while doing this cip...we even went to guanyin temple to "draw lots" (qiu qian)...i dunno how to qiu qian...so yuzhi taught me...after 3 attempts...i managed to "qiu" one "qian" tat's for me...i actually asked for my studies & love life during my 1st 2 tries...but since it's not working, i juz asked for my studies at the last try...in the end, the qian i got was a good one...but not related to studies at all...it mentioned tat "a marriage will be arranged and a son will be born..." i was like WAT? arranged marriage???? OMG...i dun wan...:(
the cip ended with a slight despair...cos my can is not heavy at all...compared to my other frenz...their cans were like soooo heavy...almost filled up the whole can! I had done flag day 3 times and none of these times i had at least half can full...so i was really a failure lohz...i think i had to find other cip tat suits me...argh....but overall...this cip is damn interesting....
haiz...i left with 4 pathetic days to term 4...soooo fast..and i haven even touched any homewrk...ok...scold me for slacking...i have to pia all my homewrk as priority...hope i will have time left for some revision...or else...doom awaits me... :P

ps: oh ya...i felt tat i am addicted to comics again..."chou xiao ya wang zi" is really nice...ahhhh

tEaCheRs' DaY sPeCiAL

2005-09-01T16:30:00.000-07:00

hAppy tEachers' dAy! luv this day...cos it's a holiday...hehez...so i'm here blogging...juz for a while...:P
ytd...it was tchers' day celebration in sch...i shld say the atmosphere was lacking...i dunno y...juz cldnt feel a thing...but the thought of going back to cchms got me excited...ironically...not becos of teachers...but to see my old pals...glad to see dor...recovering frm her grief and looking gd...she was the same old self...for ong...she was prettier...cos she tied up her hair...not like auntie anymore...hahahz...got to see some teachers in sch...they hadn't changed a bit...maybe it's juz a year tat passed...wu jiong changed his hairstyle though...but still look weird...hahahz...many of my teachers "left" the sch already...either retired or quit...didnt get to talk to any teachers...becos they are like superstars...bombarded by other students...so i juz left with ong to meet ping at bugis...
ping was cool as ever...as she claims...she is a "guai" gal...hahahaz...seemed tat no one had changed...probably y our friendship was very steady...after lunch, we went to national library...it was my first time there...and tat place was sooo huge...we went to the reference section and read up a little...of cos...we gossip and chatted...i got to noe their perspectives on love...ping wanted her first love to last forever...ong wanted hers to be special...but for me...hahahz...i dun mind if my first love doesnt last...not tat i do not cherish it or take it too lightly...it's tat i think it's impt to experience ups and downs in relationships so tat one can learn frm the mistakes and become stronger mentally and physically...hahahz...maybe i'm wrong...but this is wat i feel for now....:P
later, we went to mos burger for a drink...and ong blurted out a guy tat fits her ideal kind of guy...ping and i spent so much time thinking who is the guy tat can actually attract ong...we were tortured by ong's stubborness...in the end...we knew the answer and indeed...we were shocked...i was very shocked yet disappointed...shocked becos i did not expect this...disappointed was tat i dun noe this guy well...haiz...
after parting with ping, ong and i continued to chat...and she said she was tired of being match make with guys...i noe...cos i do have the same plight...but as long as u believe it's not true...tat it'll be alright...hehez...but i'll continue to tease her...cos it's really fun to see her expressions...hehehez...
ppl often mistaken me as a boy-crazy gal...only like shuai ge...hahahz...i dun deny but i noe for myself...i admire shuai ge but doesnt habour any hopes of having one as a bf... becos i noe a gal like me rarely attract any guys' attention... it's not tat i had low confidence for myself...it's juz tat it is a fact and i'm willing to accept it....ong and my relatives encouraged me to slim down to look beautiful...i noe...but i wldnt be happy...cos i want to find a guy tat can accept the real me...b4 i make any changes...this kind of guys are rare but i noe there are...slimming is tough...really...so i need love as a motivation...cos it'll be very effective...trust me...hahaz...but of cos...i dun need it now...study is still no.1 & i am happy the way i am for now...
i still rmb last time...i was being accused as a flirt becos i always looked so happy talking to guys...do u want to noe y? i was happy becos...there are actually guys who are willing to talk to me...making friends with me becos of my character...so i do treasure this kind of pure frienship...havin guy friends and gal friends have their own advantages...juz wanna widen my social circle...tat's all...and some more...flirting is juz not my forte...urgh!
hahahz...juz i talked too much and revealed too much stuff...but i do feel better typing out all these crap...hahahaz...have to blog off now...need to study hong lou meng! yikes!

PS: hey frenz...dun think i am undergoing depression/ love problems after reading this entry...really...i am really fine! :P

dAydReAM...

2005-08-28T12:04:00.000-07:00

smtimes...i juz hope i am living in a dream. cos i wld be care abt the consequences and do the things i want...hahaz...so maybe it's why i like to daydream sooo much...I dun have worry abt anything...I juz love to fantasize in my own world...guess i was influenced by hong lou meng...cos this week, i am overdosed with the storyline...die...test coming...soo many characters and plots to rmb...haiz...
nothing much happened this week...erm...let me recall if there's any...ah ha...i rmb...i signed up for another cca...can ya guess...it's choir...hahahaz...cos my sch' choir lacks ppl to join a competition in KL...so i went to try(audition)...i think i sang terribly...my pitches are not stable lohz...the teacher was so experienced...her voice was really superb...but mine was yucky...and the most shocking part is...she said i am suitable for soprano! WAT? Sing high notes are not my forte...but she said my high notes are more in pitch...omg...then wat had i been doing in kbox??? i always thought i am more suitable for low notes...haiz... i think i got in as soprano but need some practice...(said by zj)...hahahz..so now have to take good care of my voice...haiz... intense training after promos...CO & Choir...who says we'll gonna be free after promos? no way...
took chem spa this week...omg...everybody got diff values but luckily accuracy is not tested...so dun care lohz...hahahz...as for bio...now is practising skill c & d...report style...yucks... i also took gp compre test (tis week very busy lahz)...first time after sooo many months...compre with AQ...AQ really sux...hmmm...dunno wat my results will be...i cant bear to see...i nvr touch maths tutorial this week...i really felt bad...cos becos of chinese...i neglect my maths...so now...i gonna "kick" chinese away for the time being for maths...btw...3d trigo sux too...u think i have super 3d eyes???
i really like my sch library...cos i can borrow a lot of CDs...hehehz...i managed to borrow hong lou meng from my friends...and i watched it...actually it's not bad...although it is a china production...i think u'll only like it if u read the book 1st...haiz...too bad the male actors are sooo girly...anyway...i borrowed another cd...EDWARD SCISSORSHANDS!!! I wanted to see this movie for a long time already...didnt noe my sch library has it...(to ong: u shld see it...got johnny depp...hahahaz...)...yesh!
there had been tight security in sch lately...causing many problems for students...they will lock up the side & back gates during a certain time...and i always go home at this certain time...ahhh...so troublesome...but i guess sch's safety is still priority...i think i am going back to cchms on teachers' day cos ong they all going back...hmm...good to see some teachers...haiz...dunno wat to type already...cos my tummy is rumbling...gotta eat...hehehz...

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